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So, my mom likes to tell me that I'm on the spectrum.
The autism spectrum.
It may be true, I don't know, but if it is it would've been nice to get some financial assistance due to my "disability"
Tonight she said something that bothered me though
she said that I don't care about other people
that I just say what comes to mind without thinking about how it will affect people.
Maybe she's right.
I don't know if it's the meds, or if I just stopped wanting to be a doormat, but somewhere along the lines my care factor disappeared.
I used to care. A lot. Too much.
I put everyone else's feelings and needs ahead of mine.
By doing that, I was miserable. Constantly unhappy.
So maybe I am a cold-hearted, autistic bitch, but I'm happy and happy is a feeling that I didn't experience much before.
Being honest and blunt may not make a lot of friends, but it sure does get rid of the people who aren't your friend.
The autism spectrum.
It may be true, I don't know, but if it is it would've been nice to get some financial assistance due to my "disability"
Tonight she said something that bothered me though
she said that I don't care about other people
that I just say what comes to mind without thinking about how it will affect people.
Maybe she's right.
I don't know if it's the meds, or if I just stopped wanting to be a doormat, but somewhere along the lines my care factor disappeared.
I used to care. A lot. Too much.
I put everyone else's feelings and needs ahead of mine.
By doing that, I was miserable. Constantly unhappy.
So maybe I am a cold-hearted, autistic bitch, but I'm happy and happy is a feeling that I didn't experience much before.
Being honest and blunt may not make a lot of friends, but it sure does get rid of the people who aren't your friend.