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[i_still_unravel]

i'm starting to get panic attacks again

i broke down this morning and cried for like an hour and i dont even know about what

who am i kidding i'm still fucking crying.

i need a job to keep me busy

i need to be in school already.

i need my own place and a dog to hang out with me.

then i can distract myself from my head by studying and sewing and music.

I'm happy that lukes back....hs such a good friend.

now if i can just keep myself from running the hell away from him and all my problems then i"m all set.

to much alone time is not good for me.  but not enough is even worse.

I'll figure out the balence one of these days