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im not really sure why it is that im so dependent upon the existence of other people.
i read something the other day that impressed me in a way, but also made me a little sad. i think it was "being is being perceived" (although it was translated from latin or some such so im not sure how accurate the translation is). i wondered about it and wondered if it were really true. some days i may think yes and some no. maybe just because there are people who i wish to see (or some days even just talk to).... and i find myself questioning their existence because they ... well... arent there.
i know that some of the people i want to see exist.. i know they do.. but others i wonder if i just made them up... if maybe im crazier than i thought i was.
< sigh> today is just a day for rambling i guess... nothing in particular to really say... im just writing for myself
"the journey is just beginning", she says, and i will remember it forever. things like that make life seem more real. people like her make life seem more real. i dont understand why i need people like that in my life... but somehow when nobody special is around, everybody seems a lot more distant.
lately everything is more distant. this reminds me of the times i feel alone, but somehow i dont feel alone right now. somewhat strangely, there is a package on its way from japan that comforts me as it proves that someone special exists...
and (well, hopefully) a turtle trinket from china is near to someone that i like and may remind them of me. i suppose thats all i can ask.
that people remember me... maybe even fondly.
amen.
i read something the other day that impressed me in a way, but also made me a little sad. i think it was "being is being perceived" (although it was translated from latin or some such so im not sure how accurate the translation is). i wondered about it and wondered if it were really true. some days i may think yes and some no. maybe just because there are people who i wish to see (or some days even just talk to).... and i find myself questioning their existence because they ... well... arent there.
i know that some of the people i want to see exist.. i know they do.. but others i wonder if i just made them up... if maybe im crazier than i thought i was.
< sigh> today is just a day for rambling i guess... nothing in particular to really say... im just writing for myself
"the journey is just beginning", she says, and i will remember it forever. things like that make life seem more real. people like her make life seem more real. i dont understand why i need people like that in my life... but somehow when nobody special is around, everybody seems a lot more distant.
lately everything is more distant. this reminds me of the times i feel alone, but somehow i dont feel alone right now. somewhat strangely, there is a package on its way from japan that comforts me as it proves that someone special exists...
and (well, hopefully) a turtle trinket from china is near to someone that i like and may remind them of me. i suppose thats all i can ask.
that people remember me... maybe even fondly.
amen.