I always forgive him
Title: I always forgive him
Author: i_ht_wolfe
Pairing: J2
Raiting: Pg-13
Warnings: alcaholism, mentions of violence, angst
Disclaimer: I do not own these sexy exas men. Yet *insert evil laugh here*
A/N: writen for
bigfish05 as she kindly asked me to write a J2 fic =)
A/N 2: No beta
A/N 3: This is my first J2 fic so please be nice. Also I apologize but I can't seem to write anything other than angst =(
A black eye. I’ve always bruised easily, but the bruises don’t hurt, and I've gotten use to the pain of how I get them. What hurts it that I love him but he loves vodka more than me. Every morning he wakes to see a new bruise on me, he cries and begs, swearing he won’t do it again and I fall into his arms and find myself forgiving him. I always pray that this time will be the last, and it always is, at least until he drowns his sorrows in a bottle once more. We’ve been friends for years, lovers for months and it wasn’t until then I found out about his violent tendencies. But they don’t matter. I love him and I always forgive him, not matter how far or how violent his actions, I can’t leave, especially when he tells me he loves me. I’m taller, bigger and should be able to defend myself, but those words always break me the way he says them. So for now I’ll grin and bear it, and pretend I got the black eye the same way I always get them, an accident, and hope Jensen will stay true to his word this time. That hope dies in my heart as soon as I see him in the kitchen nursing a half empty bottle of vodka, the one that was full this morning.