eyes closed, eyes open... no matter what, I see you everywhere
I hate that everything reminds me of you.
I can't watch movies. Pretty much every movie ever made has, at some point in it, people very much in love. It makes me... i don't even know how to describe it. It just hurts. People watch scenes like that in movies and wish so badly to feel that way about someone. It's beautiful, but sad at the same time. The saddest part is having it and seeing it get pulled out from under you and not being able to do anything about it. It drives me crazy. How could I not go crazy? It's like having somebody hold your winning lottery ticket just out of your reach and making you jump and grab for it knowing you'll miss.
Sometimes I wonder if it's better to live in blissful ignorance.
I'd like to say no, and I think I would mean it but... hmmm.
It's mostly the way they kiss. They try to capture that "totally in love" kiss. And there's nothing like that...
I think that's what I miss most. I literally held my breath when i kissed you. You just pulled me in. It was amazing. And every single time, I still got butterflies, even if just a few.
Damn that will be hard to top.