Jun 28, 2005 09:48
Well, this weekend was crazy!
The garage sale went off without a hitch, and with more things than I could have ever planned on receiving! In fact, the amount of things was not an issue but the amount of people who came was. :( It's truly OK though. God definitely had his hand in the garage sale. I am now looking into setting up E-bay accounts and selling some of the nicer electronics and knick-knacks. I am so thankful for everyone who donated their things and truly thankful for Troy who aided me a great deal and just spent time with me this weekend. (It gets soooo lonely when you are the only one in the house!)
Now I am looking into other opportunities to fundraise and am getting ready to send out letters to various companies and family friends to see if they would like to make a small donation. Anything helps!
This weekend my mother and grandma went to North Carolina to look at homes and check out the area. Both my mother and father love the area down there, but both have mixed emotions. Last night mom told me officially that she didn't want to move. This mine and Richard's home, and she doesn't want to take us away from that. She also feels as though she is "forcing" something to happen. Dad on the other hand, (understandably) really wants us to move. He excited about the entire idea. Who can blame him? He wants to come home to his family everynight. I understand both sides. I just really don't want to leave Richie back in Jersey. I love him dearly, I don't think he truly knows how much I look up to him as my older brother. It's just for the longest time in Richard's life he has felt unloved by his family. And what type of message will it send that as soon as he moves out we leave him here? Hmph. Mom and I also talked about how awkward it would be to return to North Carolina for Christmas and Thanksgiving... but not returning home. She doesn't want to do that to me. It's all so hard. But honestly... I think about moving, and I believe it would draw me so much closer to God. And that would truly be a blessing. I don't know... I just continue to lean upon Him. Mom says to pray for something to happen to let it fall into place... I just keep telling her "Lord willing. It's all up to God." How true.
Talking to mom last night has also made me realize how much the Lord has truly changed my heart in so many ways. Mom spoke about doing fun things like visiting a hotel that is very "Southern Hospitality" and one of the top 500 hotels in the world... and all of their extravagances. All I could think about was how materialistic and sad such places are. Only the Lord, men's souls, and the Word endures forever. I don't think I have ever heard such amazing advice when Amy told me that I should only go where I can be closest to all three. So true...
I have personally been thinking about what the Lord wants me to do. I would really love to be a counselor. I love people so much. I love to aid them and to be there for them, and to hang out with them and do some absurd thing to make them laugh. I have such a desire to aid men's souls and to be close to the Lord as never before. He truly is drawing me closer to Him. OK, I must go off to work. I pray everyone has a lovely day! Lord Bless you always!!!!