Very releived to say that I'm not playing the ginastera at the recital. It's a great piece, I love it, but I don't have time to get it completely under control. It will just have to be that piece I play when I feel like kicking the shit out of the piano ( Read more... )

It's ridiculous how angry I am ( Read more... )

I'm wearing my huge ugly shirt today, because it's big enough inside that I can curl up. It's like wearing a blanket everywhere, and I feel ..not comfortable, more comforted. I don't know. I don't look like me today, but I feel more like me. Screw fashion ( Read more... )

The sky is the completely wrong color today ( Read more... )

new to me ( Read more... )

Distraction and Dismissal solve most problems dealing with inadequacy, or at the very least postpone them for a later generation; man passes his cursed baton to all men ( Read more... )

It doesn't have anything to do with geometry. What I'm talking about is being plain with emotion. I don't mean pushing any whim to the extreme, just acting on every one of them. The physical manifestation of mild jealousy shouldn't be a dramatic catfight, but maybe an unabashed confrontation of a suitably mild manner. I shouldn't be avoiding you ( Read more... )

Mount Desert Rock is a remote, treeless island situated approximately 25 nautical miles south of College of the Atlantic, in Bar Harbor Maine. And I want to go there to study Human Ecology. To live in the desert. And the mountains. And an island. I'll plant trees ( Read more... )

Not much to say ( Read more... )

I have been called detatched, or dejected before. And I think I can tell you where that comes from. I have a habit (I am unable to simplify it to terms of bad or good) of convincing myself that the people making me feel terrible, or what they said, is baseless or stupid. It almost always works. If you told me tommorow that you hated me, and you ( Read more... )