Jesus I dont even know anymore...
Have you ever looked at someone and realised that there the one your going to fall hopelessly in love with? Well I have, and I did. The wonderful thing is were both on the same level. The down side...Hes engaged. I guess despite the happiness I feel when Im with him and all that great stuff, theres that stab at the end of the night when I know hes leaving and that I have no right to call him my own. Ive never met the girl, but I find myself hating her, then I ask would I have liked her if she wasnt engaged to him? Probably, she seems like a nice girl in some ways, but I wouldnt know. But I do know Mitch is absolutly wonderful, hes funny, charming, a real gentalman, and the best part is I know I can trust him. Its not by anything hes done to prove it, but there just this feeling, in wich I have only gotten with a few people and thast why there my best friends (You know who you are). I guess what makes it worse is the fact that I knpow he feels the saem way, but odviously were stuck. Hes admited hes not alwyas happy with her, but he doenst know how to go about this, or if for sure thats what he even wants, becasue he doesnt want to hurt her. I can understand that though they have a history, him and I dont. I didnt really get to know him until about a month ago, but here we are at this point. Sorry about the rambling, but it helps to get it out, I havnt really been able to talk to any of you, either becasue I cant get a hold of you or vice versa. I guess Im just confused and Im not sure what path Im supposed to go down, but I hope Ill pick the right one.
In other news I joined a bowling league, Mitch thougth this was a good idea, even though I cant bowl to save my life, but we have fun I guess thats all that matters, and we get to hang out :) Also Im still at the payless and I may tough it out, becasue Debbie is on her way to getting fired *dances* Other than that I havnt been up to much besides working and wasting time with Mitch (which is what I seem to do very often, like every night) But yeah....I guess Ill see all you crazy kids at Club!!
In other news I joined a bowling league, Mitch thougth this was a good idea, even though I cant bowl to save my life, but we have fun I guess thats all that matters, and we get to hang out :) Also Im still at the payless and I may tough it out, becasue Debbie is on her way to getting fired *dances* Other than that I havnt been up to much besides working and wasting time with Mitch (which is what I seem to do very often, like every night) But yeah....I guess Ill see all you crazy kids at Club!!