love, imperfect
i mused last night, as i finished watching eureka 7 (finally finished with fansubs), that i always seem to fall in love with un-real girls. from the first or second time i saw her, i fell in love with anemone. i hoped desperately that she would see dominic, because she would never see me. i feel like dominic often, but i dont often have the chance to be forced to interact with the girl i love. even in her last scene, anemone was endearing to me (if a bit coarse). it made me very happy to see the conclusion of dominic and anemone's relationship, but at the same time, as it does whenever i think about how the only girls i ever see are not real, it made me very lonely. .. but when i think about that, i realize.. that its nothing new.
someone once told me that she did kendo as an outlet. to me, taekwondo is not an outlet. sure, there are times when you must concentrate everything on what youre doing, and thats peaceful, but outside of the art, "real life" exists. reality.... hurts. i need a way to cope, because right now, im failing.
e7 was pretty good. even if it reminded me a little of my own stories. everything resolved. i enjoyed that, even if i sort of madly cackle/cryed when i was done with it. i think i know how she felt.
someone once told me that she did kendo as an outlet. to me, taekwondo is not an outlet. sure, there are times when you must concentrate everything on what youre doing, and thats peaceful, but outside of the art, "real life" exists. reality.... hurts. i need a way to cope, because right now, im failing.
e7 was pretty good. even if it reminded me a little of my own stories. everything resolved. i enjoyed that, even if i sort of madly cackle/cryed when i was done with it. i think i know how she felt.