I feel like my entire life has been turned upside down. My heart aches more than it has ached in a long time. I'm so confused and so hurt and so... lost. How do you get over someone that has been a part of you for so long? I met Josh two and a half years ago and was crazy about him for probably just as long. How do you just stop loving someone ( Read more... )

 wow, livejournal. who would have known this thing even still existed? i randomly thought of it today and thought id check it out. i enjoyed reading some of my old entries... haha. i can definately see how i have matured some.

so, here i am in my 5th semester at alabama. i still cant believe that! time is flying by. college is going by too fast!! i ( Read more... )

usually i can talk about my mom and be fine.
i can tell stories, laugh, and just remember.
and the whole time, i will be aware of the fact that she is dead.
and other times...
well, this may sound crazy...
but sometimes ill be talking about her...
and it will be like it randomly hits me that shes dead.
it feels like someone has punched me in the stomach ( Read more... )

last semester, i wasnt very happy here in tuscaloosa.
but this weekend, i have had so much fun!
i've met a lot of people and hung out with basically all new people, and i have had so much fun!
yay for making more friends in tuscaloosa. :-)

one week from today will be a year since lala died. gosh... i miss her so much. i hope that i've made her proud this year and that she isnt looking down in disappointment. she was my best friend, and its hard to believe ive been without her for a year...

im in auburn right now and i am for real having so much fun.
i got to spend alot of time with ( Read more... )

sometimes, my life is really hard and it really sucks.
but at other times, it just makes me smile.
today is a smiling day. :)

i cant believe how stupid i am....

i wish so badly that i could get in my car, drive to trussville, pull into the maplewood driveway, walk through the front door and back to my moms room, crawl in bed with her, and just hug her and cry.

i need a lala hug today....

how could she leave?

nikki is coming in town in the morning, and im so excited i dont know what to do with myself!!!!!!!
i havent seen her in two and a half weeks.... and im pretty sure im gonna tackle her when i do.
YAY!!!!!

summers in trussville just arent the same as they use to be.
there is nothing to do but lay out by the pool during the day... and do pointless things at night.
if josh and kim werent in town, i think i would have killed myself because of boredom.
i miss the beach.
i miss tuscaloosa.

ok... so i finally got the speeding ticket ( Read more... )