rainbow connection
i don't even know if have
something to say. not that anyone responds to me anyway. i guess i
don't care. this has always been more for me than any stupid teenage
drama queen that wouldn't understand the way i write anyway. i'm not
sure whats wrong with me though, my moods have been so rampant and even
the littlest disappointment feels like a ton.
but then, i dunno if i'd classify this all under a "little"
disappointment. its when the "plan everything ahead and get it all set
up" peole meet the "woah spur of the moment-i tend to forget some
things due to whatever else may come up" people. i guess if you don't
make definite plans you will never have plans at all. but i already
knew that. and i know what usually happens and i wonder why i am still
surprised. i'm not sure if i ask a lot....but i know there's more being
asked of me. sometimes it seems so unimportant to think in advance when
the situation is involving someone else...well, at least that what it
seems like to me every time it happens. i check the schedule, i make
plans ahead so i can be there if it is at all possible....i love the
music but sometimes it seems like my car runs out of gas....or my
mechanic forgets to fix something until its too late and nothing could
possibly work anymore. perhaps disrespected describes how i feel,
disappointed as well. "out of control" could be argued...when dedaling
wtih 2 spur-of-the-moment people...but not when you are told in
advance, a few times too. blah. too much said already.