A gift...
Oh, wow... After I came home from school, Yuugi-kun gave me an MP3 player! It looks so cute, too! Honey keeps on sniffing it, wanting to bat at the little thing with her adorable paws. I wonder how he can afford to take care of me like this... I should probably pay him back soon. But how? I can barely afford anything that's worth something like this.
[I spent most of the day learning how to upload songs. I hope Yuugi-kun doesn't mind. Though, I might have missed a few calls...
He must really love me, doesn't he? To give me something like this... But, I don't know if I can allow my heart to love him the way he loves me. I still feel somewhat depressed whenever I think about him. I know that it's wrong, people will find out, and he'll leave me anyway.
I still want to hurt myself, but I haven't told Yuugi. I don't really want him to worry about me. But, if I think about him, I...kind of feel less pain. But, I have to push out the thoughts of actually being with him. I still don't want to be gay. I'm ashamed of myself enough as it is.]
[I spent most of the day learning how to upload songs. I hope Yuugi-kun doesn't mind. Though, I might have missed a few calls...
He must really love me, doesn't he? To give me something like this... But, I don't know if I can allow my heart to love him the way he loves me. I still feel somewhat depressed whenever I think about him. I know that it's wrong, people will find out, and he'll leave me anyway.
I still want to hurt myself, but I haven't told Yuugi. I don't really want him to worry about me. But, if I think about him, I...kind of feel less pain. But, I have to push out the thoughts of actually being with him. I still don't want to be gay. I'm ashamed of myself enough as it is.]