{Fic}Someday For Somebody Chapter 4
Title : Someday for Somebody Chapter 4
Pairing : Akakame
Disclaimed : I own no one yet. I’ll own Kazu later. Hehehe…
Rating : I don’t know…
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He can feel that Ryo’s face moving closer to him. And it keeps getting closer. Now, there are only a few centimeters left between their lips to meet. He closes his eyes tightly as he can feel Ryo getting closer…… But at the moment he close his eyes, he saw Jin. Jin’s face, Jin’s smile, and Jin’s lips. Automatically, he pushes Ryo away. He gasped at his own thought. Now, he reeeaaaaalllllyyyy confused!
“Why? Why did you pull away?”
Kazu just keep silent. It is not because he didn’t want to answer. It is because he didn’t know how. Even he himself wonders why he did that. Ryo smiled. Looking straight into Kazu’s confused eyes, he says,
“Ask your own heart why you did it. I don’t think I’m the one that you love the most. Right?”
By that, Ryo leave the room. Being left alone, Kazu break down to the floor. He keeps asking himself question by question.
Do I like Jin?
Do I need him?
Or………
do I love him?
Once again he closes his eyes. Yes, he still sees Jin’s face. His heart beating so fast every time he thinks about Jin. Yes, he misses Jin. In fact, he miss everything about Jin- his eyes, his hugs, his strong arms, his soft hairs, his smile, and more over, his gentle touch that could make Kazu’s world so warm and sweet.
Oh! My God! I love him! I really love him!
Meanwhile, Nakamaru and Koki are just entering the practices room with a box of bento in their hand. Seeing Kame sitting on the floor with teary eyes and shocked face, they quickly approached him. In worried tone, Nakamaru start questioning Kame.
“Kame, what’s wrong? What happen to you? Why are you crying?”
Kame couldn’t voice out his words. Only his sobs getting more and more louder. Koki also give a worry look at Kame.
“Kame-chan! What’s wrong? Do you feel pain anywhere?”
Gently, Koki check Kame’s arms to make sure that the scar is not re-opened again. Kazu keeps shaking his head signaling that he’s not in physical pain.
“M..Ma..ruu…I..need to talk to you…in person….”
Maru exchange look with Koki and Koki understood the message. So, Koki left them alone and lock the door.
“What’s wrong,Kazuya?”
“I think I’ve fallen in love with Jin…I’m so stupid! I never realize that I actually love him….What should I do,Maru? I want him back… Before this, there’s only he belongs to me. I never let myself belongs to him. In fact,I told him that he’s mine but I’m not his. I treat him so bad! I’m such an idiot! I want to belong to him. Will I ever have that chance? What should I do, Maru?”
Kazu buried his face on Maru’s chest. Maru try to ease the younger one by caressing his hairs.
“Oh! My God! I’ve hurt him badly… He’ll never going to forgive me…. He must have really hate me now… I’ll never going to get his love again. I want him back… What should I do????”
Kazu’s cries keeps increasing. He gripped Maru’s shirt hard as if he’s afraid that Maru would leave him alone with the unanswered questions he had in his mind. Slowly, Maru pull out from the embrace and cupped both of Kazu’s cheeks.
“Then, go for it. If you really want him, go get him. We maybe cannot change the past but we still can change the future if we work hard for it. Show him that you love him as much as he love you. When he comes back, try to win his heart again. Make him fall in love with you again”
“Really? Will he loves me again? Is it possible?”
“Nothing is impossible in this world, Kazuya. Haven’t you heard the phases that just one love can change the world?”
Finally, a smile was formed on Kazu’s lips.
“Thank you! Thank you for encouraging me! You make me feels better now.”
“Anytime, Kazuya. Remember that whatever happen, I’ll always be there for you.”
Ueda just landed on his soft mattress when the doorbell rang. With lazy steps, he makes his way to the door. As soon as the door was open, he was hugged tightly by Ryo.
“Ryo? What happen?”
“I miss you…. Can we stay like this for a while?”
It was weird when a very baka Ryo suddenly turned out like this. Gently, Ueda caress the back of Ryo’s head while pushing the door closed.
“Hime-chan, am I a very insensitive person towards my surrounding? I’ve caused lots of trouble and I don’t even know it… Am I that idiot?”
“No. You’re always sensitive with my feeling. You always care for me and you always make me feel blissful. Maybe you are an idiot but that’s what I like about you.”
“Really? I love you so much Hime. Promise me you won’t leave me forever?”
“I promise. I love you too, Ryo!”
Ryo’s heart was eased by Ueda’s confession. Slowly, he pulls away from their embrace to give him space to kiss Ueda. When the kiss turns more passionate, both of them decide that it is better to go to the bedroom now. The couples share their night by loving each other endlessly and let themselves drown in each other cares.
Pi was staring outside of the window blankly. His mind has been thinking about the conversation that he has a while ago. He has received a call from Johnny-san today. Now, he’s waiting for Jin to come home so he can discuss it with him. When the front door was opened, he quickly get up to greet the said man.
“Tadaima! Wah….There are so many people today at the coffee house. I’m so damn tired!!!”
“Okaieri,Jin. Did you have your dinner yet?”
Jin nodded.
“I’m going to take a bath first,okeis?”
“Erm..Jin. I have something that I want to talk about.”
“Later,okey? Let me take my bath first.”
“Wa..wait! Ano…Johnny-san called this morning.”
Jin’s steps quickly stopped at that moment. He turns around to meet Yamapi’s face.
“What did he say?”
“He wants us to go back.”
“I don’t think I want to go back.”
“Come on,Jin. It’s been 6 month now. And you know that we don’t have any more money left. Maybe we should go back. Maybe things will go better after this.”
“No! I’ll find us ways to get money. I’ll work more. I just don’t want to go back.”
“You’ve already been working at the coffee house and it still can’t endure our expenses. And by the way…I…I miss them…All of them….I miss my family…my friends…Our friends, Jin!”
“You’ll feel hurt again if we go back now. I don’t want you to remember anything from THAT incident.”
“Is it me or YOU? I don’t think that I’m the one that was still haven’t get over it yet.”
“Think about it Jin. Think about KAT-TUN and NEWS. Don’t you miss them?”
Jin stood in silent. He has no answer for that. He exhales his breath slowly.
“Okay. We’ll go back to Japan next week. I need to quit my job first. So, we can prepare all of our things and pack up our stuffs.”
“Thanks, Jin.” Yamapi smiled.
Nakamaru glances at Kazuya’s face. He was holding a banquet of pink roses in his hands. Somehow, he thinks that Kazuya looks more beautiful than those roses. The smile on Kazuya’s face is enough to enlighten his whole world. He feels happy because he knows what the reason behind that smile is. It’s because Jin will come back today. He still remembers how happy Kazu was when he heard that news of Jin’s return the other day.
“Yuuichi~~~!!!!!”
Nakamaru put down the magazine that he’s reading aside when Kazuya jump onto his laps and hugged him tightly.
“He’s coming home! Jin will come home!”
“Really? That’s good. Now, you can show him you’ve changed and you can confess to him that you love him.”
“Yes! He will forgive me,right? We’ll be a real lover then. Ureshi na!!!”
“Hai…hai… When will he come home?”
“In next two days. Let’s go out. I want to buy new cloths and book flowers for him!”
Without waiting for Maru’s reply, Kazu grabbed his hand and make a move towards the door. And he just follow him because there is no way he will refuse his beloved Kazu’s request.
All of KAT-TUN and NEWS members are waiting patiently at the airport. Kazu feels his heart was beating fast and he knows that the nervousness was written all over his face. Noticing Kazu’s nerves, Maru grabbed Kazu’s hand tightly in his. Kazu turns to face Maru and flash him a dazing smile.
“It’ll be okay,Kazuya.” Kazu nodded. When he turns his head, his eyes met Ryo’s eyes. He smiled at him and nodded once signaling that “it’ll be okay” to Kazuya. Kazuya really feels grateful to Ryo for showing him his real feeling towards Jin.
When Jin and Yamapi was seen walking out from the arrivals entrance, all of them waive their hand as if the two would not notice them. A smile was formed on all of the guys there. Kazu eyes are shining with hopes and happiness. All of them interchange hugged with the two guys. Jin was smiling happily until he faced Kazuya. The smile disappeared and been replaced with a hurtful look. Kazuya try his best to put his best smile and hand over the roses to Jin.
“Okaeri….”
Jin accepts the flowers.
“Arigato.”
With that, he quickly turns his head to other member. Kazuya feel as if his heart was stabbed. The tears on the corner of his eyes almost broke down if it’s not for Nakamaru who come and gently rub his back.
“Give him some times. He’ll understand it soon. Okey?”
Kazu nodded. He tries to calm his heart down. But his heart just won’t listen to him. It keep saying that Jin hates him so much that he feels disgusted to even look at him.
Jin feels the urged to hold Kazuya in his arms by the moment his eyes met the figure of his love. He knows that if he keep looking at those pretty eyes, he’ll lose himself and will embrace that man at the moment. So, that’s why he quickly turns away after accepting the flowers. He feels that the wounded in his heart was bleeding again.
“How about we all go for sushi together?” Koki suggested.
“Yeah,sure. Yamapi will come with me and Hime. Jin, you go with Kame-chan,okey?” Ryo try hard to create an opportunity for both of them.
“Eh?? No!!! I…I want to be with Pi…”
Once again Kazu’s heart was stabbed!
Pi knows that Jin feels uncomfortable with the arrangement for what has happen between the three of them.
“What if Jin and I follow TegoMass? We’ll see each other back at the sushi shop. Okay?”
“Okey…” All of other members agree.
“Jah…Iku yo!” Jin grabbed Pi’s hand and walked away.
Ryo and Maru exchanged look with each other and both of them turns to see Kazuya’s face. The shining face a while ago has varnished replace by a very sad and hurtful face. Ryo signaling to Maru to take Kazu away before the rest of the members realize it. After telling other members that he’s going with Kazu, Maru quickly hold Kazu’s hand and dragged him out. As soon as they are inside the car, Maru pull Kazu in his embrace and let him cry out all of the tears that he’s been holding. Without their notice, a pair of eyes was watching them from inside of other car. Jin accidently look outside of the mirror and he see Maru walking hand in hand with Kazuya. He feels a pang to his heart. And when he saw both of them hugging, he couldn’t suppress his hurt anymore. He turns his look away.
Have you found your true love and happiness? That’s why you look so happy a moment ago. You’ve changed and it’s all because of him, isn’t it? You’re right. I’ll never going to have your love. Maybe it’s time for me to forget you. Goodbye Kazuya. You’ll always be my angel. I’ll treasure our memory until the end of time.
A week after..
It’s already almost midnight. Jin was packing his stuff and preparing to go home. After 2 days of their return,Jin and Pi has start their practice back. Everybody else has gone home. He was waiting for Yamapi in the room when he notices that Kazu’s bag is still there in the practice room. He tries to neglect it.
“Jin, are you done? Let’s go.”
Yamapi appears on the door and stepped into the room.
“Yea… let’s go.”
When he was about to stand up, he sees a very known figure walk into the room.
“Ano….can I talk with both of you for a while?”
Kazuya stood up in front of them with hoping eyes. Both Jin and Yamapi look at each other.
“I want to apologize for everything that I’ve done before. I know that I don’t deserve to be forgiven. But…I really am sorry.”
Kazuya bowed down to both of them. Jin speak out,
“If you think you don’t deserve it, then why wasting your time bowing to us?”
Kazuya heart clenched. Yamapi look at Jin in disbelief.
“I really hope you can forgive me. I’ll do anything to make it up for you. Just…please…please forgive me…. I beg you,please….You can hit me or something but please don’t hate me…. I want us to be friend once more”
This time Kazuya kneeled down in front of them. His forehead was almost touching the floor. His tears have starts to flow from his eyes.
“Then, stay away from us!”
Jin grabbed the hand of shocking Yamapi and lead them both out from the room, leaving behind the crying Kazuya. Kazuya rise up his head and stare at the door with tears in his eyes.
He’ll never going to forgive me…. He has Pi now… He will never love me again….
Jin keeps pushing the lift button as if it will expedite the opening of the door. Once the lift opens, he drags Pi inside and quickly pushed the close button. Pi feels worried with Jin behavior.
“Jin..?”
He holds Jin’s shoulder to turn him around and as he expected, Jin was crying. He embraces him tightly.
“I can’t take it anymore Pi. It hurt me to see him like that. I’m afraid that I’ll lose control over him. Why can’t I stop loving him,Pi? Why? Why can’t I hate him after what he has done to us? Why I still hope that he will hold me like before?”
“Because he’s your true love. You care about him more than you care for yourself.”
“He’s not mine, Pi. He’s with Maru now. I’m not the one he love. Moreover, it’ll be unfair to you. I’m not supposed to feel this way to the person who hurt my best friend.”
“I’ve forgive him, Jin. He’s our friend after all. At that time, he’s not in his stable condition. If you really love him, maybe you should tell him that again. Maybe after all of this time, he’ll answer you back.”
“No,Pi. It will hurt me more if he says that he loves someone else. I don’t know what I will do at that time. Forgetting him is the best way now.”
Pi continues rubbing Jin’s back. He always know that Jin never forget Kazu for this whole time. At first, he feels betrayed. But after he think back, he know that Jin really loves Kazu so much. That is when he decides that he’ll accept it and forgive Kazuya.
Jin let all of his tears flown out from his eyes-the tears that he has been holding up for months.
I’m sorry, Kazu. I never hate you. But, this is the only way to make me forget my love for you. If I let you get close to me again, maybe I won’t be satisfied with just a friend relationship. Maybe I’ll ask for more, more than what you can give me. And I know that I want to have you all to myself only. That will be cruel to Maru. If I ask you to be with me, I know you’ll probably will do it because of the guilty you’ve felt. It won’t be fair to you. It’s better to let you go than forcing you to stay. I always love you, Kazu…
To be continued…..
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So,what do you guys think? Is it boring? I don’t know how to convey their love and hurt in words. I just hope that you can feel it. Maybe you can listen to Mariah Carey song-We belong together. That’s how Kazu feel. (I guess??!) For Jin’s part, listen to Michael Learn to Rock- That’s why you go away. I was listening to these two songs when I write this. As always, forgive me for my grammatical errors and comment are appreciated!
Pairing : Akakame
Disclaimed : I own no one yet. I’ll own Kazu later. Hehehe…
Rating : I don’t know…
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He can feel that Ryo’s face moving closer to him. And it keeps getting closer. Now, there are only a few centimeters left between their lips to meet. He closes his eyes tightly as he can feel Ryo getting closer…… But at the moment he close his eyes, he saw Jin. Jin’s face, Jin’s smile, and Jin’s lips. Automatically, he pushes Ryo away. He gasped at his own thought. Now, he reeeaaaaalllllyyyy confused!
“Why? Why did you pull away?”
Kazu just keep silent. It is not because he didn’t want to answer. It is because he didn’t know how. Even he himself wonders why he did that. Ryo smiled. Looking straight into Kazu’s confused eyes, he says,
“Ask your own heart why you did it. I don’t think I’m the one that you love the most. Right?”
By that, Ryo leave the room. Being left alone, Kazu break down to the floor. He keeps asking himself question by question.
Do I like Jin?
Do I need him?
Or………
do I love him?
Once again he closes his eyes. Yes, he still sees Jin’s face. His heart beating so fast every time he thinks about Jin. Yes, he misses Jin. In fact, he miss everything about Jin- his eyes, his hugs, his strong arms, his soft hairs, his smile, and more over, his gentle touch that could make Kazu’s world so warm and sweet.
Oh! My God! I love him! I really love him!
Meanwhile, Nakamaru and Koki are just entering the practices room with a box of bento in their hand. Seeing Kame sitting on the floor with teary eyes and shocked face, they quickly approached him. In worried tone, Nakamaru start questioning Kame.
“Kame, what’s wrong? What happen to you? Why are you crying?”
Kame couldn’t voice out his words. Only his sobs getting more and more louder. Koki also give a worry look at Kame.
“Kame-chan! What’s wrong? Do you feel pain anywhere?”
Gently, Koki check Kame’s arms to make sure that the scar is not re-opened again. Kazu keeps shaking his head signaling that he’s not in physical pain.
“M..Ma..ruu…I..need to talk to you…in person….”
Maru exchange look with Koki and Koki understood the message. So, Koki left them alone and lock the door.
“What’s wrong,Kazuya?”
“I think I’ve fallen in love with Jin…I’m so stupid! I never realize that I actually love him….What should I do,Maru? I want him back… Before this, there’s only he belongs to me. I never let myself belongs to him. In fact,I told him that he’s mine but I’m not his. I treat him so bad! I’m such an idiot! I want to belong to him. Will I ever have that chance? What should I do, Maru?”
Kazu buried his face on Maru’s chest. Maru try to ease the younger one by caressing his hairs.
“Oh! My God! I’ve hurt him badly… He’ll never going to forgive me…. He must have really hate me now… I’ll never going to get his love again. I want him back… What should I do????”
Kazu’s cries keeps increasing. He gripped Maru’s shirt hard as if he’s afraid that Maru would leave him alone with the unanswered questions he had in his mind. Slowly, Maru pull out from the embrace and cupped both of Kazu’s cheeks.
“Then, go for it. If you really want him, go get him. We maybe cannot change the past but we still can change the future if we work hard for it. Show him that you love him as much as he love you. When he comes back, try to win his heart again. Make him fall in love with you again”
“Really? Will he loves me again? Is it possible?”
“Nothing is impossible in this world, Kazuya. Haven’t you heard the phases that just one love can change the world?”
Finally, a smile was formed on Kazu’s lips.
“Thank you! Thank you for encouraging me! You make me feels better now.”
“Anytime, Kazuya. Remember that whatever happen, I’ll always be there for you.”
Ueda just landed on his soft mattress when the doorbell rang. With lazy steps, he makes his way to the door. As soon as the door was open, he was hugged tightly by Ryo.
“Ryo? What happen?”
“I miss you…. Can we stay like this for a while?”
It was weird when a very baka Ryo suddenly turned out like this. Gently, Ueda caress the back of Ryo’s head while pushing the door closed.
“Hime-chan, am I a very insensitive person towards my surrounding? I’ve caused lots of trouble and I don’t even know it… Am I that idiot?”
“No. You’re always sensitive with my feeling. You always care for me and you always make me feel blissful. Maybe you are an idiot but that’s what I like about you.”
“Really? I love you so much Hime. Promise me you won’t leave me forever?”
“I promise. I love you too, Ryo!”
Ryo’s heart was eased by Ueda’s confession. Slowly, he pulls away from their embrace to give him space to kiss Ueda. When the kiss turns more passionate, both of them decide that it is better to go to the bedroom now. The couples share their night by loving each other endlessly and let themselves drown in each other cares.
Pi was staring outside of the window blankly. His mind has been thinking about the conversation that he has a while ago. He has received a call from Johnny-san today. Now, he’s waiting for Jin to come home so he can discuss it with him. When the front door was opened, he quickly get up to greet the said man.
“Tadaima! Wah….There are so many people today at the coffee house. I’m so damn tired!!!”
“Okaieri,Jin. Did you have your dinner yet?”
Jin nodded.
“I’m going to take a bath first,okeis?”
“Erm..Jin. I have something that I want to talk about.”
“Later,okey? Let me take my bath first.”
“Wa..wait! Ano…Johnny-san called this morning.”
Jin’s steps quickly stopped at that moment. He turns around to meet Yamapi’s face.
“What did he say?”
“He wants us to go back.”
“I don’t think I want to go back.”
“Come on,Jin. It’s been 6 month now. And you know that we don’t have any more money left. Maybe we should go back. Maybe things will go better after this.”
“No! I’ll find us ways to get money. I’ll work more. I just don’t want to go back.”
“You’ve already been working at the coffee house and it still can’t endure our expenses. And by the way…I…I miss them…All of them….I miss my family…my friends…Our friends, Jin!”
“You’ll feel hurt again if we go back now. I don’t want you to remember anything from THAT incident.”
“Is it me or YOU? I don’t think that I’m the one that was still haven’t get over it yet.”
“Think about it Jin. Think about KAT-TUN and NEWS. Don’t you miss them?”
Jin stood in silent. He has no answer for that. He exhales his breath slowly.
“Okay. We’ll go back to Japan next week. I need to quit my job first. So, we can prepare all of our things and pack up our stuffs.”
“Thanks, Jin.” Yamapi smiled.
Nakamaru glances at Kazuya’s face. He was holding a banquet of pink roses in his hands. Somehow, he thinks that Kazuya looks more beautiful than those roses. The smile on Kazuya’s face is enough to enlighten his whole world. He feels happy because he knows what the reason behind that smile is. It’s because Jin will come back today. He still remembers how happy Kazu was when he heard that news of Jin’s return the other day.
“Yuuichi~~~!!!!!”
Nakamaru put down the magazine that he’s reading aside when Kazuya jump onto his laps and hugged him tightly.
“He’s coming home! Jin will come home!”
“Really? That’s good. Now, you can show him you’ve changed and you can confess to him that you love him.”
“Yes! He will forgive me,right? We’ll be a real lover then. Ureshi na!!!”
“Hai…hai… When will he come home?”
“In next two days. Let’s go out. I want to buy new cloths and book flowers for him!”
Without waiting for Maru’s reply, Kazu grabbed his hand and make a move towards the door. And he just follow him because there is no way he will refuse his beloved Kazu’s request.
All of KAT-TUN and NEWS members are waiting patiently at the airport. Kazu feels his heart was beating fast and he knows that the nervousness was written all over his face. Noticing Kazu’s nerves, Maru grabbed Kazu’s hand tightly in his. Kazu turns to face Maru and flash him a dazing smile.
“It’ll be okay,Kazuya.” Kazu nodded. When he turns his head, his eyes met Ryo’s eyes. He smiled at him and nodded once signaling that “it’ll be okay” to Kazuya. Kazuya really feels grateful to Ryo for showing him his real feeling towards Jin.
When Jin and Yamapi was seen walking out from the arrivals entrance, all of them waive their hand as if the two would not notice them. A smile was formed on all of the guys there. Kazu eyes are shining with hopes and happiness. All of them interchange hugged with the two guys. Jin was smiling happily until he faced Kazuya. The smile disappeared and been replaced with a hurtful look. Kazuya try his best to put his best smile and hand over the roses to Jin.
“Okaeri….”
Jin accepts the flowers.
“Arigato.”
With that, he quickly turns his head to other member. Kazuya feel as if his heart was stabbed. The tears on the corner of his eyes almost broke down if it’s not for Nakamaru who come and gently rub his back.
“Give him some times. He’ll understand it soon. Okey?”
Kazu nodded. He tries to calm his heart down. But his heart just won’t listen to him. It keep saying that Jin hates him so much that he feels disgusted to even look at him.
Jin feels the urged to hold Kazuya in his arms by the moment his eyes met the figure of his love. He knows that if he keep looking at those pretty eyes, he’ll lose himself and will embrace that man at the moment. So, that’s why he quickly turns away after accepting the flowers. He feels that the wounded in his heart was bleeding again.
“How about we all go for sushi together?” Koki suggested.
“Yeah,sure. Yamapi will come with me and Hime. Jin, you go with Kame-chan,okey?” Ryo try hard to create an opportunity for both of them.
“Eh?? No!!! I…I want to be with Pi…”
Once again Kazu’s heart was stabbed!
Pi knows that Jin feels uncomfortable with the arrangement for what has happen between the three of them.
“What if Jin and I follow TegoMass? We’ll see each other back at the sushi shop. Okay?”
“Okey…” All of other members agree.
“Jah…Iku yo!” Jin grabbed Pi’s hand and walked away.
Ryo and Maru exchanged look with each other and both of them turns to see Kazuya’s face. The shining face a while ago has varnished replace by a very sad and hurtful face. Ryo signaling to Maru to take Kazu away before the rest of the members realize it. After telling other members that he’s going with Kazu, Maru quickly hold Kazu’s hand and dragged him out. As soon as they are inside the car, Maru pull Kazu in his embrace and let him cry out all of the tears that he’s been holding. Without their notice, a pair of eyes was watching them from inside of other car. Jin accidently look outside of the mirror and he see Maru walking hand in hand with Kazuya. He feels a pang to his heart. And when he saw both of them hugging, he couldn’t suppress his hurt anymore. He turns his look away.
Have you found your true love and happiness? That’s why you look so happy a moment ago. You’ve changed and it’s all because of him, isn’t it? You’re right. I’ll never going to have your love. Maybe it’s time for me to forget you. Goodbye Kazuya. You’ll always be my angel. I’ll treasure our memory until the end of time.
A week after..
It’s already almost midnight. Jin was packing his stuff and preparing to go home. After 2 days of their return,Jin and Pi has start their practice back. Everybody else has gone home. He was waiting for Yamapi in the room when he notices that Kazu’s bag is still there in the practice room. He tries to neglect it.
“Jin, are you done? Let’s go.”
Yamapi appears on the door and stepped into the room.
“Yea… let’s go.”
When he was about to stand up, he sees a very known figure walk into the room.
“Ano….can I talk with both of you for a while?”
Kazuya stood up in front of them with hoping eyes. Both Jin and Yamapi look at each other.
“I want to apologize for everything that I’ve done before. I know that I don’t deserve to be forgiven. But…I really am sorry.”
Kazuya bowed down to both of them. Jin speak out,
“If you think you don’t deserve it, then why wasting your time bowing to us?”
Kazuya heart clenched. Yamapi look at Jin in disbelief.
“I really hope you can forgive me. I’ll do anything to make it up for you. Just…please…please forgive me…. I beg you,please….You can hit me or something but please don’t hate me…. I want us to be friend once more”
This time Kazuya kneeled down in front of them. His forehead was almost touching the floor. His tears have starts to flow from his eyes.
“Then, stay away from us!”
Jin grabbed the hand of shocking Yamapi and lead them both out from the room, leaving behind the crying Kazuya. Kazuya rise up his head and stare at the door with tears in his eyes.
He’ll never going to forgive me…. He has Pi now… He will never love me again….
Jin keeps pushing the lift button as if it will expedite the opening of the door. Once the lift opens, he drags Pi inside and quickly pushed the close button. Pi feels worried with Jin behavior.
“Jin..?”
He holds Jin’s shoulder to turn him around and as he expected, Jin was crying. He embraces him tightly.
“I can’t take it anymore Pi. It hurt me to see him like that. I’m afraid that I’ll lose control over him. Why can’t I stop loving him,Pi? Why? Why can’t I hate him after what he has done to us? Why I still hope that he will hold me like before?”
“Because he’s your true love. You care about him more than you care for yourself.”
“He’s not mine, Pi. He’s with Maru now. I’m not the one he love. Moreover, it’ll be unfair to you. I’m not supposed to feel this way to the person who hurt my best friend.”
“I’ve forgive him, Jin. He’s our friend after all. At that time, he’s not in his stable condition. If you really love him, maybe you should tell him that again. Maybe after all of this time, he’ll answer you back.”
“No,Pi. It will hurt me more if he says that he loves someone else. I don’t know what I will do at that time. Forgetting him is the best way now.”
Pi continues rubbing Jin’s back. He always know that Jin never forget Kazu for this whole time. At first, he feels betrayed. But after he think back, he know that Jin really loves Kazu so much. That is when he decides that he’ll accept it and forgive Kazuya.
Jin let all of his tears flown out from his eyes-the tears that he has been holding up for months.
I’m sorry, Kazu. I never hate you. But, this is the only way to make me forget my love for you. If I let you get close to me again, maybe I won’t be satisfied with just a friend relationship. Maybe I’ll ask for more, more than what you can give me. And I know that I want to have you all to myself only. That will be cruel to Maru. If I ask you to be with me, I know you’ll probably will do it because of the guilty you’ve felt. It won’t be fair to you. It’s better to let you go than forcing you to stay. I always love you, Kazu…
To be continued…..
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So,what do you guys think? Is it boring? I don’t know how to convey their love and hurt in words. I just hope that you can feel it. Maybe you can listen to Mariah Carey song-We belong together. That’s how Kazu feel. (I guess??!) For Jin’s part, listen to Michael Learn to Rock- That’s why you go away. I was listening to these two songs when I write this. As always, forgive me for my grammatical errors and comment are appreciated!