i think i made a mistake. moving in together was a bad idea. in the second month things are bad. maybe its because i'm not working. maybe its because he's insentative. who knows but what ever it is i'm not happy. i dont even know if i still love him. i think i do but......i dunno. we don't talk, he doesn't notice me. god i'm going insane. he never ( Read more... )

So daddy and i have been talking about me moving in with kevin. He's not happy, we aren't yelling though....which is great because that means he's still rational. (heather's getting pissy because i'm on the computor) We've had three rounds already. I'm waiting on the fourth one. During one round he was like buy me a bowflex and i'll be happy, so i ( Read more... )

yeah i'm finally moving out. and in with kevin. my parents are thrilled lemme tell you.  yeah my dad was like i'm dissapointed in you. yeah that makes me feel grrrreat! yeah my heart broke when he said that. but i'm so in love with kevin and if we are going to be confident that we can get married and make it last then we need to do this. We don't ( Read more... )

you know sometimes i just wish he wouldn't bother. he's over at belinda's  house and he's always leaving early from here. because he "doesn't want to drive home in the dark on the bike" well then why doesn't he bring the car? he's talked about it before, but then he always ends up dringing over the bike and won't ride with me anywhere if we go out ( Read more... )

Standing in the doorway of the abandoned church Moriganna shivered in the biting wind driven snow. “The irony”, she thought to herself, “I can feel twice as much as any human yet I’ve been dead for years.” She shook her head and opened the old wooden door. Making her way through the pews to the clergy’s quarters. Again Moriganna laughed at herself ( Read more... )

i think i'm developing an allergy to the cats.....thats not good.....

you know, i was going through my email, deleting things and whatnot. i found some emails from ian, they were some pictures that he sent me of himself. i looked at them and felt....nothing. Nothing at all, a brief moment of sadness and then...nothing. And you know what, i dunno, nothing. It was just something that was and now its not ( Read more... )

Okay so what has been going on in my life lately? Umm well 11 months is coming up on the 13th, kevin and i are going to double up valentines day and our monaversery. teeheehee. I'm just going to take that day off from school and going up to Del Mar to talk to one of the counselors about my major. It'll be fun. Not. I've got senioritis hard core. ( Read more... )

Life is going well. Great, Fantastic. Lol. Now that Kevin is settling into his work schedule and school and what not things are going better. I got to see him three (count 'em three) times this weekend! Yay! And on Monday we're having lunch. Yayness! I'm hungry. After Kevin went to work i wondered around the mall for awhile looking at prom dresses ( Read more... )

Life sucks. I'm pathetic. And i......oh nevermind