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I try really hard to not let myself feel for someone
unfortunately, my heart doesn't always follow the rules i set.
I've been hurt.
I spent 3 days completely depressed, barely leaving my bed, snapping at everyone who spoke to me.
I've been better since then, but I'm still bitter when other people have more success with relationships than I do.
I'm not crazy, I ask for very little.
Either I expect too little or I am actually not worth anyone's time.
I keep hoping someone will kill me
I'll be in a terrible car wreck or someone will break into my house
because I'm not ballsy enough to acutally kill myself.
I hate who I am and how I allow others to make me feel
but I don't know how to fix it.
So at this point, just run me off the road into a tree or something.
It's probably what's best for both of us.
unfortunately, my heart doesn't always follow the rules i set.
I've been hurt.
I spent 3 days completely depressed, barely leaving my bed, snapping at everyone who spoke to me.
I've been better since then, but I'm still bitter when other people have more success with relationships than I do.
I'm not crazy, I ask for very little.
Either I expect too little or I am actually not worth anyone's time.
I keep hoping someone will kill me
I'll be in a terrible car wreck or someone will break into my house
because I'm not ballsy enough to acutally kill myself.
I hate who I am and how I allow others to make me feel
but I don't know how to fix it.
So at this point, just run me off the road into a tree or something.
It's probably what's best for both of us.