Whoa.
'Emotion suffocation stops you breathing far quicker than physical asphyxiation.'
^^I love that quote.
I had a scary moment yesterday. I went for a shower because I'd just eaten and felt really sick. Vomited; nothing new. Stood up, and jesus... it felt like the room was rocking at a 45 degree angle. I couldn't support my weight or see properly or anything. I think I must've passed out because I was on the floor, and had smacked my head against the wall. Fuck, it hurt.
If I don't eat I feel ill, if I eat I feel ill, and purging is making me ill. I'm scared, I've had enough. I hate this. I don't know what to do to make it alright again.
Food repulses me.
I wish I didn't feel so sick all the time.
I don't know what to do.
Gypsy is dying I think. She hasn't touched her food, and has been lying really still on her side all day. I don't want her to suffer. I want her to be happy and alive and not so cold :`(
I don't want her to die.
It's not fair.
Tracing bright matches over my arms, leaving a trail of pain and roasting flesh.
I need to BURN
^^I love that quote.
I had a scary moment yesterday. I went for a shower because I'd just eaten and felt really sick. Vomited; nothing new. Stood up, and jesus... it felt like the room was rocking at a 45 degree angle. I couldn't support my weight or see properly or anything. I think I must've passed out because I was on the floor, and had smacked my head against the wall. Fuck, it hurt.
If I don't eat I feel ill, if I eat I feel ill, and purging is making me ill. I'm scared, I've had enough. I hate this. I don't know what to do to make it alright again.
Food repulses me.
I wish I didn't feel so sick all the time.
I don't know what to do.
Gypsy is dying I think. She hasn't touched her food, and has been lying really still on her side all day. I don't want her to suffer. I want her to be happy and alive and not so cold :`(
I don't want her to die.
It's not fair.
Tracing bright matches over my arms, leaving a trail of pain and roasting flesh.
I need to BURN