dreamt about j ( Read more... )

ian thinks i am codependent because i ask him to talk to me on the phone with me while i walk a block down to the bodega and back.

being alone with my thoughts without interference in the form of music/computer/phone/book/another person sends my anxiety into a tailspin. it is highly probable that this is an issue worth exploring, but i am pretty ( Read more... )

out of the blue (kind of), erica stopped by and took weezey to the park. this is fantastic for many reasons, not the least of which is because i can't function in below 45 degree temperatures and thus neither child nor i get nearly enough fresh air and sunlight exposure. it's been especially difficult since DOE decided to fix up p.s 748's ( Read more... )

past imperfect, present tense.

why?

let go.

i've been turned off LJ ever since that writer's block question about your first journal entry. after reading my first entry, back in march of 2001, i went on to read the second entry and the third and fourth... an hour later i was in absolute awe of my own stupidity. the first year of my journaling chronicles little else besides my relationship ( Read more... )

making a post about one's personal life in a public sphere is rarely a good idea ( Read more... )

for the zillionth time, today i was reminded of my inability to connect with the majority of the human race. oddly, this reminder was served by 5 different strangers who decided to strike up convesation[s?] with me. trains, streets, stores, parks -- hello! wheredidyougtyourshoes yourbabyisbeautiful doyouhavealight it'sawfullyhotout ( Read more... )

backstory: right before i met ian, i had a fling with this guy, d. it was very brief, not at all serious, and i cut it off after i met ian ( Read more... )