Well I feel much better. Ended up going to a concert on Saturday, which I have only now recovered from. It was a heavy metal concert of the Deftones and System of a Down.
Let me tell you this just reinforces the fact that there is nothing quite like heavy metal to get out aggressions in a healthy way. I mean fighting does some good, but typically that just leads to more problems than it is worth unless it is a ring. And good luck with someone like me getting into a ring;with my size I'd get blown away real fast.
As soon as the concert started I could feel the music. this isn't me being artistic, though I suppose the screams did resonate with me, I could really feel the music. Every strum of the bass and the guitar literally pulsated through me in the air. I didn't really know the Deftones music that well save for that one song that they did in Queen of the Damned. Most of their music just sounded like guitar and intermittent high pitched screaming. Honestly, that worked perfectly for me. You don't need to know the songs to get a feeling for them. I just listened and whenever the singer screamed I screamed too. I love concerts, it doesn't matter how loud you scream-no one can hear you and if they can hear you they think that you are just singing along with the songs.
Then came on System of A Down. I love this band, I've been listening to them ever since they came out. They performed for two hours straight. Like no breaks to talk to the audience, just kept playing song after song on loop. They had maybe three lines to the audience in the entire show. They kept changing set background and had a lot of energy throughout it, and they played the gambit of everything they have put out. Though the screaming wasn't nearly as therapeutic as they tend to do more melodic singing than straight up screaming in their song the fact that the entire audience sang along with every lyric really was quite impressive. Also what was amusing to me was that they would fuck with their audience, changing up the tempo of song or singing things with a different inflection than on the albums to throw off everybody singing along.
I may have moshed a bit during System of a Down, which is what threw me out of whack. Mind you I didn't go as hard as some people, I wasn't going to be lining up for the Wall of Death or anything. (The Wall of Death, for those of you not in the metal scene, is where the audience divides into two parts. Then upon a cue in the music you run as fast as you can towards the other side and start fighting as hard as you can. The best way to avoid this is to be aware of the audience so you don't get caught in the middle and back up to the edges of it.) Despite this fighting habit during the songs the audience is really the most civil audience I have been a part of.
Music is a very powerful tool for the conveyance of emotion. I just find that for rage there is nothing quite like an entire genre based upon saying that politicians and all of society is fucked. Perhaps that is only me though.