i have a lot of stuff to do and post and say and show you, but none of is i here right now ( Read more... )

sometimes, i think im never going to be a part of anything anyone.

always on the outside looking in. just like i do with myself.

always seeing the things i do and wondering why

always pushing myself to be better, but never quite being better enough

just hoping that someday

somehow

someone (who isnt me) wont mind

that i am who i am.

and embrace that.

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first time i remember getting drunk, i didnt understand. i was in a pretty bad way and resisted only to feel it later.

now i surrender.

not good, not bad.

i will probably wake up with a hangover.

consider this your drunk dial for the night.

sleep tight all.