To my friends, I BEG for your opinions...
PLEASE READ ME...
Sorry guys haha, I'm totally desperate to figure this out...
This one is aimed toward all of my Non-Single Folk (and any of the single folk who think they have an answer beneficial for me to read):
Do relationships change you as a person?
In the past few months, I've noticed something... I dont think I'm the same Michelle I used to be.
A few weeks after I started working at the JCC, I met this boy... No...I wont call him a boy. He deserves the title of Man. I met this Man (gross I sound like a grown up HAHA) He is WONDERFUL. More then wonderful. Hes Amazing. Fantastic. Magnificent! Fabulous. Teriffic. adjective, adjective, adjective! You get the point. And I dont know, I was thinking about this the other day, ever since I met him... I dont think I've been acting the same? I mean, Maybe I'm wrong, but I just dont feel like my head is in the same place it was before. I've completely abandoned things which I thought were important to me (but I see now were very inconsequential in the scheme of things). I've starting looking at things a different way. Ever since I met this guy, good things have started happening to me...without the bad counterpart that used to follow them.
I've always been a fatkid, its no secret. I've always been on the 'I cant have that im ona diet' mentality, which lasts usually for about a week, then Bamboo always won, or I'd be on a roadtrip to somewhere, and some sort of fastfood option was pretty much all we had to choose from, and there went the "diet" which honestly..wasnt a diet haha... But recently, things have changed. There is not one lousy thing in my apartment...our fridge is OVERFLOWING with healthy food. Seriously, Bob would be LOVVINGGGG our fridge lol. I've been actually putting my JCC Membership to good use. I've been on a regular sleep pattern (and by regular, I mean getting more then like 3 hours per night) I've been feeling better and better about things (with a few emo-spurts here and there) and this is COMPLTELY out of the norm for me...but I LOVE IT.
I cant help but wonder...did I just all of the sudden have a reality check and say, yo Meesh, get your shit together? or is this because of the bo-...err...Man? I wish I had the answer... you know I was thinking about, what would happen if we (god willing) ever went OUT somewhere other then the usual spots we get together...and I was like...shit, I'm embarassing. No wonder people dont give me the time of day. He deserves a way better girl at his side then this. I mean, dont get me wrong. I Love every single bit about me. Sure we all have flaws, but overall, I think I'm a great person. Sure I may by overweight, but the person inside, atleast in my opinion, is fabulous. I'm a strong, hardworking, big hearted person, and I'm proud of who I am inside and out (SEE?!? Would old michelle have EVER said that?? Probs not) But, once I start thinking about it, not only do I deserve to feel as pretty as I know I am, I want to actually Look the part. This guy..he like...he makes me want to be a better person. He motivates me so much to be better then I already am. (motivated, motivated, down right motivated!) He makes my opinions on SO many things just, fly completely out the window, and I'm looking at life, and situations in completely different light. I mean, dare I say, my whole outlook on life is flopping around, but NOT in a bad way. I'm not changing for his approval... I'm just not being so closed minded about things I once was.... He makes me want to be someone I've never been, and I LOVE that. I love that feeling. I really think for the first time in my life, I'm happy? GENUINELY Happy? (it wont last haha, but I'm gonna run with it while I can) I'm seriously, so pumped to eat better, and sleep better, and kick my ass every day at the gym...and I LOVE IT?? I'm so tired of the looks people give me. I'm tired of not getting any of the credit for the person that I am, becuase you know what, its easy to be a douchebag in this world, but I think I take alot more shit then I deserve to take, and I do most of it with a smile... but most of all, I deserve to be happy. I deserve to go out with my friends and feel confident, and not be all shifty in the corner thinking what the hell am I doing here. For the first time ever (yes, ever...like, as in my whole entire life span) someone called me pretty...I didnt know what to do... me?? *looks behind me* me!? Pretty?? That was the nicest thing anyone could have ever said. And you know what...I believe him. I honestly dont think he was talking out his ass (a skill many men have aquired). I think that right there lit the fuse under my butt. I will NEVER forget that feeling...Sure my friends can "oh thats such a cute outfit" or "aww that dress is so pretty" ... but when someone flat out says, you look pretty... its a whole different ballgame folks, and you know what? I'm batting clean-up...this ones goin out of the park... so get ready.
So, now that I've rambled on and on getting completely off topic, I ask you...
do relationships change you? or did I just have a huge reality check?
Sorry guys haha, I'm totally desperate to figure this out...
This one is aimed toward all of my Non-Single Folk (and any of the single folk who think they have an answer beneficial for me to read):
Do relationships change you as a person?
In the past few months, I've noticed something... I dont think I'm the same Michelle I used to be.
A few weeks after I started working at the JCC, I met this boy... No...I wont call him a boy. He deserves the title of Man. I met this Man (gross I sound like a grown up HAHA) He is WONDERFUL. More then wonderful. Hes Amazing. Fantastic. Magnificent! Fabulous. Teriffic. adjective, adjective, adjective! You get the point. And I dont know, I was thinking about this the other day, ever since I met him... I dont think I've been acting the same? I mean, Maybe I'm wrong, but I just dont feel like my head is in the same place it was before. I've completely abandoned things which I thought were important to me (but I see now were very inconsequential in the scheme of things). I've starting looking at things a different way. Ever since I met this guy, good things have started happening to me...without the bad counterpart that used to follow them.
I've always been a fatkid, its no secret. I've always been on the 'I cant have that im ona diet' mentality, which lasts usually for about a week, then Bamboo always won, or I'd be on a roadtrip to somewhere, and some sort of fastfood option was pretty much all we had to choose from, and there went the "diet" which honestly..wasnt a diet haha... But recently, things have changed. There is not one lousy thing in my apartment...our fridge is OVERFLOWING with healthy food. Seriously, Bob would be LOVVINGGGG our fridge lol. I've been actually putting my JCC Membership to good use. I've been on a regular sleep pattern (and by regular, I mean getting more then like 3 hours per night) I've been feeling better and better about things (with a few emo-spurts here and there) and this is COMPLTELY out of the norm for me...but I LOVE IT.
I cant help but wonder...did I just all of the sudden have a reality check and say, yo Meesh, get your shit together? or is this because of the bo-...err...Man? I wish I had the answer... you know I was thinking about, what would happen if we (god willing) ever went OUT somewhere other then the usual spots we get together...and I was like...shit, I'm embarassing. No wonder people dont give me the time of day. He deserves a way better girl at his side then this. I mean, dont get me wrong. I Love every single bit about me. Sure we all have flaws, but overall, I think I'm a great person. Sure I may by overweight, but the person inside, atleast in my opinion, is fabulous. I'm a strong, hardworking, big hearted person, and I'm proud of who I am inside and out (SEE?!? Would old michelle have EVER said that?? Probs not) But, once I start thinking about it, not only do I deserve to feel as pretty as I know I am, I want to actually Look the part. This guy..he like...he makes me want to be a better person. He motivates me so much to be better then I already am. (motivated, motivated, down right motivated!) He makes my opinions on SO many things just, fly completely out the window, and I'm looking at life, and situations in completely different light. I mean, dare I say, my whole outlook on life is flopping around, but NOT in a bad way. I'm not changing for his approval... I'm just not being so closed minded about things I once was.... He makes me want to be someone I've never been, and I LOVE that. I love that feeling. I really think for the first time in my life, I'm happy? GENUINELY Happy? (it wont last haha, but I'm gonna run with it while I can) I'm seriously, so pumped to eat better, and sleep better, and kick my ass every day at the gym...and I LOVE IT?? I'm so tired of the looks people give me. I'm tired of not getting any of the credit for the person that I am, becuase you know what, its easy to be a douchebag in this world, but I think I take alot more shit then I deserve to take, and I do most of it with a smile... but most of all, I deserve to be happy. I deserve to go out with my friends and feel confident, and not be all shifty in the corner thinking what the hell am I doing here. For the first time ever (yes, ever...like, as in my whole entire life span) someone called me pretty...I didnt know what to do... me?? *looks behind me* me!? Pretty?? That was the nicest thing anyone could have ever said. And you know what...I believe him. I honestly dont think he was talking out his ass (a skill many men have aquired). I think that right there lit the fuse under my butt. I will NEVER forget that feeling...Sure my friends can "oh thats such a cute outfit" or "aww that dress is so pretty" ... but when someone flat out says, you look pretty... its a whole different ballgame folks, and you know what? I'm batting clean-up...this ones goin out of the park... so get ready.
So, now that I've rambled on and on getting completely off topic, I ask you...
do relationships change you? or did I just have a huge reality check?