i wish i could expand my mind.
at almost all times, it seems entirely impossible to
explore my personal capabilities.
to be completely stuck, yet free to soar.
a pure annoyance.
irritation,: satan sent.
sacred Incapabilities-
the wish of once known companionable urgencies.
a craveing. everlasting faithful vulnurability.
..vulnerability. a ( Read more... )

i NEED him in my life.

My life just continuously spins out of control and never stops.
In a weird way im excited to announce that ill be starting to move into my own room at MY MOMS house.
weird huh. yeah i know. cool kind of though somehow i dont know.
I spent the whole day yesterday in the E.R. and found out i have ovarian cysts-
THEY FUCKING HURT. bad. they feel llike ( Read more... )

I know that he is thinking about me. There is no doubt.
Shit got pretty fuckin ugly thats for damn sure

The thing about it is, I realised that the love of my life is simply just a very close human being to me.
But,....god i dont know, were just.... friends. were bros, like homies. He doesnt view me as fragile, beautiful, emotional, affectionate.
To him im just one of the home boys. I have realised that we are not in love as a man and a woman.
All we ( Read more... )

so mother fucking done.
so done.
I wish i could just be strong enough to break free. but i just cant find it inside myself right now. pathetically enough, yes.
Im a hopeless fool. damn.
It just comes down to the pure and simple fact that everyone betrays and disrespects one another.
thanks guys, and your welcome. or sorry, or somthing.
hmmm, yeeeah.

so honestly man i am trippin. i swear to you with everything i have, that im at my moms house, (wich i hate anyway) ive always felt dull vibes here. ive always recieved bad news here. ive always had rough times here. i dont really want to be here to begin with right now, but i simply cannot help it. So anyway, the kitchen lights, (two small round ( Read more... )

SEW, hello you silly little life. haha wow boy am i just kidding. there is absolutely fucking nothing funny about it. well not now anyway. haha. so idk something hit me. every once in a while i just want to be on livejournal i remember the good ol days before face book when livejournal was the serious IT thing. i love livejournal. i NEED ( Read more... )

so apparantly ive got some issues goin on.
no need to feel frightened. i am a harmless loving human being. a good mother, and a supportive loving compassionate person who is sweet and loving to everyone and everything. i am just having some unfortunate catastrophic events in my life currently. and i am useing this journal to kind of treat myself. i ( Read more... )

i just sat in my backyard. a squirrel sat on my wooden fence and partook of the nut.
that squirrel will never know, about me. some  girl writing about him in her livejournal. 
in a world he could never know.

hmmm. i wonder. when i sit in my backyard do my nebors nottice me and ever stop to realize,
"she never goes anywhere. shes always home. she ( Read more... )