peace and quiet.
i love when my roommate is gone; it is silent. the only things i hear are the cars driving by, my fingers on the keyboard, and my stomach telling me how thin i'm getting. i feel like i'm going to have an emotional breakdown soon. i'm the type of girl who bottles things up, keeps herself together on the outside, then breaks down every once in a while. i'll be at home this weekend, and i feel like i just need a good "tear myself down" session. i bought the new cosmo, so i'll probably cut that up and paste skinnies in my thinspo journal tonight. my plan is to only eat when my parents make me, and only fruits/veggies when i do eat. i'm going to tell them that i haven't been feeling well, but i doubt they believe that one anymore. i'm "always sick." how true. i'm bloated, nauseous from weighing in this morning, and a little stressed out. yesterday my friend said, "you always have it all together! i wish i could manage as many things as you!" she has no idea what i go through on a daily basis.
on that note, i'm going to enjoy my last 3 hours of silence and read all of your posts before the craziness begins. i will have no more silence for 72 hours. ugh. i just want to run away and waste away in peace...
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on that note, i'm going to enjoy my last 3 hours of silence and read all of your posts before the craziness begins. i will have no more silence for 72 hours. ugh. i just want to run away and waste away in peace...
<3