she's different, because she's so cliche
i love apathy.
not that i don't like being happy or anything.
i mean, i love being happy.
but i guess i mean i like apathy
in place of worrying
or anger
or being sad.
these past couple of days thats kind of what happened.
on sunday i was in trouble,
yes i was a little worried
but i was more apathetic.
all week i'd been freaking out about one of my grades
then i decided to be apathetic
and everything worked out.
my grade was brought up
i was still in a lot of trouble,
but it wasn't that bad.
yesterday i did get really frustrated with my dad
and i didn't want to go home
and i wasn't going to
but then i decided to
and i decided just not to care (aka be apathetic)
and it worked out.
maybe its not apathy i love
maybe its the ability not to totally freak out
or to just not care about something bothersome
because everything's going to work out.
boys are lame as anything more than a friend,
at least for now.
99% of the time i'm happy with who i am
and where i'm going in life.
perfection.
there's this perception that perfection will make us
happy. I mean really, what's perfection?
we see it as someone being faultless. someone without
anything to worry about, because they're faultless.
but maybe that's not really what perfection is.
maybe perfection, is someone being completely happy
with who they are, and being the best to their ability.
maybe that's perfection. maybe that's what
it takes to be happy.