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- I can't take it. i hate girls. i really do. Just to let all you know. there is like an un-wrriten rule in friendship that you don't like the same guy that your friend likes. You just don't do it. Im not quite sure why thats so hard to understand. its really easy and simple. but some chicks just dont know how to do it. They decide to call the guy you like every night. flirt with him and then start liking him. I cant deal with it. Why the fuck are people so backstabbing.. i dont get it. why is it so hard just to be a good friend? like really... I know im not perfect, who is, but i would hope that i would never do something to a friend that she did to me. It was so hard on me last night, and today. i dont cry over guyz right. i just don't, if you know me well enough you will know that. and last night i basically cried myself to sleep. and this morning i saw them sitting next to each other on the brick wall and started to cry? why? beets me... I beileve in the whole " everything happens for a reason" but i want to know the reason NOW. i want to know why he likes her. why she likes him. why i met him. and got involved with him. i want to know all these questions now, im not patient at all, espically(sp) when it comes to this. i just want to know. I know there is som logical reason, theres gotta be. But what is it? All of this to be happening just couldnt be happening at a worse time. I got to deal with all of this at home and then go to school and feel awkard around all the people i have become so close with in the past month or so. i Dont want to feel awkard around them or him. i want things to be the same with us but i dont know if thats possible. I want to be able to call him and talk to him like we use to but im not sure if he wants that. he said that he wants to still be friends i would love for it to be that simple. but i dont think he gets it. to him i was just some chick that he will forget about in a couple of years. but to me he was someone special. or at least thats what i thought. I think thats basically what hurts me the most. not the fact that he dosent like me or that he likes Lacey but the fact that i was always just another chick and he was always some one special to me. Maybe im over reacting maybe im just too emotional but whatever it is. He hurt me. Plain and simple. But that's alrigt. i wil get over everything soon. im sure...

Thanks to EVERYONE who helps me!! i love you all with all my heart, i dont know what i would do with out you !!

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