the "good lil asian boy..."
today went well...
had a study session with megan, laurie, and yvonne for books of moses... i thought it was very productive... sometimes, you just need to talk through the questions to get them in your mind...
cory invited me to a small superbowl party... i don't really keep up with teams, since i don't have any loyalties anywhere, but it's fun to watch football... left from grainger, picked up angelic and dana, and we headed over to his friend's sister's house in pope valley... got a little lost finding the house, regardless of the number of times him and angelic have been there, haha...
decided to root for the chicago bears, just to cause controversy against him... dana and i were rooting for the underdogs, and were really glad to see them make a touchdown in the first 15 seconds of the game... that and their interception were probably the only highlights of that game for the two of us, since it went downhill from there... did laugh at when the cameraman got knocked over, and a whole bunch of other times when the colt defense would totally miss their pick, dive at him, and miss; three guys in a row... too bad they lost though, haha... cory and sara were glad about that...
some hilarious commercials:
the bud light commercial...
the dorito commercial... HILARIOUS! and the navigation commercial that reminded me of old school power rangers, which everyone else thought was lame...
got to play with trisha's baby, evelyn... she's a twin, and very friendly... the other one was sick and very cranky... evelyn kept teasing me by throwing her toy on the floor and having me pick it up for her... her blowing raspberries the entire time made her that much more precious! probably a bad idea to give her my phone, as she started sucking on it... funny moment, when cory admitted he was fans of a team b/c of their jersey colors, which made the testosterone level in the room slowly deteriorate... startled by their huge gray cat next to my head, and molly their dog doing the same... became the "good lil asian boy" by cleaning up after everyone, and even washing the dishes with cory, while the girls finished up the post-game show and watched us clean... talk about role-reversal!
the girls rode back with sara, so cory and i drove back behind them... with chill music playing, and a truck with bright lights following directly behind us... discussed the girl that would make us most happy in life... the girl whose singing voice can lull you to sleep... whose smile lights up an entire room... who you feel undeserving of her love and is almost like your trophy... someone that makes you feel like you're inferior, like she's someone you don't deserve, but yet never is condescending and loves you... humility beyond compare...
got back, had dinner at the caf where andy joined us... andy and i got into talking after cory left; elaborated below... talked a bit to janer and cory online... glad to see that i'm helping friends through problems, just by simply being there...
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oh, PUC, and the wealth of life experience one faces when at this wonderful place on top of holy hill...
andy was definitely down about something today, so we got to talking on the dinner table... turns out that he's been down about the exact complex that i've been having lately... and it's funny how two guys with two totally different personalities (him being an ENFP, and me being an ISFJ) can be frustrated about the same problems... it made him feel a lot better...
i've mentioned it a couple of times in my past entries, but this idea of feeling needed and vital to other people is really taxing... the need for people to be clingy is a bit intimidating, and frankly one only has so much to give... what makes it hard for him is his overall friendliness... andy's probably one of the most friendly people i know, and sometimes it puts him in situations where he feels he needs to dedicate time to people to just be there for him... and sometimes, it really just causes stress...
frankly, it's not about the quantity of time you spend with someone; it's about the quality of the time... just b/c someone doesn't wanna be around you all the time doesn't mean that you're any less of a friend... you can see or talk to each other very little, and still strengthen a friendship... i mean, at dinner, cory, andy, and i were just sitting there, eating in complete silence... you don't need conversation to have quality time with friends...
"absence makes the heart grow fonder..." who knew that sextus propertius said those words, how true it is for all situations...
sometimes, relationships need to feel like a conquest, especially the one that will develop into your future spouse... i've realized that the relationship i have with a certain someone is very complex, which makes everything very difficult... how do you approach something so fragile, when you don't wanna mess up the dynamic you already have with that person...? how do you know that the other person feels the same way...? my friendship with her is so important to me that i can't mess that up... a friendship where we have the capability of talking nonstop for hours, yet still sense some awkward silence... it's an epic story; and if it doesn't end with a happy ending, i wouldn't know what to do... i guess i'm still waiting for that okay sign from God; that slap in the face that i keep referring to when i discuss my love life... that person deserves someone amazing, and i know i have much more room for growth...
relationships are an art... i love it...
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i must be doing something right in life... never have i been complimented so many times on the quality of the person i am lately, and it makes me definitely feel warm and fuzzy inside... i'm glad to know that i'm making a positive impact on others' lives... being a positive role model, or a good friend, or just someone that people can trust and open up to... i definitely feel like i don't deserve to have the friends i have, but i have definitely been blessed...
when one has so much happiness, it's always great to share it... in sharing all my happiness, it's been something positive for others... i'm just glad to be that positive individual...
had a study session with megan, laurie, and yvonne for books of moses... i thought it was very productive... sometimes, you just need to talk through the questions to get them in your mind...
cory invited me to a small superbowl party... i don't really keep up with teams, since i don't have any loyalties anywhere, but it's fun to watch football... left from grainger, picked up angelic and dana, and we headed over to his friend's sister's house in pope valley... got a little lost finding the house, regardless of the number of times him and angelic have been there, haha...
decided to root for the chicago bears, just to cause controversy against him... dana and i were rooting for the underdogs, and were really glad to see them make a touchdown in the first 15 seconds of the game... that and their interception were probably the only highlights of that game for the two of us, since it went downhill from there... did laugh at when the cameraman got knocked over, and a whole bunch of other times when the colt defense would totally miss their pick, dive at him, and miss; three guys in a row... too bad they lost though, haha... cory and sara were glad about that...
some hilarious commercials:
the bud light commercial...
the dorito commercial... HILARIOUS! and the navigation commercial that reminded me of old school power rangers, which everyone else thought was lame...
got to play with trisha's baby, evelyn... she's a twin, and very friendly... the other one was sick and very cranky... evelyn kept teasing me by throwing her toy on the floor and having me pick it up for her... her blowing raspberries the entire time made her that much more precious! probably a bad idea to give her my phone, as she started sucking on it... funny moment, when cory admitted he was fans of a team b/c of their jersey colors, which made the testosterone level in the room slowly deteriorate... startled by their huge gray cat next to my head, and molly their dog doing the same... became the "good lil asian boy" by cleaning up after everyone, and even washing the dishes with cory, while the girls finished up the post-game show and watched us clean... talk about role-reversal!
the girls rode back with sara, so cory and i drove back behind them... with chill music playing, and a truck with bright lights following directly behind us... discussed the girl that would make us most happy in life... the girl whose singing voice can lull you to sleep... whose smile lights up an entire room... who you feel undeserving of her love and is almost like your trophy... someone that makes you feel like you're inferior, like she's someone you don't deserve, but yet never is condescending and loves you... humility beyond compare...
got back, had dinner at the caf where andy joined us... andy and i got into talking after cory left; elaborated below... talked a bit to janer and cory online... glad to see that i'm helping friends through problems, just by simply being there...
- - - - - - -
oh, PUC, and the wealth of life experience one faces when at this wonderful place on top of holy hill...
andy was definitely down about something today, so we got to talking on the dinner table... turns out that he's been down about the exact complex that i've been having lately... and it's funny how two guys with two totally different personalities (him being an ENFP, and me being an ISFJ) can be frustrated about the same problems... it made him feel a lot better...
i've mentioned it a couple of times in my past entries, but this idea of feeling needed and vital to other people is really taxing... the need for people to be clingy is a bit intimidating, and frankly one only has so much to give... what makes it hard for him is his overall friendliness... andy's probably one of the most friendly people i know, and sometimes it puts him in situations where he feels he needs to dedicate time to people to just be there for him... and sometimes, it really just causes stress...
frankly, it's not about the quantity of time you spend with someone; it's about the quality of the time... just b/c someone doesn't wanna be around you all the time doesn't mean that you're any less of a friend... you can see or talk to each other very little, and still strengthen a friendship... i mean, at dinner, cory, andy, and i were just sitting there, eating in complete silence... you don't need conversation to have quality time with friends...
"absence makes the heart grow fonder..." who knew that sextus propertius said those words, how true it is for all situations...
sometimes, relationships need to feel like a conquest, especially the one that will develop into your future spouse... i've realized that the relationship i have with a certain someone is very complex, which makes everything very difficult... how do you approach something so fragile, when you don't wanna mess up the dynamic you already have with that person...? how do you know that the other person feels the same way...? my friendship with her is so important to me that i can't mess that up... a friendship where we have the capability of talking nonstop for hours, yet still sense some awkward silence... it's an epic story; and if it doesn't end with a happy ending, i wouldn't know what to do... i guess i'm still waiting for that okay sign from God; that slap in the face that i keep referring to when i discuss my love life... that person deserves someone amazing, and i know i have much more room for growth...
relationships are an art... i love it...
- - - - - - -
i must be doing something right in life... never have i been complimented so many times on the quality of the person i am lately, and it makes me definitely feel warm and fuzzy inside... i'm glad to know that i'm making a positive impact on others' lives... being a positive role model, or a good friend, or just someone that people can trust and open up to... i definitely feel like i don't deserve to have the friends i have, but i have definitely been blessed...
when one has so much happiness, it's always great to share it... in sharing all my happiness, it's been something positive for others... i'm just glad to be that positive individual...