[more utterance, perhaps retaliation]
...its funny. ...how some people just dont understand.
Before I get into something serious and negative, I wanna share something with you all. This road called Life Ive been walking took some pretty nasty turns every now and then, some bumps here and there, and theres been times where its been gold-plated. Yet, I dont feel content with myself, and I feel that I can change that. Now. By doing something I never thought I would do, but to go old school. And by that, boys and girls, I mean that Im going to retrace some steps and fix stuff that I know I messed up. Mend some ties and rebuild some bridges. [Keyword: some] By achieving this, it would only make me stronger and just make things so much better and easier. I would not have to go on and grow old and die knowing that I couldve fixed something and made the best of it. More details as they arrive...
Now, for something that makes my chest hurt. I have been accused of nonsense. I do not know why God allowed talk to be so fucking cheap, but He did, and somehow it gets around and gets heard by the wrong set of ears or in this case, read by the wrong set of eyes. Human nature, to go back and see what we left behind, even after time and time again proclaiming that we have had our closure. I am not a hypocrite, becuz I go back and recall alot of things that used to be. I do it all the time, and not a mothafucker here can look into my eyes and say that they do not do the same. There is NOTHING wrong with it. Yet, I do feel the need to correct some things said.
1. At no point, was the female in any of my relationships "tied around my finger". Ever. If this was the case, relationships in my life never would have existed and never will exist if I was just this pussy-hungry guy all the fucking time. I try, my damned hardest, in the name of God, to make that female happy, cuz that is how things roll in this world. If the female isnt happy, then the male isnt happy. I never, NEVER, do anything to jeapordize the relatioinship, at any cost. I am NOT that type of guy. Stereotypically, the guy will always get his way with the girl. Reel her in with his fine bait, fuck the shyt out of her, pass her around, and then move on to the next catch.
THIS WAS NEVER, AT ANY POINT IN TIME, MY INTENTION.
2. Promises. If you dont have the damn courtesy to fucking wait your ass for me to fulfil a promise, then dont allow me to promise anything. Period. As the saying goes, "The best things will come to those who wait." I go by that saying all the fucking time, we have so much life ahead of us that there is NO NEED to get things done in a hurry. Its pointless and stupid. What pisses me off the most is that someone, who AGREED with me in waiting for the best things to happen, all of a sudden turns around and bites my fucking head off for "not fulfilling a promise." Jesus Christ, I cannot just pack my bags and go see you whenever the fuck I want. I got a fucking job here and with fucking priorities MUCH LARGER than you. I never minded waiting. If YOU did? Then you should have said something to me in the very beginning than holding it all in. Then again, you always kept alot of shyt from me, so I dont see why this was such a fucking surprise.
[sigh]
I go to her profile and I see someone wearing a mask. It doesnt make me smile at all. It makes me cringe and hurt. By far, her friends are beyond stupid. Who the fuck are they to say what they wish about someone they never met? Absolutely no one. Ill leave that one alone. Now, if she were to take their words for it? Then shes just as stupid, and THAT my friends, is a fine example of the scum of this Earth at its best. People who get no where in life. And when they dont get their way? They turn to idiots and try to make themselves feel better, and when they do feel better? They start their cheap talk and they blog nonsense. After this? Not a chance in Hell would I be caught roaming the streets of Las Vegas. Tis true, what they say, about what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas. Bringing something back would just bring your life misery.
So I end this, not saying a word, but singing...
" A wraith with an angel's body
A demon with a smile of gold
You soulsucker
I won't become like you
A killer with the perfect weapons, crystal eyes, and a heart of coal
You soulsucker
I won't lose myself in you
Look how pretty she is when she falls down
Now there is no beauty in bleeding mascara
Lips are quivering like a withering rose
She's back again
What the fuck do you think love means?
It's much more than words and feelings sucking me dry
Is my marrow that sweet?
Your dead lovers have left a trail of broken hearts and misspent hopes
Sucking them dry
Does their marrow taste of sweetness, sweetness?
I hope you choke. "