MALAISE (n) - a feeling of being run down or depression
Tonight has been languid so far.
I dyed my oh so precious hair today and I was actually expecting something exquisitely hip, but how it turned did not exactly meet the way I wanted it.
However, it's not bad.
...
Let's get to the core of this.
Obviously, I'm not going to use my new-found vocabulary (malaise) to delineate my condition due to the state of my hair. I'm not THAT shallow, excuse me.
There are far more heartthrobbing issues to discuss...
such as my currently ongoing supply of romantic emotions toward the only love of my life.
Worse than that, I keep it all inside of me.
OPACITY. What you see isn't what you get from me anymore. Goodbye, my old transparent self.
Extracting the good part: At least I'm not in denial anymore. Admittedly, I still falter and then avoid certain emotions, the ugly (oogleh!) ones... BUT then, that's not half as bad anymore.
Blah blah..
Nevertheless, I am in the state of quandary whether or not I will spill my heart out to him. As of this point, I remain to choose not to, YET. I certainly do not know what the wind brings tomorrow, or the next day after that.
So for now...
I'll just let all my emotions run through me the way they are.
...
Want to know a little secret?
Sometimes, I'm just plainly normal, detached from all this.
Maybe, it's even more often that just 'sometimes'.
Nevertheless, I'm ending it as if this was all such tragedy.
MY HEART STILL REMAINS UNMENDED.
I dyed my oh so precious hair today and I was actually expecting something exquisitely hip, but how it turned did not exactly meet the way I wanted it.
However, it's not bad.
...
Let's get to the core of this.
Obviously, I'm not going to use my new-found vocabulary (malaise) to delineate my condition due to the state of my hair. I'm not THAT shallow, excuse me.
There are far more heartthrobbing issues to discuss...
such as my currently ongoing supply of romantic emotions toward the only love of my life.
Worse than that, I keep it all inside of me.
OPACITY. What you see isn't what you get from me anymore. Goodbye, my old transparent self.
Extracting the good part: At least I'm not in denial anymore. Admittedly, I still falter and then avoid certain emotions, the ugly (oogleh!) ones... BUT then, that's not half as bad anymore.
Blah blah..
Nevertheless, I am in the state of quandary whether or not I will spill my heart out to him. As of this point, I remain to choose not to, YET. I certainly do not know what the wind brings tomorrow, or the next day after that.
So for now...
I'll just let all my emotions run through me the way they are.
...
Want to know a little secret?
Sometimes, I'm just plainly normal, detached from all this.
Maybe, it's even more often that just 'sometimes'.
Nevertheless, I'm ending it as if this was all such tragedy.
MY HEART STILL REMAINS UNMENDED.