you are everything i'm not

[ik_hou_van_jou3]

there's so much to say
but nothing to say at all.
i mean, i have alot of things i could say
but nothing i really want to.
the world is crazy
and my head is spinning a little bit
maybe a lot bit
but id like to try to have some control of it
and say a little bit.
at first i was thinking its bad
i'm bad.
the whole situation is bad
and i can only imagine what she would feel about it
what she would think
what she would say.
and that was the end of it.
bad.
until about 5 minutes ago.
"nothing is this world thats worth having
ever comes easy"
and that was it.
thats what made my head spin.
maybe its supposed to be easy,
maybe its supposed to be risky,
maybe
and then again
maybe not.
ah i don't know
maybe i'm getting ahead of myself
maybe i'm right where i should be
and maybe not.
i don't know.
i'm gonna put on my new clothes
and try get my mind tostop spinning.

the end...

for now.