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usually i can talk about my mom and be fine.
i can tell stories, laugh, and just remember.
and the whole time, i will be aware of the fact that she is dead.
and other times...
well, this may sound crazy...
but sometimes ill be talking about her...
and it will be like it randomly hits me that shes dead.
it feels like someone has punched me in the stomach or something.
i just feel so... empty.
sometimes im not sure how i get through every day without her.
gosh... i just have this really weird feeling right now.
like i cant believe she is really gone...