so i was checkin out my other bank account and it seems that i have an extra 400 dollars in it. fuckin hells yea. on a side note i'll be in tampa next weekend becuase it's the last weekend that my bro can party hard before he has to go back to training. woot.

for once my life seems to be on the right track. i've joined SGA and am starting to become really involved in campus. becuase i've quit hardcore video gaming and quit smoking i have not had any sudden attacks of depression or unhappiness. granted there are things in my life that i would change, but for now i can handle that and am genuinely happy. ( Read more... )

there are so many thoughts in my head, but i can't bring myself to write them down. almost as if they are not even worth putting into written words. worth the thought, but not worth the contemplation as such written ideas are entitled. insomnia is a bitch.

man life is so freaking crazy >.

im not sure about anything anymore. it's all so confusing. no matter the effort that you put into any relationship you are fucked. in the end they all go away and all thats left is the memories of what you had. i know i have to go out and do this all over again. blind myself about anothers imperfections and my own, fall in love again, realize its a ( Read more... )

i used to wonder why people took a shitload of pills to get rid of their problems, but for once i truly understand ( Read more... )

man, for the first time in a long time i realized that im happy again. didn't really expect it. after a night of hard core studying via addarol alot of things made since about my life and what i want to do with it. with addaral my ADD is gone and i can finally read shit and actually understand it the first time instead of the 80th time. best idea ( Read more... )

man i am such a god damned masochist. i know to ignore people who cause me pain, and then just to fuck with myself, i don't and i cause myself more pain. i guess i figure that after a while it just won't hurt anymore. granted it's starting to become true, but damn there has to be a fucking easier way. now i need a fucking cigarrette. fuckers, all ( Read more... )

man i need something new, alcohol and cigarettes dont do it for me anymore. i hate not feeling anything anymore. shit i think my comp got fuckin haxed.

so a little while ago i was talking to a good friend of mine and i said that not very things make me happy anymore, and that i was so glad that i had my guitars here so i could vent on them and say things that can't be said in words. truly karma was listening. this morning i woke up and started tuning my accoustic because it was sounding really ( Read more... )