Example journal entry for Kira Izuru Application
Today was fine. Everything went well and I’m glad I’m not feeling too down. Matsumoto-san invited me to go drinking along with her and her friends. But I declined, not being able to hold my liquor well. These days I seem to be less depressed. I hope this will not be just temporary. Maybe the medication will work out in the end. I can’t believe I have to take it still, its embarrassing.
I don’t know if it’s just me but Ichimaru-sama seemed to be more happy than usual these days. Maybe the happy bug is just spreading, and that means I will return to being moody again?
I received an email from Hinamori-san today. To be truthful, I was more than surprised. She has not been talking much to me lately, maybe because of work, and maybe she’s spending her time with Hitsugaya-kun.
I can’t believe I still have not gotten over the fact that she likes him. I wish she would at least talk to me every now and then… No, I’m being selfish again. She has her own life. I should leave her alone. Besides, she’s happy and that’s more than enough. It’s not like I will ever win against Hitsugaya-kun anyway. He’s so smart and cool.
I must stop before I engage in any negative thoughts. Then all my efforts will be gone to waste. It’s so stupid, I’m already an adult! And I can’t deal with my feelings properly.
Back to Hinamori’s email. I was wondering what I missed, I mean, I have submitted what she requested already, and her birthday’s not anywhere near. Nevertheless, I wished it was an invitation of any sort, to just maybe have a cup of tea together.
I can’t say it doesn’t matter because the doctor said to admit my feelings and not deny them. So, yes I was disappointed when I opened the email. It turns out she just needs a favor of mine. I’m glad to be of help though; at least I may be able to see her for a while.
Hopefully my cooking will not taste bad. People always compliment it, but people lie to make you feel better. I shall practice to improve my skills then. If cooking a scrumptious meal for Hitsugaya-kun and Hinamori-san would make her delighted, by all means I will do my best and please her.