Jun 11, 2013 18:02
So...I thought I was going to kill over lungs being impinged upon by ribs, and I went from 293 to 268 currently after being off HCG after an allergic reaction Im sitting at 271. So...Im an emotional mess. I go back to shirnk soon, which is good. Im not sure what stopped working. or what exactly is happening with my self in there. but it's not cool. Im at this point where Im all set up, the fortress walls are looking strong and the supply bins are full and the men are ready...but..their leader just doesn't have the fight left in her..like a horse ready to be put to pasture...Im tired of fighting..I've lost the feeling fore it...Once always wanting the dominate hand the upper hand...Id almost roll over and take the submissive position on it all now...except that's not the case..it's not the postion that is being offered. I gota pull it together..