Everything was so wonderful

but i cant help but get the feeling

that history is repeting itself again

like it always will....

its hard when your so close but so far away

I have some pretty amazing people in my life right now.

It makes me happy.

Luke came and left again

I cut him out of my life for the last time.

as soon as he left the anxity attacks stopped.

that was a few months ago.

I'm still making bad decisions....but at least that one is gone.

no more yankee candle for me

hopefully i will hear from urban outfitters tomorrow....

we'll see.

I was going to try and run away again...maybe to california...

but i've found a reason to stick around again...

and as always its trouble with a capital T.

I'm easly smitten what can i say....

hahaha... I also made out with any girl i could get my hands on this weekend.

why?

becasue girls are good kissers and my friends are hot.

and the boy i like doesnt make out with me

and i wanted make out time.

maybe i should just switch teams....

xoxo

its amazing how much awesomer you can feel by just changing your diet a little

my mom and i have started the "avoid the middle" grocery shopping policy

aka...we get our fresh fruit, veggies, meat and dairy and thats it. we dont go down any of the isles

its awesome.

no more food from boxes(ok maybe some cous cous!)
no more frozen entrees

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I'm much more ok at 25 about being by myself and having me time and not caring as much if no one calls me for a day.  After living with someone for a year 24/7 i really learned to charish "me time"

i will be going to school in the fall

I will have my own place soonish..i think

I have cut people out of my life who dont make me happy

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i have no idea what i am doing anymore

i guess i am living in the moment and trying not to make plans that i am just gonna break.

jessiedoll is in town this week which is fantastic...her and I and adrienne and such went out in springfield to fat cats for a night of making fun of people. its bad..but so much fun.

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