I am NOT machine! >:-(
I need some encouragement. I know this is the wrong place to go, because I only have a couple of friends who read it, but I don't have anywhere else to go where work people won't see it.
I am soooo tired.
I've been pushed to my physical limits with work and can't seem to get my boss to understand how much it HURTS.
I wondered when I took this job if it was too much of a "man's" job, and it turns out it might have been. There are lots of women across the country who do what I do, but I'm not in the best physical shape and it makes it more challenging. Plus I don't have the strength in my hands and fingers to do things the guys can do with ease.
I'm smart and I catch things others don't. I clean my stuff well and keep my kiosks looking awesome, for the most part. But there are certain things we are asked to do that are really difficult for me.
AND...I am swamped with more machines than I want, causing me to have to work more hours a week than I want to work. Add in the fact that this January is the busiest we've been since May/June 2009 as far as movie volume goes, and the fact that they've added a couple of projects that I'm having trouble physically completing and you end up with me working too much overtime, getting reprimanded regularly from my boss and generally daydreaming about quitting every chance I get.
Now my boss is incredible and really does try...he just doesn't get how it is for me. When I say reprimanded, I really mean getting a gentle email reminder. But to me, with as much of a perfectionist as I am, it's a lot more than that. I expect perfection of myself, so when I get little emails from him I take them very personally and usually end up in tears out in my work shed crying and acting out different scenarios of talking with my boss (none of which every really happen).
I just don't know what to do next.
I am soooo tired.
I've been pushed to my physical limits with work and can't seem to get my boss to understand how much it HURTS.
I wondered when I took this job if it was too much of a "man's" job, and it turns out it might have been. There are lots of women across the country who do what I do, but I'm not in the best physical shape and it makes it more challenging. Plus I don't have the strength in my hands and fingers to do things the guys can do with ease.
I'm smart and I catch things others don't. I clean my stuff well and keep my kiosks looking awesome, for the most part. But there are certain things we are asked to do that are really difficult for me.
AND...I am swamped with more machines than I want, causing me to have to work more hours a week than I want to work. Add in the fact that this January is the busiest we've been since May/June 2009 as far as movie volume goes, and the fact that they've added a couple of projects that I'm having trouble physically completing and you end up with me working too much overtime, getting reprimanded regularly from my boss and generally daydreaming about quitting every chance I get.
Now my boss is incredible and really does try...he just doesn't get how it is for me. When I say reprimanded, I really mean getting a gentle email reminder. But to me, with as much of a perfectionist as I am, it's a lot more than that. I expect perfection of myself, so when I get little emails from him I take them very personally and usually end up in tears out in my work shed crying and acting out different scenarios of talking with my boss (none of which every really happen).
I just don't know what to do next.