Your problem is you don't understand what the word "soul mate" means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably ( Read more... )

Ryan wrote this for me in 2004. It is so strange reading it. Like...obviously we had fought and something happened but I can't exactly remember why or what. I think it was the biggest "fight" Ryan and I ever got in actually. I remember that night my family went out to dinner at Villa Pasta and I started crying in the middle of dinner and it was ( Read more... )

Ryan and I were just talking online, which we like never do, but started to because he got a gmail and gmail chat is awesome! He brought up how Will stumbled across his livejournal somehow, and how him and Sharon and Ryan started reading through it. So I started reading through it...HOLY SHIT. Ryan is more hilarious in writing than in real life ( ( Read more... )

I used to really have it in my head that I never wanted to feel like I didn't have the power to choose what I wanted, go where I wanted, do what I wanted. I used to be convinced that happiness and complete freedom/independence were synonymous. I realize now those things are not synonymous. Happiness is people we love, having those people around us ( Read more... )

I just want to walk up a grassy hill with you on a warm summer day, get to the top, lay down in the grass, and watch the sky change from blue to pink to black. Feel the mosquitos bite and see the bats flitting across the sky. Hold hands and know that everything is ok and we are ok, and that maybe life is as simple as that - watching the sun set ( Read more... )

From my livejournal Feb. 1, 2008 ( Read more... )

"I wanna keep us like this forever, the way we are feeling right now, it's like I want to freeze it and save it but... but if we try to stay together while you are here and I am there, I think it will be too hard. Real life will get in the way, and we'll stop visiting, and we'll stop calling each other as much and then all we'll ever feel about ( Read more... )

I wouldn't exactly call myself a worried, nervous person, but yesterday and today I have felt that way. I have been having really terrible dreams and for some reason keep dwelling on really difficult times in my life. That expression of being haunted by the past is I guess what best describes the feeling I have. I had a terrible headache on sunday ( Read more... )

Today is our second full snow day! YES! We have gotten so much snow!!! It is honestly the most snow I can ever remember. It is like every other day we get snow! I think we got about another foot yesterday night. WOO ( Read more... )

I really do love winter. Last night into today it has been snowing SO HARD. I am at my apartment with Ryan and we cannot believe how much snow there is! Obviously the campus is closed so I didn't have to go into work (but I will tomorrow). Literally there is like three feet of snow piled up around the apartments! It is so windy, there are huge snow ( Read more... )