Nov 13, 2006 03:52
too long too short.
my negitivity seems to be too much for people lately.
so ive been told...
last week was hard
friday i got stuck in bed
i didnt eat all day
i didnt drink anything all day
i was just lying there
wishing it would be any other day
wishing that i didnt have issues that kept me in my bed
wishing that i didnt get stuck being the person i am
i had an amazing thursday
i think i aced my exam
i had a photo shoot with aj edwards
fuck he is amazing.
he sang for me while i was shooting for him, and then after
seriously, hope he makes it big.
this weekend was semi relaxing.
sat night i got drunk by myself...
its like... no one wants to go out anymore... its like...
i dont know... everyone grew up and theyre settled.
i dont have a sidekick anymore.
someone who wants to get fucking shitfaced and be crazy
but then again, i cant really do that anymore either...
all this work.
and so, people wonder why i dont want to go out anymore?
or why im not me anymore?
because i cant.
so there.
i cant.
maybe when march comes around and i have my weekends to myself things will change.
maybe i will change.
soon it will be thanksgiving
soon i can breathe for more than one day.
i feel so bad sometimes for my friends because i am the way i am.
i dont expect anyone to forgive me
i just wish that more people could understand me
well, i think ill take my pills and crawl into my bed.
tomorrow i have:
coffee with picco. class for an hour. class for an hour 15. coffee. work from 1-315. work from 345-545. and a breath? then the lib at 7
fuckinnnnnaaaayyyyyyyyyy