Craziness
Life has been crazy.
I have been working everyday, and though I have an easy job, I really do feel a little overwhelmed at times. I always pray that I find my rest in Him. I truly need rest in the Lord because I feel I have a lot of anxiety right now. I have prayed and handed this over to the Lord, but yet I still feel that I am holding on to it. I need the Lord to help my "disbelief" because if you have a true faith in the Lord then nothing should upset you once you hand it over to Him. Oh Lord.
Lately the Lord has laid it upon my heart to notice and take seriously the call to perfection all the saints (that is, those who believe in Him) that he has given us. It is so trying! Like now, should I really be typing in my livejournal when there are so many other things that I could be doing? I mean, my lifestyle is nowhere near perfection! I pray the Lord will move my heart that I may become more and more like God... for flesh is a hard thing to deal with and I often times find that I hate my own.
God can be so hard sometimes in His lessons. And the struggles we have can seem so difficult and out of proportion, so mind-blowing, almost impossible to overcome. We must all depend upon the Lord and claim Philippians 3:14 in our lives. Lord, I need you to help me. But then I think of me pleaing to the Lord and God's answer to Paul when Paul had a thorn in His flesh. Is what I am pleaing for already given to me in the Lord's grace? Oh Lord, I just pray I learn more and more about you everyday.
Last night I was able to make it to Youth Group (late, but just in time for the Bible Study!) I truly get energy from working with Children. I am seriously thinking about going into a counseling type of major so that I may help others all the days of my life. But then again, if I stick with Chemistry I could go into Med-school and just be a medical missionary all of my life. How magnificent would that be? To serve the Lord everyday of my life in a way that might reach out to those who have never heard the Joy of Jesus Christ. I know the Lord uses me everday, but missionaries are so amazing. I truly praise the work the Lord does through these people.
Ardena Baptist Church is going on a missions trip next week to Washington, D.C. I say that and it truly is such a part of my heart right now. Regretfully, it was not in the Lord's will for me to go with them. (How I would love to be with them and talk to others and serve others, ultimately sharing the gospel!) But I feel the Lord has truly called me to pray for them, and I will continuously next week.
As for the Lord calling me to do things... well I have been working everyday and using the money earned (because I know the money I earn is truly given to me by the Lord for His kingdom) to help out fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. But I have been truly worried about buying a car for myself. It is such a burden on my heart! I look at cars and each one I look at I think, "Do I really have to spend that money? Do i really need that nice of a car? Is this truly humble?" I think about Lou and how he drives a beat-up Neon. What an inspiration! See, you don't need anything over-the-top, just something that works. Ugh it's so hard and my flesh is truly struggling because there are three big purchases that I would like to make this summer, a car, a kayak, and a gym membership. The car I feel as though everytime I look I am looking at too nice of cars. No matter how humble of a car a look at... And the kayak is basically not going to happen for as much as I love the boats and would have such a great time using one everywhere, I can not justify how this is going to aid the Lord's kingdom. And why waste money when i can be aiding my brothers and sisters when they truly need it?? And a gym membership... well again, it's money that could be aiding someone else. And I don't want to get caught up upon the image of my body... which is just another issue in itself. Oysh!
OK well I have officially run out of time and need to rush to get ready and get to work. I'm keeping all of you in my prayers. I love you all, and Lord Bless you.
I have been working everyday, and though I have an easy job, I really do feel a little overwhelmed at times. I always pray that I find my rest in Him. I truly need rest in the Lord because I feel I have a lot of anxiety right now. I have prayed and handed this over to the Lord, but yet I still feel that I am holding on to it. I need the Lord to help my "disbelief" because if you have a true faith in the Lord then nothing should upset you once you hand it over to Him. Oh Lord.
Lately the Lord has laid it upon my heart to notice and take seriously the call to perfection all the saints (that is, those who believe in Him) that he has given us. It is so trying! Like now, should I really be typing in my livejournal when there are so many other things that I could be doing? I mean, my lifestyle is nowhere near perfection! I pray the Lord will move my heart that I may become more and more like God... for flesh is a hard thing to deal with and I often times find that I hate my own.
God can be so hard sometimes in His lessons. And the struggles we have can seem so difficult and out of proportion, so mind-blowing, almost impossible to overcome. We must all depend upon the Lord and claim Philippians 3:14 in our lives. Lord, I need you to help me. But then I think of me pleaing to the Lord and God's answer to Paul when Paul had a thorn in His flesh. Is what I am pleaing for already given to me in the Lord's grace? Oh Lord, I just pray I learn more and more about you everyday.
Last night I was able to make it to Youth Group (late, but just in time for the Bible Study!) I truly get energy from working with Children. I am seriously thinking about going into a counseling type of major so that I may help others all the days of my life. But then again, if I stick with Chemistry I could go into Med-school and just be a medical missionary all of my life. How magnificent would that be? To serve the Lord everyday of my life in a way that might reach out to those who have never heard the Joy of Jesus Christ. I know the Lord uses me everday, but missionaries are so amazing. I truly praise the work the Lord does through these people.
Ardena Baptist Church is going on a missions trip next week to Washington, D.C. I say that and it truly is such a part of my heart right now. Regretfully, it was not in the Lord's will for me to go with them. (How I would love to be with them and talk to others and serve others, ultimately sharing the gospel!) But I feel the Lord has truly called me to pray for them, and I will continuously next week.
As for the Lord calling me to do things... well I have been working everyday and using the money earned (because I know the money I earn is truly given to me by the Lord for His kingdom) to help out fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. But I have been truly worried about buying a car for myself. It is such a burden on my heart! I look at cars and each one I look at I think, "Do I really have to spend that money? Do i really need that nice of a car? Is this truly humble?" I think about Lou and how he drives a beat-up Neon. What an inspiration! See, you don't need anything over-the-top, just something that works. Ugh it's so hard and my flesh is truly struggling because there are three big purchases that I would like to make this summer, a car, a kayak, and a gym membership. The car I feel as though everytime I look I am looking at too nice of cars. No matter how humble of a car a look at... And the kayak is basically not going to happen for as much as I love the boats and would have such a great time using one everywhere, I can not justify how this is going to aid the Lord's kingdom. And why waste money when i can be aiding my brothers and sisters when they truly need it?? And a gym membership... well again, it's money that could be aiding someone else. And I don't want to get caught up upon the image of my body... which is just another issue in itself. Oysh!
OK well I have officially run out of time and need to rush to get ready and get to work. I'm keeping all of you in my prayers. I love you all, and Lord Bless you.