the seasons are a cycle....
...as are too many other things in life.
i guess to everyone one there are two kinds of 'important'. whats important to you and whats important to anyone else. i've always wondered about the bonds that people share especially since they will always be hindered by the "important's". i think the first trick is assessing the importance of something to those concerened [we'll say people we care a lot about because most people aren't superhero's going out of their way for random bystanders.....almost sadly] and taking into account how big of a deal it is to them before you assess its value to yourself.
for example: Jill has her dance recital and asked her boyfriend, Matt, to attend. Matt loves that Jill dances, but hates to watch boring old recitals. he figures all he wants to see is the way she dances; the way she moves...and he can do that at any other time, without having tons of people subtract from it. Jill loves to dance and while dancing may not be something she'll do forever its still something that she truly enjoys and is important to her. So when she's there and Matt never shows, or never calls to even let her know he wont be there.........how crushed do you think she felt. you could probably watch has her heart is quietly broken.....again.
and i say again because it seems that people don't realize these things, even if they've had it happen to them. so chances are its happened before...and it'll happen again. thats really quite dismal to think about. going through that feeling over and over and it never being understood on the other end. ha, weird. ... maybe. maybe being overreceptive only sets one up to be hurt, even slightly, later on. and ask anyone [who actually understands] and i can bet they'll say: the worst part isn't that they forgot, or didn't call because they were out with other people, [or any other of a ton of not-so-serious reasons.....i mean if their aunt died they have reason to forget the other important persons around them for a bit], its the fact that they don't understand why you're upset with them, why it hurts, why there's blame to be placed, why the more it happens [or similar things] the more it hurts, the more i wonder why i am even still talking.
we don't ask or want to be top priority, very rarely do we want all of that. but a time slot is always nice..some way to say i'm thinking of you...especially if something important to the other person is happening and ....
i don't think that even needs to be finished. i wonder at its understanding, i wonder why i let it hurt at all. even the littlest pain still hurts.
but whatever. its usually the spreading effect of an infection you worry about, and not so much each little spot.
i make little sense,,,,,i'm not rereading this [i cant..damn computer] and i'm not sure what i said. i think the end came out bitterly..i'm not sure, but i'm not exactly worried either. not as long as my heart is still glowing red and the thought.............
of him<3
i guess to everyone one there are two kinds of 'important'. whats important to you and whats important to anyone else. i've always wondered about the bonds that people share especially since they will always be hindered by the "important's". i think the first trick is assessing the importance of something to those concerened [we'll say people we care a lot about because most people aren't superhero's going out of their way for random bystanders.....almost sadly] and taking into account how big of a deal it is to them before you assess its value to yourself.
for example: Jill has her dance recital and asked her boyfriend, Matt, to attend. Matt loves that Jill dances, but hates to watch boring old recitals. he figures all he wants to see is the way she dances; the way she moves...and he can do that at any other time, without having tons of people subtract from it. Jill loves to dance and while dancing may not be something she'll do forever its still something that she truly enjoys and is important to her. So when she's there and Matt never shows, or never calls to even let her know he wont be there.........how crushed do you think she felt. you could probably watch has her heart is quietly broken.....again.
and i say again because it seems that people don't realize these things, even if they've had it happen to them. so chances are its happened before...and it'll happen again. thats really quite dismal to think about. going through that feeling over and over and it never being understood on the other end. ha, weird. ... maybe. maybe being overreceptive only sets one up to be hurt, even slightly, later on. and ask anyone [who actually understands] and i can bet they'll say: the worst part isn't that they forgot, or didn't call because they were out with other people, [or any other of a ton of not-so-serious reasons.....i mean if their aunt died they have reason to forget the other important persons around them for a bit], its the fact that they don't understand why you're upset with them, why it hurts, why there's blame to be placed, why the more it happens [or similar things] the more it hurts, the more i wonder why i am even still talking.
we don't ask or want to be top priority, very rarely do we want all of that. but a time slot is always nice..some way to say i'm thinking of you...especially if something important to the other person is happening and ....
i don't think that even needs to be finished. i wonder at its understanding, i wonder why i let it hurt at all. even the littlest pain still hurts.
but whatever. its usually the spreading effect of an infection you worry about, and not so much each little spot.
i make little sense,,,,,i'm not rereading this [i cant..damn computer] and i'm not sure what i said. i think the end came out bitterly..i'm not sure, but i'm not exactly worried either. not as long as my heart is still glowing red and the thought.............
of him<3