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kind of sucks living alone. i mean it's good yet kinda lonely too. need to get fergus sometime next week. he was still adjusting to it here and didn't hate me. i just didn't want to have to take care of him while i was in my depressed, suicidal state. he deserved more than that so thought that i'd take him back to christine's. but i seem to be recovering now so i want him back in my life. saw him today and he's just so funny. ripped up my hand though. he was stoned from the mighty catnip so not a big deal. kind of looking forward to bela visiting for a week as well. she's a complete nutjob!
i have a lot that i can be doing but just not in the mood to do any of it. this picture project is kind of a huge undertaking and not really into tackling it right now. not feeling very artsy/creative at the moment. i'm not depressed or anything negative like that, just rather blah...just tired perhaps. only got 4 hours of sleep so that might explain it.
screwed things up with christine by being honest and now i feel as though i lost the remaining respect that i had and in the process hurt her even more.
need to meet more people besides at work. need to get together with friends whom i haven't seen in a long time....matt, michael, julianna, kelly, etc. but they are always busy doing their own thing.
my contacts have been bothering me a lot lately. wonder if it's allergies or something. this is the first spring that i've worn them. speaking of seeing, should probably go watch a movie or something.
oh, and can i please get new parents?! mine are driving me nuts. got a letter in the mail from my mom saying that they were getting divorced again...now just got an e-mail saying that they worked things out. so freakin' annoying!
i have a lot that i can be doing but just not in the mood to do any of it. this picture project is kind of a huge undertaking and not really into tackling it right now. not feeling very artsy/creative at the moment. i'm not depressed or anything negative like that, just rather blah...just tired perhaps. only got 4 hours of sleep so that might explain it.
screwed things up with christine by being honest and now i feel as though i lost the remaining respect that i had and in the process hurt her even more.
need to meet more people besides at work. need to get together with friends whom i haven't seen in a long time....matt, michael, julianna, kelly, etc. but they are always busy doing their own thing.
my contacts have been bothering me a lot lately. wonder if it's allergies or something. this is the first spring that i've worn them. speaking of seeing, should probably go watch a movie or something.
oh, and can i please get new parents?! mine are driving me nuts. got a letter in the mail from my mom saying that they were getting divorced again...now just got an e-mail saying that they worked things out. so freakin' annoying!