to love is to be vulnerable.
time has lagged again, its turned into real winter and a lot has happened. i wish that i could just paint all of my feelings out, like so that people could know my state of mind like that would somehow explain anything thats happened over the reason time. but clearly that cant happen, and im not really in an expressive mood, more thoughtful than write-it-down-y but i just thought id write so i can look back in the future (and laugh at my geekiness for saying that) and see if i can remember how i was feeling at this time. my mum came and visited, i havent done any christmas shopping, im hating work, there keep being almost tornadoes where my mum sister and all the decent steprelatives are, my dads getting iller, christmas will be shit, im getting veryy overattached to the college people, ive had tears forming for a good few weeks now and im scared of the day that they all decide to fall. at which point no doubt ill come crawling back to livejournal like i usually do in times of emotional...ness....and update all about it. but now im going to go avoid my business studies work and read some more of my fabulous book. <3