This pain in my chest...the best parts of lonely
I hate the feeling of being alone.
I miss my friends deeply. I miss going out for the day, not knowing where we were going, or what we were doing. I have had a lot of ups and downs in the past three years. Yet, they were some of the best times I've had. I always look at things negatively. Always saying that the teenage years which are susposed to be the best, are over rated. But I have changed my views a little. I thought things over, and realized all the problems that I thought at one point that were so bad, were only just the smallest worries I'll have to face.
Being cheated on by a teenage boyfriend isn't really drama. It sucks yes of course, but it's not something that I should have lost sleep over. But I have learned that all of these "little things" shape you into the person you will become later on in life. If you are cheated on, you're going to have that in the back of your mind in every new relationship you get into. It makes you lose faith in people. So I guess it does matter down the line, whether it is realized or not.
So all the drama that you're dealing with right now, don't worry about it. Because 10 years from now, you'll have more to worry about. Whether it be house payments, a job, or your family, there will be other things that will make you crazy and will make you want to go back to the days when things were easy.
My weekend has been okay. I have been camming with the boyfriend. So I guess it's a form of seeing him. But I haven't really talked to him on the phone since Thursday night. Which is alright because I'm surprised I even got to talk to him this weekend.
Well I'm extremely tired.!!
"But you're the only person I would ever want to..
Break my heart."
Lend me.
I miss my friends deeply. I miss going out for the day, not knowing where we were going, or what we were doing. I have had a lot of ups and downs in the past three years. Yet, they were some of the best times I've had. I always look at things negatively. Always saying that the teenage years which are susposed to be the best, are over rated. But I have changed my views a little. I thought things over, and realized all the problems that I thought at one point that were so bad, were only just the smallest worries I'll have to face.
Being cheated on by a teenage boyfriend isn't really drama. It sucks yes of course, but it's not something that I should have lost sleep over. But I have learned that all of these "little things" shape you into the person you will become later on in life. If you are cheated on, you're going to have that in the back of your mind in every new relationship you get into. It makes you lose faith in people. So I guess it does matter down the line, whether it is realized or not.
So all the drama that you're dealing with right now, don't worry about it. Because 10 years from now, you'll have more to worry about. Whether it be house payments, a job, or your family, there will be other things that will make you crazy and will make you want to go back to the days when things were easy.
My weekend has been okay. I have been camming with the boyfriend. So I guess it's a form of seeing him. But I haven't really talked to him on the phone since Thursday night. Which is alright because I'm surprised I even got to talk to him this weekend.
Well I'm extremely tired.!!
"But you're the only person I would ever want to..
Break my heart."
Lend me.