Nov 28, 2005 13:24
And so it goes, do this do that while I take a nap....
All I gotta say is that God for friends, cause right now my family is making my mind, heart and soul batshit.
Their is so much I could say about it and yet so little at the same time.
It's something about waking up and already seeing your sister goin crazy on her computer, cause her computer is in your room. But wait, is it really a room, or is it just some plastic shelves to place your clothes and a consistently deflating air mattress to sleep on. Cause really, their is nothing private about my room. I am a fifth wheel, and in this car of a house of a 'home' a fifth wheel is not needed to matter what all is said.
Add to that the feeling of living in your family's gunsights whenever you are in the house and things just don't start boding well for you.
What do I want, I wanna hug from a friend, cause its as Jen and I said last night. You just get that gut feeling that being held by someone (other than family) jus gives that distinct impression that everything will be better. That everything will be alright.
Finally, I am sick of Acting my way through life. I am sick of having to pretend to be someone who I am not. I am Me, Myself and I. What many consider random, is actually quite predictable if you know the real me. But sadly, it is to rare that people take the time and more than that, allow you to be who you are. This world of stereotypes that we live in kills me to know end. Let me be who I am, cause it is only through that that change will happen. That art will appear in some people, that thinking will bring a difference to some of the worlds problems. Cause you know what, if Stereotypes were so good, that stuff would already be around. It has been proven that those who aren't wired the same as most people, depressed, psychotic, bi polar, you name it, most of our most influential artists and 'learned' people who we revere, they didn't have their marbles aligned in the Stereotype fashion.
So let me be who I am, let everyone be who they are, else we will be no better than a robot. Stereo Types kill culture, they don't bring about more.
L8a Mon
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Packless Wolf