Mmm, Word Salad
Hi. Just want to let you all know that I'm still alive. I actually forgot about this journal for awhile. Wow. I think I'm doing somewhat better since December. I'm 10 pounds lighter. I guess that's good. I didn't even realize that until I read my previous entry.
I've been neglecting this journal because...I don't know. I don't post in my "real" one much. My "real" one is heavily filtered, so only certain people can see certain entries. I put on many masks. That's the reason why I created this journal in the first place. To take off the masks. To be naked. To not worry about someone I know stumbing across this thing. Although I do worry. Hrm.
I need to let down my guard once in awhile, though. This could be practice. I just drank a cup of tea with Splenda because I've already eaten close to 2600 calories today. I had a food-based party yesterday and there are a ton of leftovers in the fridge. So tempting. But I can't eat anymore. I haven't exercised today (haven't in awhile actually), so I have to work twice as hard tomorrow.
I used to walk about 40 minutes a day -- when I had a job on the university campus from March to May -- but I was let go for the summer over a week ago. They don't need that many people during the summer. I've meant to look for volunteer work, but haven't gotten around to it. May volunteer at a soup kitchen for the homeless if nothing else comes along. I want it to be psychology-related, though, since that's my declared major.
Oh yes. I'm going to the university in the fall. I'm excited and nervous about it, naturally, since I took a semester off from school to decide what I want to do. I was going to move out again at first, but in February, I decided that I needed to pay off my debt AND get a degree before I deem myself financially self-sufficient. Living with my mom is the trade-off, though. We get along much better now than we did Nov-Dec, although we do have our run-ins once in awhile. She seems really critical and controlling when we co-ordinate events. Gah. It's like nothing I do is right in those cases.
Well, I feel like a sitting duck because I have too much free time. That means idle hands. That means constant overeating and a sedentary lifestyle. Aah, slippery slope! I need a voluneteership, stat.
I don't know when I'll post here again. Also too lazy to tag entry and such. Not very important anyway.
I've been neglecting this journal because...I don't know. I don't post in my "real" one much. My "real" one is heavily filtered, so only certain people can see certain entries. I put on many masks. That's the reason why I created this journal in the first place. To take off the masks. To be naked. To not worry about someone I know stumbing across this thing. Although I do worry. Hrm.
I need to let down my guard once in awhile, though. This could be practice. I just drank a cup of tea with Splenda because I've already eaten close to 2600 calories today. I had a food-based party yesterday and there are a ton of leftovers in the fridge. So tempting. But I can't eat anymore. I haven't exercised today (haven't in awhile actually), so I have to work twice as hard tomorrow.
I used to walk about 40 minutes a day -- when I had a job on the university campus from March to May -- but I was let go for the summer over a week ago. They don't need that many people during the summer. I've meant to look for volunteer work, but haven't gotten around to it. May volunteer at a soup kitchen for the homeless if nothing else comes along. I want it to be psychology-related, though, since that's my declared major.
Oh yes. I'm going to the university in the fall. I'm excited and nervous about it, naturally, since I took a semester off from school to decide what I want to do. I was going to move out again at first, but in February, I decided that I needed to pay off my debt AND get a degree before I deem myself financially self-sufficient. Living with my mom is the trade-off, though. We get along much better now than we did Nov-Dec, although we do have our run-ins once in awhile. She seems really critical and controlling when we co-ordinate events. Gah. It's like nothing I do is right in those cases.
Well, I feel like a sitting duck because I have too much free time. That means idle hands. That means constant overeating and a sedentary lifestyle. Aah, slippery slope! I need a voluneteership, stat.
I don't know when I'll post here again. Also too lazy to tag entry and such. Not very important anyway.