"I hate easy girls"
I can't even sleep in the same bed with a dude without him trying to dig around in my pants. Keeping things on a friend level is tough sometimes. Not tough for me because I can resist and be really emotionless, but tough because I realize sometimes that's why dudes remain friends with me until they can get me alone. It's sad. Then something does or does not happen and the friendship is over.
There is only one dude I want to be touching me right now. I get gay little butterflies when I see him and pursuing anything with him is completely unrealistic. You want what you can't have, right?
I'm trying to relearn to have emotions again. I've always had a hard time telling someone I care about them or responding to "I love you". That shit is unfamiliar territory to me. I guess it's some sort of defense mechanism now to avoid getting close to people. I see practically everyone as disposable. The feeling of being alone, almost always passes.
There is only one dude I want to be touching me right now. I get gay little butterflies when I see him and pursuing anything with him is completely unrealistic. You want what you can't have, right?
I'm trying to relearn to have emotions again. I've always had a hard time telling someone I care about them or responding to "I love you". That shit is unfamiliar territory to me. I guess it's some sort of defense mechanism now to avoid getting close to people. I see practically everyone as disposable. The feeling of being alone, almost always passes.