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I have to endure... I must.
School isn't so horrible, but I am just not enjoying the non-stop business that is my life! I want to be done. I want to be free!
My personality can't stand spending so much time doing things that I don't want to do... doing things that I simply have to do. It's hard to see why I am putting so much time into the things I do put time into. I know the reasons. I want to be a teacher someday. In order for that to be, I have to go through this "light" momentary affliction. I am just so impatient.
I want to create something. I just have these urges every once in awhile to write a book, write a poem, paint a picture, sing a song at the top of my lungs, dance, act. I want to do something I am passionate about. I want to be doing something or making something instead of sitting and reading. Don't get me worng, I love reading. I just want to be able to do more.
I, Grace Maxwell, am always thinking, "What if today were my last day?" I live my life like that for the most part. If today were my last day, would I be doing homework? Would I be going to class? Would I be working at the Chemistry department? No, no, no. I've always heard that this is a healthy perspective... living each day as if it were your last... but it comes to a point where you have to admit that it is important to think ahead and plan for the future expecting that you will have many days ahead of you. I need to find a balance here. I want to be able to set long term goals and work toward those goals while living in the moment.
I must learn how to do this. God, I need your help here. I am a confused busy girl.
School isn't so horrible, but I am just not enjoying the non-stop business that is my life! I want to be done. I want to be free!
My personality can't stand spending so much time doing things that I don't want to do... doing things that I simply have to do. It's hard to see why I am putting so much time into the things I do put time into. I know the reasons. I want to be a teacher someday. In order for that to be, I have to go through this "light" momentary affliction. I am just so impatient.
I want to create something. I just have these urges every once in awhile to write a book, write a poem, paint a picture, sing a song at the top of my lungs, dance, act. I want to do something I am passionate about. I want to be doing something or making something instead of sitting and reading. Don't get me worng, I love reading. I just want to be able to do more.
I, Grace Maxwell, am always thinking, "What if today were my last day?" I live my life like that for the most part. If today were my last day, would I be doing homework? Would I be going to class? Would I be working at the Chemistry department? No, no, no. I've always heard that this is a healthy perspective... living each day as if it were your last... but it comes to a point where you have to admit that it is important to think ahead and plan for the future expecting that you will have many days ahead of you. I need to find a balance here. I want to be able to set long term goals and work toward those goals while living in the moment.
I must learn how to do this. God, I need your help here. I am a confused busy girl.