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So I came up with a soundtrack for one of my characters. All the songs are provided, just in case you want to give them a listen. I think they're all really good songs even if you don't know the character I'm talking about. There's a lot of hard rock since Vorruna is a very angry, violent person at her very heart and is going through a mental breakdown right now. I put way too much thought into this, but it amused me to make and even to listen to the songs with these meanings in mind.
Tracklist is as follows:
1.Float-Flogging Molly
2. Lifeline-Papa Roach
3. Undone-All That Remains
4. Thick As theives- Dashboard Confessional
5. Unbound (The Wild Ride) -Avenged Sevenfold
6. The Red- Chevelle
7. She's Always a Woman- Billy Joel
8. Believe in Nothing- All That Remains
9. Saku- Dir en Grey
10.Had Enough- Papa Roach
11.Coming Undone- Korn
12.Diary of a Madman- Ozzy Ozbourne
13.Thrown Away (and a bonus song, Tightrope)-Papa Roach
14.Ghostflowers- Otep
15.Heart Still Beats-Brave Saint Saturn
16.Burning Bright-Shinedown
17.Vow- Garbage
18.Crush 'Em-Megadeth
19.Guernica- Brand New
20.Money Talks-AC/DC
21.Divide-Disturbed
22.Room of Angel-Akira Yamaoka
1.Float-Flogging Molly
http://www.4shared.com/file/101141182/c49c2cf4/Flogging_Molly_-_Float.html
Drank away the rest of the day,
wonder what my liver 'd say.
Drink, that's all you can.
Blackened days with their bigger gales,
blow in your parlor to discuss the day.
Listen, that's all you can.
Ah but don't, no don't sink the boat.
That you built, you built to keep afloat.
Sick and tired of what to say,
no one listens anyway.
Sing, that's all you can.
Ramblin' years of lousy luck,
you miss the smell of burnin' turf.
Dream, that's all you can.
Ah but don't, no don't sink the boat.
That you built, you built to keep afloat
Singled out for who you are,
it takes all types to judge a man.
Feel, that's all you can.
Filthy suits with bigot ears,
hide behind their own worst fears.
Live, that's all you can.
it's all you can
it's all you can...do.
No matter where I put my head,
I'll wake up feeling sound again.
Breathe, it's all you can
Tomorrow smells of less decay,
the flowers greet this bloomin' fray.
Be thankful, that's all you can.
Ah but don't, no don't sink the boat.
That you built, you built to keep afloat.
A ripe old age,
that's what I am.
A ripe old age,
just doin' the best I can.
This is Vorruna's present mindset. Her world has just been shaken pretty hard. She went insane, consumed by the deepest fears of her mind, and then came back to her senses and found that she was married. Her husband then left her to go think, leaving her confused as to how she even got married and feeling thouroughly abadoned. Then her brother, her idol, found out that she was married and slept with someone in town. He then tortured and beat her in public for not inviting him to the wedding. Right now she's trying desperately to redeem herself and keep her head above her despair and anger at herself and the world. She's clinging to her vices and hoping that she can look better in the eyes of those that she cares about.
2.Lifeline- Papa Roach
http://www.4shared.com/file/101143223/e13b823a/05_-_papa_roach_-_lifeline.html
When I was a boy,
I didn't care 'bout a thing.
It was me and this world and a broken dream.
I was blaming myself,
for all that was going wrong.
I was way out there,
on the wrong side of town,
and the ones that I loved,
I started pushing 'em out.
Then I realised,
that it was all my fault.
I've been looking for a lifeline,
for what seems like a lifetime.
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
So I put out my hand,
and I asked for some help.
We tore down the walls I built around myself.
I was struck by the light,
and I fell to the ground.
I've been looking for a lifeline,
for what seems like a lifetime.
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of dispare?
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
You know a heart of gold,
wont take you all the way.
And in a world so cold,
its hard to keep the faith.
I'm never gonna fade away!
Yeah!
I've been looking for a lifeline,
for what seems like a lifetime.
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of dispare?
I'm drowning in the pain
breaking down again
looking for a lifeline
This is much like Float with Vorruna's theme of mind, but I think that this one reaches deeper. Vorruna, despite being a violent psychopath, does still have some good within her. She feels like she has constantly been betrayed by the world around her, but somewhere deep down she wants to find someone truly good. She thinks that everyone that is good is lying, that they are all jsut as corrupt as the rest of us, but somewhere she hopes that they aren't. She wants there to be one light that can actually save people, even if she realistically "knows" that good people do not really exist. She may be a bastard, but she is not completel beyond redemption.
3.undone- All That Remains
http://www.4shared.com/file/101144506/3bff3a0b/Undone.html
WELL HOT DAMN
It's hard to tame the passion - THAT LEADS ME HERE.
No Better choice,
No stronger voice,
And we'll sacrifice the fear.
I've pushed through hesitation - I'VE SEEN THROUGH DOUBT.
I'm better now,
Within her eyes,
THEN I'LL EVER BE WITHOUT.
We can push through,
we are one in this.
We are not...Undone.
WE'RE NOT DONE UNDONE...(x2)
I know my limitations - I'VE LEARNED FROM LIFE.
THIS GREAT REWARD,
I'M HONOR BOUND,
Not Sacrifrice, Not Price.
I've found my inspiration - HELD IN BOTH HANDS,
I'm Fully whole.
In trust and care,
I'M STRONGER.
We can push through,
we are one in this.
We are not...Undone.
WE'RE NOT DONE UNDONE...(x2)
WE CAN PUSH THROUGH
We are one in this,
we are not...Undone.
WE'RE NOT DONE UNDONE...(x2)
The screams seem to go well with Vorruna's mindset. She would just plow through, reassure herself that she won't let herself fall quite forcefully. In the end she will have to rely upon others to do this, and she knows this. She needs others to believe in her and then she'll be nromal, or at least as close as she ever gets. The song is a bit more love centered than Vorruna ever would be, she thinks that love is a lie, but I think that if you count the love of friends and family then it still works.
4.Thick As Theives-Dashboard Confessional. See previous Post for explanation and song of this one.
5.Unbound (The Wild Ride) -Avenged Sevenfold
http://www.4shared.com/file/101146598/a78c64ce/Avenged_Sevenfold-_Unbound__The_Wild_Ride__.html
Somewhere life is good, and things go as they should.
it's hard to find, but that’s alright yeah!
Searching for the way, push harder everyday.
It's deep inside, that shining light yeah!
But I'm scarred, by barriers placed in my path
I'm scathed...
This ride that takes me through life,
Leads me into darkness but emerges into light.
No one can ever slow me down,
I'll stay unbound!
Sometimes when we're young, and always on the run.
It gets so dark and I know that place yeah!
So don't be too concerned, you got a lot to learn,
Well so do I and we've got plenty of time yeah!
Don't fall off the track yet with so many races to go,
Hold on.
This ride that takes me through life,
Leads me into darkness but emerges into light.
No one can ever slow me down,
I'll stay unbound!
Some live so wrong, with what we do is each his own.
Living in fear, end the shame for countless years.
I never lived in fear I knew I'd die another day,
I never viewed my life as something slipping away.
Some live so wrong, with what we do is each his own.
Living in fear, end the shame for countless years,
I never lived in fear I knew I'd die another daym
I never viewed my life as something slipping away,
There's nothing here to take for granted,
with each breath that we take,
the hands of time strip youth from our bodies,
and we fade.
Memories remain,
as time goes on.
There's nothing here to take for granted
with each breath that we take
the hands of time strip youth from our bodies,
and we fade,
Memories remain,
as time goes on.
Vorruna does see herself as unstoppable. She''l survive even if you, or at least most of you, die in the process. And, when push comes to shove and the world is ending, she'll be on the "good" side even if she does make a living and an amusment out of killing and poisoning them in every day life. She lives life to the fullest that she can see, regardless of the prices it holds for the general population. But she doesn't want the world to all die. She has yet to feel the fading of youth, but I know that as she ages she'll still try the hardest. She'll just use more poison and less stabbing as time goes on.
6.The Red- Chevelle
http://www.4shared.com/file/101148125/dd1f1e57/Chevelle_-_The_Red.html
They say freak,
When you're singled out,
The red, well it filters through.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again.
This change, he won't contain,
Slip away, to clear your mind.
When asked, who made it show,
The truth, he gives in to most.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red....
They say freak...
When you're singled out.
The red, it filters through...
This is Vorruna's outward expression of anger. Even though she may be sad or perhaps just angry at herself, she will take it out on the world. A red haze will slip over her vision and she will feel the desire to destroy, to stab. It only takes one straw to break the camel's back and she's always just on the verge of violence.
7.She's Always a Woman-Billy Joel
http://www.4shared.com/file/101148615/f37d5b11/07_Shes_Always_A_Woman.html
She can kill with a smile,
She can wound with her eyes.
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies.
And she only reveals what she wants you to see.
She hides like a child,
But she's always a woman to me.
She can lead you to love,
She can take you or leave you.
She can ask for the truth,
But she'll never believe.
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free.
Yeah, she steals like a thief,
But she's always a woman to me.
Oh--she takes care of herself.
She can wait if she wants.
She's ahead of her time.
Oh--and she never gives out,
And she never gives in,
She just changes her mind.
And she'll promise you more,
Than the Garden of Eden.
Then she'll carelessly cut you,
And laugh while you're bleedin'.
But she'll bring out the best,
And the worst you can be.
Blame it all on yourself,
Cause she's always a woman to me.
Oh--she takes care of herself.
She can wait if she wants.
She's ahead of her time.
Oh--and she never gives out,
And she never gives in,
She just changes her mind.
She is frequently kind,
And she's suddenly cruel.
She can do as she pleases,
She's nobody's fool.
And she can't be convicted,
She's earned her degree.
And the most she will do,
Is throw shadows at you.
But she's always a woman to me.
Vorruna exists in a bit of duality. She seems to be very kind to people and then will slip them a poison. She doesn't even need to do that though. Frequently she messes with people's minds, just smiles and convinces them to do dark things even though they have claimed to be against such acts. She is a manipulator. She only shows what she wants to to people and will take advantage of them in a moments notice. Even still somehow people still have adopted her as a little sister and can care for her.
8.Believe in Nothing- All That Remains
http://www.4shared.com/file/101151805/a0902160/Believe_in_Nothing.html
Into a strange new world, into the after all your tears
Might find you’ve falling too far?
Take another look, Take another ride
Can’t we make them leave their hate behind?
And I still believe in nothing.
Will we ever see the shape of tomorrow?
Into the empty storm,
into the formless loss of hope,
where we can forget the game.
And I still believe in nothing.
Will we ever see the shape of tomorrow?
Nothing is sacred when no one is saved.
Nothings forever so count your days.
Nothing is final and no one is real.
Pray for tomorrow and find your empty still.
Nothing is sacred when no one is saved.
Nothing is forever so count your days.
Nothing is final and no one is real.
Pray for tomorrow and find you’re empty.
Nothing is scared when no one is saved.
Nothings forever so count your days
Nothing...
Nothing is really sacred to Vorruna. She believes strongly in her god, the god of death Noctus. But that doesn't stop her from blaspheming horribly against the religion. She will say anything, unless it is bad about her family...unless it's her father and his commoner wife. No one is ever really saved in religions, she has never seen the gods actually show they care to end the suffering of the people around them. So until the gods themselves come down, she will blaspheme and be as heretical towards everything as she likes.
9.Saku- Dir en Grey
http://www.4shared.com/file/101152683/99018cb9/03_Saku_.html
Translation:Where's the fortunate future?
Where does our fortunate future come?
dick men
fuck off fuck off
and wipe
[Get back my merrily memory]
under the sun
To be revealed as if you were to be ridiculed, the disclosure of the flow of the red river
You walk the mountain road made of corpses smilling
Again you reach out and the ants gather around the lilly
under the sun
People that can't redeem have ash, tears, and taciturnity in both their hands...
Whats Cruel is that the Sun and the Moon comes together
Even tomorrow looks away
On the Red Day you question taciturnty and...
For every thing that is good that happens to Vorruna, it is usually because she had to kill or con a lot of people to get there. And she'll kill with a smile, without regret. She feels the world is full of bastards who pretend not to be bastards. So why not kill them in a fit of anger after being mocked and put down for most of her young life.
10.Had Enough-Papa Roach
http://www.4shared.com/file/101153651/7a1df4bd/06_-_papa_roach_-_had_enough.html
I turn the channel on the tv
Another boy shot tonight
I can't believe what I am seeing
A body bag, a mother cries
It seems like this is never ending
I've had enough, so I decide
The time has come for me to face it
I can't refuse the war inside
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
I don't know if I can hide it
I know the truth, it's only lies
The present day, we'll deny it
The body count, a steady rise
In my head there is a riot
I changed the world, no one dies
The time has come for use to fight it
We can't refuse the war inside
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
I know that you can change the future
I know that we can make it happen
In my head there is a riot
And I don't think that I can fight it
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
We have had enough
All Vorruna has seen around her, ever since childhood, has been violence. She now finds a solace in this. Her father would hit her and her siblings, save for her second oldest sister Bridget, because they didn't follow his way of thinking and weren't clerics of his goddess Lumina. She followed the example of her oldest sister and brother Jasper and left it all behind after having enough of living like that. It still touches everything she does and she still sees violence as affection. She can't escape it.
12.Coming Undone-Korn
http://www.4shared.com/file/101154870/a865b31a/Korn_-_Coming_Undone.html
Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me
That's right
Deliver it to my heart
Please strike
Be deliberate
Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Choke choke again
I thought my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet sugar gun
Does not protect me
That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now
Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like i'm not getting better
Not getting better
Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Despite her best efforts, Vorruna does keep slipping towards madness pure and unrestrained. No matter how in control she seems she's always, like noted before, one step away from giggling and stabbing a squirrel about 20 times to make sure it's dead. Demons from her past, both literally and metaphorically, will never leave her alone and sometimes it just gets too much and she breaks.
12. Diary of a Madman- Ozzy Ozbourne
Screaming at the window,
Watch me die another day.
Hopeless situation,
endless price I have to pay.
Sanity now is beyond me,
there's no choice.
Diary of a madman,
Walk the line again today.
Entries of confusion,
Dear diary I'm here to stay.
Manic depression befriends me,
Hear his voice.
Sanity now is beyond me,
There's no choice.
A sickened mind and spirit.
The mirror tells me lies.
Could I mistake myself for someone,
Who lives behind my eyes?
Will he escape my soul,
Or will he live in me?
Is he tryin' to get out or tryin' to enter me?
Voices in the darkness,
Scream away my mental health.
Can I ask a question,
To help me save me from myself?
Enemies fill up the pages.
Are they me?
Monday till Sunday in stages.
Set me free.
In the depths of her madness Vorruna grows very paranoid. She finds all sort of enemies everywhere. She may occasionally wonder if the problem is really with her, but in the end those doubts would be pushed away. The physical world lies to her, all that's real is her twisted thought process.
13. Throw Away- Papa Roach
http://www.4shared.com/file/101156393/9b3e844/11_Thrown_Away.html
I kill the rhyme again, I'm comin' sick and on time again
Words manifest from deep inside where people hide.
Within it, chemical unbalanced on the triple beam,
Fuck what you heard, it's about what I seen.
I seen it happen, back hand brand to face smackin'.
Definite disorder, now his mindset is blackened,
The doctor say he's got the brain of a murderer.
This rugged style steals your brian like a burglar.
My heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass,
It's not receeding my body going numb.
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high.
He don't know what he's doing,
He just keeps getting by.
Go away, I want to be thrown away
Born sick, nothing in his hands but his dick.
He couldn't handle shit,
For the life he was leading, led him down the path.
Where the guns blast, don't give a shit about the god's wrath.
Don't tell 'em whats's proper,
The situation unclear like gray.
And I know it gets worse everyday
I am a mess, I've made a huge mess.
I can't control myself, I'm losing it,
I've split all my marbles.
Cause I see you inside of me,
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
A hyper spaz, and that is the way
Sometimes I want to be thrown away.
Vorruna is violent because of the way that she was brought up. She sees it as an escape and doesn't really care if she has to face consequences for it in the end.
13. Tightrope(Bonus Song)
My words are weapons, in which I murder you with.
Please don’t be scared; please do not turn your head.
We are the future the 21st century dyslexic glue sniffing cyber sluts,
With homicidal minds and hand guns.
We are insane nothing will change,
We are insane nothing will change.
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope.
Well there is nothing to save me now,
So I will not look down.
And again, and again, and again, and it happens again, and again
And again
There’s no beginning there is no end,
There is only change.
Progression backwards is this where we are heading,
Take back your soul forget your emptiness.
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope,
Well there is nothing to save me now.
I’m falling to the ground.
Falling to the ground, down to the ground yeah.
I speak of madness, my heart and soul,
I cry for people who ain't got control.
Lets take our sanity, lets take compassion,
And be responsible for every action.
Hell no, no how no way no way no way no how no way no how
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope.
Well there is nothing to save me now,
So I will not look down.
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope.
Well there is nothing to save me now,
I’m falling to the ground.
Down to the ground, all the way down.
This song is the reason that Throw Away is even on the tracklist. Vorruna walks the line between good and evil very carefully. When she falls, she goes deep evil, but she will help people on a regular basis under normal circumstances. She walks a very thin tightrope as people on either side keep trying to pull her into their side, force her to see their reasoning. She waivers all the time, usually towards evil, but she still has a balance somewhat. She's not as sadististic as her brother Jasper at any rate.
14. Ghostflowers- Otep
http://www.4shared.com/file/101157720/ccfbaf8c/07_Ghostflowers.html
And she's a killer.
She's a keeper.
Am I blurry
In your vision?
Was I just
A poor decision?
Cut me open,
With precision.
And we'll finger,
The incision.
Tell me, what have I done?
Quid pro quo
To watch you lose,
Control.
I will give you sanctuary in these hymns of Thanatos.
I will give you sanctuary.
You want to see me burn,
I am living fire.
You want to see me burn,
I am living fire.
You will know me by the scars I bear.
You will know me by the hate I swear.
You will know me by the scars I bear.
Shameless,
Vengeance.
We are the thousand children of death.
We're in between ,
On the fence.
Nondescript,
Antagonist.
I'm in between,
On the fence.
Nondescript,
Antagonist.
I split you open,
Climb inside.
Lose myself,
Eaten alive.
We are the thousand children of death
From the seraphim,
To nephilim,
Exodus.
She's picking ghostflowers from her soul,
She's clipping the wings of fallen angels.
She's picking ghostflowers from her soul,
She's tonguing splinters of broken halos.
You will know me by the scars I bear,
You will know me by the hate I swear.
You will know me from the scars I bear.
You will know me...
From gelatin,
To specimen,
To emptiness.
I will be avenged.
I will be avenged.
These are the secrets
That kill
That kill
We Are the thousan Children of Death.
If Vorruna feels like she has been wronged she will come after people with a vengance. If she is on your side she will kill anyone who hurts you, which may be why she chooses very few allies to truly call her friends. She will be all consumed by venganvce, she's already killed a friend's father because he abused the friend, Will.
15. Heart Still Beats -Brave Saint Saturn
http://www.4shared.com/file/101158724/93f57bc3/15_-_brave_Saint_Saturn_-_Heart_Still_Beats__uncensored_.html
The girl in the alley kneels with exhaustion,
She's guarded by the skinny guy who limps from some infection.
Behind a veil of bleached thin hair her eyes tell a story,
Like a photo of berlin, december 1944.
She's looking for a handout, she's been high for several weeks now,
She's too far gone for whoring and the money just gave out.
And her heart still beats inside,
And the blood runs in her veins.
A remnant of life remains,
Her heart still beats inside.
The man finally comes to the door, I've seen him several times.
He always looks pissed off and his sunglasses stay on.
I think he got his biceps and tattoos while in prison,
And it doesnt seem to bother him when he says "go to hell".
And his heart still beats inside,
The blood runs in his veins.
A remnant of life remains,
His heart still beats inside.
The thought it comes to my mind, to somehow intervene,
But it could bring me trouble, and what can I do anyway?
It's hard to be effected when it happens so often,
To see a life unraveling, through drawn venetian blinds.
I'm sickened by compassion, I'm stifled by my limitations,
Anesthetic apathy, come take the pain away.
And my heart still beats inside,
The blood runs in my veins.
A remnant of life remains,
And my heart still beats inside.
Oh god, we need you here,
We're sinking fast and we dont care.
The evidence is all around me, on both sides of my door,
Our hearts beat.
No matter how dark the people she associates with may be, or how psychotic she herself may be, the same life pulses trhough them all. Nobody is ever completely dead to the world. All Vorruna sees around her is tradgedy and sickness, especially in the giant city slum of Coventry where she likes to hang around. She just got used to the cries for help and ignore them. However still somewhere she has a heart, just as Jasper does and everyone else she interacts with.
16. Burning Bright- Shinedown
http://www.4shared.com/file/101160075/1edefbaa/06_Burning_Bright.html
I feel like there is no need for conversation,
Some questions are better left unreasoned.
And I would rather reveal myself than my situation.
Now and then I consider, my hesitation.
The more the light shines through me,
I pretend to close my eyes.
The more the dark consumes me,
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright.
I wonder if the things I did were just to be different,
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence.
And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation,
Here and now I'll express, my situation.
The more the light shines through me,
I pretend to close my eyes.
The more the dark consumes me,
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright.
There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right,
Such a cruel contradiction.
I know I cross the lines,
it's not easy to define.
I'm born to indecision.
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose,
With no particular rhyme or reason.
She wants to redeem herself in desperation the eys of her brother, which is not redemption in the eyes of the rest of the world. She knows she will have to break the rules and do horrible things in order to get him to forgive her, but she will do it anyway. She will cross every line just to get some sort of feeling of being right again.
17.Vow- Garbage
http://www.4shared.com/file/101161050/e43e0ac2/07_Vow.html
I can't use what I can't abuse
And I can't stop when it comes to you
You burned me out but I'm back at your door
Like Joan of Arc coming back for more
I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died
I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to shut you up
I came to drag you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart
You burn and burn to get under my skin
You've gone too far, now I won't give in
You crucified me but I'm back in your bed
Like Jesus Christ coming back from the dead
I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died
I came to knock you up
I came to cut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to rip you up
I came to shut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart
I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died
I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to shut you up
I came to suck you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart
I can't stop when it comes to you
I can't stop when it comes to you
When it comes to you
Once again playing upon the familiar themes of vengance, abuse, and anger that echoe through Vorruna's thought processes.
18.Crush 'em-Megadeth
http://www.4shared.com/file/101161356/f1b11ae/04_Crush_Em.html
Enter the arena and hit the lights.
Step up now you're in for a ride.
This is war, ain't no fun and games.
We get it up, you go down in flames.
Party time, going down,
you better not mess us around.
The stakes are rich, take a hit or stay.
The price is high, someone's gonna pay.
Heads I win, tails you lose,
out of my way I'm coming through.
Roll the dice, don't think twice,
and we crush , crush 'em.
Looking for trouble, now you've found it.
You're a drum and we're gonna pound it.
Last one standing wins the fight,
hear us scream and shout all night.
Down on the floor and eat the grit.
this is gonna hurt a little bit.
Heads I win, tails you lose,
out of my way I'm coming through.
Roll the dice, don't think twice,
and be crushed, crush 'em.
Now we lay you down to rest,
you'll never be more than second best.
Step inside you're in for a ride
and we crush, crush 'em.
Don't need reason, don't want names,
just a John Doe to put to shame.
Step aside let me explain,
the name of the game is pain.
Now we've found you.
We're gonna pound you.
We're gonna beat you.
Gonna defeat you.
We're gonna bust you.
We're gonna crush you.
We're gonna crush 'em.
Heads I win, tails you lose,
out of my way I'm coming through.
Roll the dice, don't think twice,
and we crush, crush 'em.
Now we lay you down to rest,
you'll never ever be more than second best.
Step inside you're in for a ride,
and we crush, crush 'em.
If you get in Vorruna's way she will take you down. She may not do it directly even, but you will lose if you fight her. She has a lot of powerful allies and tends to be friends with the people who most fear.
19. Guernica- Brand New
http://www.4shared.com/file/101162114/9448ce06/09_Guernica.html
Ever since I was young your word is the word that always won.
Worry and wake the ones you love.
A phone call I'd rather not receive.
Please use my body while I sleep.
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep,
Kept clean and they will let you breathe.
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.
I submit no excuse.
If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake.
If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells
and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure.
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.
I'm not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now and you will always be around.
I'm there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you're sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.
Does anybody remember back when you were very young.
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.
This is from a very specific incident. A few months ago a giant monster from the Void invaded people's dreams and tried to kill everything. It got people sick with Void sickness which would destroy their body and soul. Jasper, Vorruna's brother and idol, got it. She felt so torn over it that she had to back and fight the Void Monster despite being scared out of her mind. She was praying for him, wherever he was, to survive and was willing to do anything to fix it. She was just "too weak to be the cure" under the conventional terms so she had to go and fight to try and kill it off. Nearly got herself completely destroyed in the process, but he did survive so it was worth it to her.
20Money Talks- AC/DC
http://www.4shared.com/file/101162948/ee9a27d0/03_Money_Talks.html
Tailored suits, chauffeured cars
Fine hotels and big cigars
Up for grabs, all for a price
Where the red hot girls keep on dancin' through the night
The claim is on you
The sights are on me
So what do you do that's guaranteed
Hey little girl
You want it all
The furs, the diamonds, the painting on the wall
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
A French maids, foreign chef
A big house, with king size bed
You had enough, you ship 'em out
The dollars up, down, you better buy the pound
The claim is on you
The sights are on me
So what do you do, that's guaranteed
Hey little girl
You break the laws
You hustle, you deal, you steal from us all
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Moneytalks
Moneytalks
B.S. Walks
Moneytalks
Come on come on
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Vorruna will pick your pocket if she comes near. She is more of an assasin than a thief, but if she wants to be playful then she just might rob you blind. She has sold herself for money before and is not above doing horrible things. Granted she won't do anything sexual and would kill you for suggesting such things, but she'll basically do anything else for a price.
21. Divide- Disturbed
http://www.4shared.com/file/101163640/53a18fba/11_Divide.html
Go!
I want to tear a big hole in what is to be,
To end all this infatuation with unity,
I'm seeking my salvation alone again,
I never needed to be one of you anyway
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My own individuality is so unique,
I'm one impressive motherf**ker
Now, wouldn't you say
(Break apart and)
Divide Divide Divide Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
Though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me
I am a little more provocative then you might be,
It's your shock and then your horror on which I feed
So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,
If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My psychotic mentality is so unique
I'm one aggressive motherf**ker
Now, wouldn't you say
(Break apart and)
Divide Divide Divide Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
Though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me
(They won't take me)
Well f**k it all!
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and...)
Divide Divide Divide Divide
Divide Divide, break apart and divide
Vorruna doesn't believe in people working together ,a great irony since the organization which pays her salary believes in everyone getting along and working together. She thinks the world would be a better place if people stopped trying for world peace and unity. jsut stick to your business and leave me to mine. A lawless world would suit her just find. What good is freedom if you can't do anything you are physically, or metaphysically, able to?
22.Room of Angel- Akira Yamaoka
http://www.4shared.com/file/101164304/abbc74f5/03_Silent_Hill_4_OST_-_Room_of_Angel.html
You lie silent there before me.
Your tears, they mean nothing to me.
The wind howling at the window.
The love you never gave,
I give to you.
Really don't deserve it,
but now there's nothing you can do.
So sleep in your only memory of me,
my dearest mother.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
It was always you that I despised.
I don't feel enough for you to cry. Oh well.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
So insignificant,
sleeping dormant deep inside of me.
Are you hiding away lost
under the sewers?
Maybe flying high in the clouds.
Perhaps you're happy without me.
So many seeds have been sown in the field,
and who could sprout up so blessedly?
If I had died,
I would have never felt sad at all.
You will not hear me say I'm sorry.
Where is the light?
Wonder if it's weeping somewhere.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
It was always you that I despised.
I don't feel enough for you to cry. Oh well.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
Good-bye.
Vorruna hates her parents. Her real mother abandoned her, she can't even remember her face. Her father ignored her in favor of her step-mother, her children, and Bridget. When her father did pay attention to her, it was with violence. She has no reason to like her parents and even will kill any commoner that she sees because of her step-mother and her children. She could quite honestly kill them and not feel bad.
Thank you for listening to me ramble. I hope you at least like the songs.
Tracklist is as follows:
1.Float-Flogging Molly
2. Lifeline-Papa Roach
3. Undone-All That Remains
4. Thick As theives- Dashboard Confessional
5. Unbound (The Wild Ride) -Avenged Sevenfold
6. The Red- Chevelle
7. She's Always a Woman- Billy Joel
8. Believe in Nothing- All That Remains
9. Saku- Dir en Grey
10.Had Enough- Papa Roach
11.Coming Undone- Korn
12.Diary of a Madman- Ozzy Ozbourne
13.Thrown Away (and a bonus song, Tightrope)-Papa Roach
14.Ghostflowers- Otep
15.Heart Still Beats-Brave Saint Saturn
16.Burning Bright-Shinedown
17.Vow- Garbage
18.Crush 'Em-Megadeth
19.Guernica- Brand New
20.Money Talks-AC/DC
21.Divide-Disturbed
22.Room of Angel-Akira Yamaoka
1.Float-Flogging Molly
http://www.4shared.com/file/101141182/c49c2cf4/Flogging_Molly_-_Float.html
Drank away the rest of the day,
wonder what my liver 'd say.
Drink, that's all you can.
Blackened days with their bigger gales,
blow in your parlor to discuss the day.
Listen, that's all you can.
Ah but don't, no don't sink the boat.
That you built, you built to keep afloat.
Sick and tired of what to say,
no one listens anyway.
Sing, that's all you can.
Ramblin' years of lousy luck,
you miss the smell of burnin' turf.
Dream, that's all you can.
Ah but don't, no don't sink the boat.
That you built, you built to keep afloat
Singled out for who you are,
it takes all types to judge a man.
Feel, that's all you can.
Filthy suits with bigot ears,
hide behind their own worst fears.
Live, that's all you can.
it's all you can
it's all you can...do.
No matter where I put my head,
I'll wake up feeling sound again.
Breathe, it's all you can
Tomorrow smells of less decay,
the flowers greet this bloomin' fray.
Be thankful, that's all you can.
Ah but don't, no don't sink the boat.
That you built, you built to keep afloat.
A ripe old age,
that's what I am.
A ripe old age,
just doin' the best I can.
This is Vorruna's present mindset. Her world has just been shaken pretty hard. She went insane, consumed by the deepest fears of her mind, and then came back to her senses and found that she was married. Her husband then left her to go think, leaving her confused as to how she even got married and feeling thouroughly abadoned. Then her brother, her idol, found out that she was married and slept with someone in town. He then tortured and beat her in public for not inviting him to the wedding. Right now she's trying desperately to redeem herself and keep her head above her despair and anger at herself and the world. She's clinging to her vices and hoping that she can look better in the eyes of those that she cares about.
2.Lifeline- Papa Roach
http://www.4shared.com/file/101143223/e13b823a/05_-_papa_roach_-_lifeline.html
When I was a boy,
I didn't care 'bout a thing.
It was me and this world and a broken dream.
I was blaming myself,
for all that was going wrong.
I was way out there,
on the wrong side of town,
and the ones that I loved,
I started pushing 'em out.
Then I realised,
that it was all my fault.
I've been looking for a lifeline,
for what seems like a lifetime.
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
So I put out my hand,
and I asked for some help.
We tore down the walls I built around myself.
I was struck by the light,
and I fell to the ground.
I've been looking for a lifeline,
for what seems like a lifetime.
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of dispare?
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
You know a heart of gold,
wont take you all the way.
And in a world so cold,
its hard to keep the faith.
I'm never gonna fade away!
Yeah!
I've been looking for a lifeline,
for what seems like a lifetime.
I'm drowning in the pain,
breaking down again.
Looking for a lifeline.
Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of dispare?
I'm drowning in the pain
breaking down again
looking for a lifeline
This is much like Float with Vorruna's theme of mind, but I think that this one reaches deeper. Vorruna, despite being a violent psychopath, does still have some good within her. She feels like she has constantly been betrayed by the world around her, but somewhere deep down she wants to find someone truly good. She thinks that everyone that is good is lying, that they are all jsut as corrupt as the rest of us, but somewhere she hopes that they aren't. She wants there to be one light that can actually save people, even if she realistically "knows" that good people do not really exist. She may be a bastard, but she is not completel beyond redemption.
3.undone- All That Remains
http://www.4shared.com/file/101144506/3bff3a0b/Undone.html
WELL HOT DAMN
It's hard to tame the passion - THAT LEADS ME HERE.
No Better choice,
No stronger voice,
And we'll sacrifice the fear.
I've pushed through hesitation - I'VE SEEN THROUGH DOUBT.
I'm better now,
Within her eyes,
THEN I'LL EVER BE WITHOUT.
We can push through,
we are one in this.
We are not...Undone.
WE'RE NOT DONE UNDONE...(x2)
I know my limitations - I'VE LEARNED FROM LIFE.
THIS GREAT REWARD,
I'M HONOR BOUND,
Not Sacrifrice, Not Price.
I've found my inspiration - HELD IN BOTH HANDS,
I'm Fully whole.
In trust and care,
I'M STRONGER.
We can push through,
we are one in this.
We are not...Undone.
WE'RE NOT DONE UNDONE...(x2)
WE CAN PUSH THROUGH
We are one in this,
we are not...Undone.
WE'RE NOT DONE UNDONE...(x2)
The screams seem to go well with Vorruna's mindset. She would just plow through, reassure herself that she won't let herself fall quite forcefully. In the end she will have to rely upon others to do this, and she knows this. She needs others to believe in her and then she'll be nromal, or at least as close as she ever gets. The song is a bit more love centered than Vorruna ever would be, she thinks that love is a lie, but I think that if you count the love of friends and family then it still works.
4.Thick As Theives-Dashboard Confessional. See previous Post for explanation and song of this one.
5.Unbound (The Wild Ride) -Avenged Sevenfold
http://www.4shared.com/file/101146598/a78c64ce/Avenged_Sevenfold-_Unbound__The_Wild_Ride__.html
Somewhere life is good, and things go as they should.
it's hard to find, but that’s alright yeah!
Searching for the way, push harder everyday.
It's deep inside, that shining light yeah!
But I'm scarred, by barriers placed in my path
I'm scathed...
This ride that takes me through life,
Leads me into darkness but emerges into light.
No one can ever slow me down,
I'll stay unbound!
Sometimes when we're young, and always on the run.
It gets so dark and I know that place yeah!
So don't be too concerned, you got a lot to learn,
Well so do I and we've got plenty of time yeah!
Don't fall off the track yet with so many races to go,
Hold on.
This ride that takes me through life,
Leads me into darkness but emerges into light.
No one can ever slow me down,
I'll stay unbound!
Some live so wrong, with what we do is each his own.
Living in fear, end the shame for countless years.
I never lived in fear I knew I'd die another day,
I never viewed my life as something slipping away.
Some live so wrong, with what we do is each his own.
Living in fear, end the shame for countless years,
I never lived in fear I knew I'd die another daym
I never viewed my life as something slipping away,
There's nothing here to take for granted,
with each breath that we take,
the hands of time strip youth from our bodies,
and we fade.
Memories remain,
as time goes on.
There's nothing here to take for granted
with each breath that we take
the hands of time strip youth from our bodies,
and we fade,
Memories remain,
as time goes on.
Vorruna does see herself as unstoppable. She''l survive even if you, or at least most of you, die in the process. And, when push comes to shove and the world is ending, she'll be on the "good" side even if she does make a living and an amusment out of killing and poisoning them in every day life. She lives life to the fullest that she can see, regardless of the prices it holds for the general population. But she doesn't want the world to all die. She has yet to feel the fading of youth, but I know that as she ages she'll still try the hardest. She'll just use more poison and less stabbing as time goes on.
6.The Red- Chevelle
http://www.4shared.com/file/101148125/dd1f1e57/Chevelle_-_The_Red.html
They say freak,
When you're singled out,
The red, well it filters through.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again.
This change, he won't contain,
Slip away, to clear your mind.
When asked, who made it show,
The truth, he gives in to most.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red....
They say freak...
When you're singled out.
The red, it filters through...
This is Vorruna's outward expression of anger. Even though she may be sad or perhaps just angry at herself, she will take it out on the world. A red haze will slip over her vision and she will feel the desire to destroy, to stab. It only takes one straw to break the camel's back and she's always just on the verge of violence.
7.She's Always a Woman-Billy Joel
http://www.4shared.com/file/101148615/f37d5b11/07_Shes_Always_A_Woman.html
She can kill with a smile,
She can wound with her eyes.
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies.
And she only reveals what she wants you to see.
She hides like a child,
But she's always a woman to me.
She can lead you to love,
She can take you or leave you.
She can ask for the truth,
But she'll never believe.
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free.
Yeah, she steals like a thief,
But she's always a woman to me.
Oh--she takes care of herself.
She can wait if she wants.
She's ahead of her time.
Oh--and she never gives out,
And she never gives in,
She just changes her mind.
And she'll promise you more,
Than the Garden of Eden.
Then she'll carelessly cut you,
And laugh while you're bleedin'.
But she'll bring out the best,
And the worst you can be.
Blame it all on yourself,
Cause she's always a woman to me.
Oh--she takes care of herself.
She can wait if she wants.
She's ahead of her time.
Oh--and she never gives out,
And she never gives in,
She just changes her mind.
She is frequently kind,
And she's suddenly cruel.
She can do as she pleases,
She's nobody's fool.
And she can't be convicted,
She's earned her degree.
And the most she will do,
Is throw shadows at you.
But she's always a woman to me.
Vorruna exists in a bit of duality. She seems to be very kind to people and then will slip them a poison. She doesn't even need to do that though. Frequently she messes with people's minds, just smiles and convinces them to do dark things even though they have claimed to be against such acts. She is a manipulator. She only shows what she wants to to people and will take advantage of them in a moments notice. Even still somehow people still have adopted her as a little sister and can care for her.
8.Believe in Nothing- All That Remains
http://www.4shared.com/file/101151805/a0902160/Believe_in_Nothing.html
Into a strange new world, into the after all your tears
Might find you’ve falling too far?
Take another look, Take another ride
Can’t we make them leave their hate behind?
And I still believe in nothing.
Will we ever see the shape of tomorrow?
Into the empty storm,
into the formless loss of hope,
where we can forget the game.
And I still believe in nothing.
Will we ever see the shape of tomorrow?
Nothing is sacred when no one is saved.
Nothings forever so count your days.
Nothing is final and no one is real.
Pray for tomorrow and find your empty still.
Nothing is sacred when no one is saved.
Nothing is forever so count your days.
Nothing is final and no one is real.
Pray for tomorrow and find you’re empty.
Nothing is scared when no one is saved.
Nothings forever so count your days
Nothing...
Nothing is really sacred to Vorruna. She believes strongly in her god, the god of death Noctus. But that doesn't stop her from blaspheming horribly against the religion. She will say anything, unless it is bad about her family...unless it's her father and his commoner wife. No one is ever really saved in religions, she has never seen the gods actually show they care to end the suffering of the people around them. So until the gods themselves come down, she will blaspheme and be as heretical towards everything as she likes.
9.Saku- Dir en Grey
http://www.4shared.com/file/101152683/99018cb9/03_Saku_.html
Translation:Where's the fortunate future?
Where does our fortunate future come?
dick men
fuck off fuck off
and wipe
[Get back my merrily memory]
under the sun
To be revealed as if you were to be ridiculed, the disclosure of the flow of the red river
You walk the mountain road made of corpses smilling
Again you reach out and the ants gather around the lilly
under the sun
People that can't redeem have ash, tears, and taciturnity in both their hands...
Whats Cruel is that the Sun and the Moon comes together
Even tomorrow looks away
On the Red Day you question taciturnty and...
For every thing that is good that happens to Vorruna, it is usually because she had to kill or con a lot of people to get there. And she'll kill with a smile, without regret. She feels the world is full of bastards who pretend not to be bastards. So why not kill them in a fit of anger after being mocked and put down for most of her young life.
10.Had Enough-Papa Roach
http://www.4shared.com/file/101153651/7a1df4bd/06_-_papa_roach_-_had_enough.html
I turn the channel on the tv
Another boy shot tonight
I can't believe what I am seeing
A body bag, a mother cries
It seems like this is never ending
I've had enough, so I decide
The time has come for me to face it
I can't refuse the war inside
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
I don't know if I can hide it
I know the truth, it's only lies
The present day, we'll deny it
The body count, a steady rise
In my head there is a riot
I changed the world, no one dies
The time has come for use to fight it
We can't refuse the war inside
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
I know that you can change the future
I know that we can make it happen
In my head there is a riot
And I don't think that I can fight it
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
Cause we have had enough
All the violence has touched
Every part of our lives
Our innocence is gone tonight
We have had enough
All Vorruna has seen around her, ever since childhood, has been violence. She now finds a solace in this. Her father would hit her and her siblings, save for her second oldest sister Bridget, because they didn't follow his way of thinking and weren't clerics of his goddess Lumina. She followed the example of her oldest sister and brother Jasper and left it all behind after having enough of living like that. It still touches everything she does and she still sees violence as affection. She can't escape it.
12.Coming Undone-Korn
http://www.4shared.com/file/101154870/a865b31a/Korn_-_Coming_Undone.html
Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me
That's right
Deliver it to my heart
Please strike
Be deliberate
Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Choke choke again
I thought my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet sugar gun
Does not protect me
That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now
Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like i'm not getting better
Not getting better
Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Despite her best efforts, Vorruna does keep slipping towards madness pure and unrestrained. No matter how in control she seems she's always, like noted before, one step away from giggling and stabbing a squirrel about 20 times to make sure it's dead. Demons from her past, both literally and metaphorically, will never leave her alone and sometimes it just gets too much and she breaks.
12. Diary of a Madman- Ozzy Ozbourne
Screaming at the window,
Watch me die another day.
Hopeless situation,
endless price I have to pay.
Sanity now is beyond me,
there's no choice.
Diary of a madman,
Walk the line again today.
Entries of confusion,
Dear diary I'm here to stay.
Manic depression befriends me,
Hear his voice.
Sanity now is beyond me,
There's no choice.
A sickened mind and spirit.
The mirror tells me lies.
Could I mistake myself for someone,
Who lives behind my eyes?
Will he escape my soul,
Or will he live in me?
Is he tryin' to get out or tryin' to enter me?
Voices in the darkness,
Scream away my mental health.
Can I ask a question,
To help me save me from myself?
Enemies fill up the pages.
Are they me?
Monday till Sunday in stages.
Set me free.
In the depths of her madness Vorruna grows very paranoid. She finds all sort of enemies everywhere. She may occasionally wonder if the problem is really with her, but in the end those doubts would be pushed away. The physical world lies to her, all that's real is her twisted thought process.
13. Throw Away- Papa Roach
http://www.4shared.com/file/101156393/9b3e844/11_Thrown_Away.html
I kill the rhyme again, I'm comin' sick and on time again
Words manifest from deep inside where people hide.
Within it, chemical unbalanced on the triple beam,
Fuck what you heard, it's about what I seen.
I seen it happen, back hand brand to face smackin'.
Definite disorder, now his mindset is blackened,
The doctor say he's got the brain of a murderer.
This rugged style steals your brian like a burglar.
My heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass,
It's not receeding my body going numb.
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high.
He don't know what he's doing,
He just keeps getting by.
Go away, I want to be thrown away
Born sick, nothing in his hands but his dick.
He couldn't handle shit,
For the life he was leading, led him down the path.
Where the guns blast, don't give a shit about the god's wrath.
Don't tell 'em whats's proper,
The situation unclear like gray.
And I know it gets worse everyday
I am a mess, I've made a huge mess.
I can't control myself, I'm losing it,
I've split all my marbles.
Cause I see you inside of me,
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
A hyper spaz, and that is the way
Sometimes I want to be thrown away.
Vorruna is violent because of the way that she was brought up. She sees it as an escape and doesn't really care if she has to face consequences for it in the end.
13. Tightrope(Bonus Song)
My words are weapons, in which I murder you with.
Please don’t be scared; please do not turn your head.
We are the future the 21st century dyslexic glue sniffing cyber sluts,
With homicidal minds and hand guns.
We are insane nothing will change,
We are insane nothing will change.
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope.
Well there is nothing to save me now,
So I will not look down.
And again, and again, and again, and it happens again, and again
And again
There’s no beginning there is no end,
There is only change.
Progression backwards is this where we are heading,
Take back your soul forget your emptiness.
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope,
Well there is nothing to save me now.
I’m falling to the ground.
Falling to the ground, down to the ground yeah.
I speak of madness, my heart and soul,
I cry for people who ain't got control.
Lets take our sanity, lets take compassion,
And be responsible for every action.
Hell no, no how no way no way no way no how no way no how
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope.
Well there is nothing to save me now,
So I will not look down.
There is a thin line between what is good and what is evil,
And I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.
My life is a circus and I am tripping down that tightrope.
Well there is nothing to save me now,
I’m falling to the ground.
Down to the ground, all the way down.
This song is the reason that Throw Away is even on the tracklist. Vorruna walks the line between good and evil very carefully. When she falls, she goes deep evil, but she will help people on a regular basis under normal circumstances. She walks a very thin tightrope as people on either side keep trying to pull her into their side, force her to see their reasoning. She waivers all the time, usually towards evil, but she still has a balance somewhat. She's not as sadististic as her brother Jasper at any rate.
14. Ghostflowers- Otep
http://www.4shared.com/file/101157720/ccfbaf8c/07_Ghostflowers.html
And she's a killer.
She's a keeper.
Am I blurry
In your vision?
Was I just
A poor decision?
Cut me open,
With precision.
And we'll finger,
The incision.
Tell me, what have I done?
Quid pro quo
To watch you lose,
Control.
I will give you sanctuary in these hymns of Thanatos.
I will give you sanctuary.
You want to see me burn,
I am living fire.
You want to see me burn,
I am living fire.
You will know me by the scars I bear.
You will know me by the hate I swear.
You will know me by the scars I bear.
Shameless,
Vengeance.
We are the thousand children of death.
We're in between ,
On the fence.
Nondescript,
Antagonist.
I'm in between,
On the fence.
Nondescript,
Antagonist.
I split you open,
Climb inside.
Lose myself,
Eaten alive.
We are the thousand children of death
From the seraphim,
To nephilim,
Exodus.
She's picking ghostflowers from her soul,
She's clipping the wings of fallen angels.
She's picking ghostflowers from her soul,
She's tonguing splinters of broken halos.
You will know me by the scars I bear,
You will know me by the hate I swear.
You will know me from the scars I bear.
You will know me...
From gelatin,
To specimen,
To emptiness.
I will be avenged.
I will be avenged.
These are the secrets
That kill
That kill
We Are the thousan Children of Death.
If Vorruna feels like she has been wronged she will come after people with a vengance. If she is on your side she will kill anyone who hurts you, which may be why she chooses very few allies to truly call her friends. She will be all consumed by venganvce, she's already killed a friend's father because he abused the friend, Will.
15. Heart Still Beats -Brave Saint Saturn
http://www.4shared.com/file/101158724/93f57bc3/15_-_brave_Saint_Saturn_-_Heart_Still_Beats__uncensored_.html
The girl in the alley kneels with exhaustion,
She's guarded by the skinny guy who limps from some infection.
Behind a veil of bleached thin hair her eyes tell a story,
Like a photo of berlin, december 1944.
She's looking for a handout, she's been high for several weeks now,
She's too far gone for whoring and the money just gave out.
And her heart still beats inside,
And the blood runs in her veins.
A remnant of life remains,
Her heart still beats inside.
The man finally comes to the door, I've seen him several times.
He always looks pissed off and his sunglasses stay on.
I think he got his biceps and tattoos while in prison,
And it doesnt seem to bother him when he says "go to hell".
And his heart still beats inside,
The blood runs in his veins.
A remnant of life remains,
His heart still beats inside.
The thought it comes to my mind, to somehow intervene,
But it could bring me trouble, and what can I do anyway?
It's hard to be effected when it happens so often,
To see a life unraveling, through drawn venetian blinds.
I'm sickened by compassion, I'm stifled by my limitations,
Anesthetic apathy, come take the pain away.
And my heart still beats inside,
The blood runs in my veins.
A remnant of life remains,
And my heart still beats inside.
Oh god, we need you here,
We're sinking fast and we dont care.
The evidence is all around me, on both sides of my door,
Our hearts beat.
No matter how dark the people she associates with may be, or how psychotic she herself may be, the same life pulses trhough them all. Nobody is ever completely dead to the world. All Vorruna sees around her is tradgedy and sickness, especially in the giant city slum of Coventry where she likes to hang around. She just got used to the cries for help and ignore them. However still somewhere she has a heart, just as Jasper does and everyone else she interacts with.
16. Burning Bright- Shinedown
http://www.4shared.com/file/101160075/1edefbaa/06_Burning_Bright.html
I feel like there is no need for conversation,
Some questions are better left unreasoned.
And I would rather reveal myself than my situation.
Now and then I consider, my hesitation.
The more the light shines through me,
I pretend to close my eyes.
The more the dark consumes me,
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright.
I wonder if the things I did were just to be different,
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence.
And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation,
Here and now I'll express, my situation.
The more the light shines through me,
I pretend to close my eyes.
The more the dark consumes me,
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright.
There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right,
Such a cruel contradiction.
I know I cross the lines,
it's not easy to define.
I'm born to indecision.
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose,
With no particular rhyme or reason.
She wants to redeem herself in desperation the eys of her brother, which is not redemption in the eyes of the rest of the world. She knows she will have to break the rules and do horrible things in order to get him to forgive her, but she will do it anyway. She will cross every line just to get some sort of feeling of being right again.
17.Vow- Garbage
http://www.4shared.com/file/101161050/e43e0ac2/07_Vow.html
I can't use what I can't abuse
And I can't stop when it comes to you
You burned me out but I'm back at your door
Like Joan of Arc coming back for more
I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died
I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to shut you up
I came to drag you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart
You burn and burn to get under my skin
You've gone too far, now I won't give in
You crucified me but I'm back in your bed
Like Jesus Christ coming back from the dead
I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died
I came to knock you up
I came to cut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to rip you up
I came to shut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart
I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died
I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to shut you up
I came to suck you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart
I can't stop when it comes to you
I can't stop when it comes to you
When it comes to you
Once again playing upon the familiar themes of vengance, abuse, and anger that echoe through Vorruna's thought processes.
18.Crush 'em-Megadeth
http://www.4shared.com/file/101161356/f1b11ae/04_Crush_Em.html
Enter the arena and hit the lights.
Step up now you're in for a ride.
This is war, ain't no fun and games.
We get it up, you go down in flames.
Party time, going down,
you better not mess us around.
The stakes are rich, take a hit or stay.
The price is high, someone's gonna pay.
Heads I win, tails you lose,
out of my way I'm coming through.
Roll the dice, don't think twice,
and we crush , crush 'em.
Looking for trouble, now you've found it.
You're a drum and we're gonna pound it.
Last one standing wins the fight,
hear us scream and shout all night.
Down on the floor and eat the grit.
this is gonna hurt a little bit.
Heads I win, tails you lose,
out of my way I'm coming through.
Roll the dice, don't think twice,
and be crushed, crush 'em.
Now we lay you down to rest,
you'll never be more than second best.
Step inside you're in for a ride
and we crush, crush 'em.
Don't need reason, don't want names,
just a John Doe to put to shame.
Step aside let me explain,
the name of the game is pain.
Now we've found you.
We're gonna pound you.
We're gonna beat you.
Gonna defeat you.
We're gonna bust you.
We're gonna crush you.
We're gonna crush 'em.
Heads I win, tails you lose,
out of my way I'm coming through.
Roll the dice, don't think twice,
and we crush, crush 'em.
Now we lay you down to rest,
you'll never ever be more than second best.
Step inside you're in for a ride,
and we crush, crush 'em.
If you get in Vorruna's way she will take you down. She may not do it directly even, but you will lose if you fight her. She has a lot of powerful allies and tends to be friends with the people who most fear.
19. Guernica- Brand New
http://www.4shared.com/file/101162114/9448ce06/09_Guernica.html
Ever since I was young your word is the word that always won.
Worry and wake the ones you love.
A phone call I'd rather not receive.
Please use my body while I sleep.
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep,
Kept clean and they will let you breathe.
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.
I submit no excuse.
If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake.
If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells
and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure.
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.
I'm not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now and you will always be around.
I'm there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you're sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.
Does anybody remember back when you were very young.
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.
This is from a very specific incident. A few months ago a giant monster from the Void invaded people's dreams and tried to kill everything. It got people sick with Void sickness which would destroy their body and soul. Jasper, Vorruna's brother and idol, got it. She felt so torn over it that she had to back and fight the Void Monster despite being scared out of her mind. She was praying for him, wherever he was, to survive and was willing to do anything to fix it. She was just "too weak to be the cure" under the conventional terms so she had to go and fight to try and kill it off. Nearly got herself completely destroyed in the process, but he did survive so it was worth it to her.
20Money Talks- AC/DC
http://www.4shared.com/file/101162948/ee9a27d0/03_Money_Talks.html
Tailored suits, chauffeured cars
Fine hotels and big cigars
Up for grabs, all for a price
Where the red hot girls keep on dancin' through the night
The claim is on you
The sights are on me
So what do you do that's guaranteed
Hey little girl
You want it all
The furs, the diamonds, the painting on the wall
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
A French maids, foreign chef
A big house, with king size bed
You had enough, you ship 'em out
The dollars up, down, you better buy the pound
The claim is on you
The sights are on me
So what do you do, that's guaranteed
Hey little girl
You break the laws
You hustle, you deal, you steal from us all
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Moneytalks
Moneytalks
B.S. Walks
Moneytalks
Come on come on
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Come on come on, lovin' for the money
Come on come on, listen to the Moneytalk
Vorruna will pick your pocket if she comes near. She is more of an assasin than a thief, but if she wants to be playful then she just might rob you blind. She has sold herself for money before and is not above doing horrible things. Granted she won't do anything sexual and would kill you for suggesting such things, but she'll basically do anything else for a price.
21. Divide- Disturbed
http://www.4shared.com/file/101163640/53a18fba/11_Divide.html
Go!
I want to tear a big hole in what is to be,
To end all this infatuation with unity,
I'm seeking my salvation alone again,
I never needed to be one of you anyway
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My own individuality is so unique,
I'm one impressive motherf**ker
Now, wouldn't you say
(Break apart and)
Divide Divide Divide Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
Though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me
I am a little more provocative then you might be,
It's your shock and then your horror on which I feed
So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,
If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My psychotic mentality is so unique
I'm one aggressive motherf**ker
Now, wouldn't you say
(Break apart and)
Divide Divide Divide Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
Though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me
(They won't take me)
Well f**k it all!
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and...)
Divide Divide Divide Divide
Divide Divide, break apart and divide
Vorruna doesn't believe in people working together ,a great irony since the organization which pays her salary believes in everyone getting along and working together. She thinks the world would be a better place if people stopped trying for world peace and unity. jsut stick to your business and leave me to mine. A lawless world would suit her just find. What good is freedom if you can't do anything you are physically, or metaphysically, able to?
22.Room of Angel- Akira Yamaoka
http://www.4shared.com/file/101164304/abbc74f5/03_Silent_Hill_4_OST_-_Room_of_Angel.html
You lie silent there before me.
Your tears, they mean nothing to me.
The wind howling at the window.
The love you never gave,
I give to you.
Really don't deserve it,
but now there's nothing you can do.
So sleep in your only memory of me,
my dearest mother.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
It was always you that I despised.
I don't feel enough for you to cry. Oh well.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
So insignificant,
sleeping dormant deep inside of me.
Are you hiding away lost
under the sewers?
Maybe flying high in the clouds.
Perhaps you're happy without me.
So many seeds have been sown in the field,
and who could sprout up so blessedly?
If I had died,
I would have never felt sad at all.
You will not hear me say I'm sorry.
Where is the light?
Wonder if it's weeping somewhere.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
It was always you that I despised.
I don't feel enough for you to cry. Oh well.
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Good-bye.
Good-bye.
Vorruna hates her parents. Her real mother abandoned her, she can't even remember her face. Her father ignored her in favor of her step-mother, her children, and Bridget. When her father did pay attention to her, it was with violence. She has no reason to like her parents and even will kill any commoner that she sees because of her step-mother and her children. She could quite honestly kill them and not feel bad.
Thank you for listening to me ramble. I hope you at least like the songs.