"open the bottle...and step inside..."
i knew i was in trouble as soon as i realized i had options.
the second i was aware i could say 'no'...to ANYTHING...i was destined to become who i am. anytime i dont feel like doing something all i have to do is say no. whos gonna stop me. no one. they can object all they want but i always have my freedom of choice and if i choose no...well, they have to deal with it. i have to deal with it.
so here i am. sitting. alone. on a saturday night. because i didnt feel like going out...well i did but then my mind changed (as it does with my drastic mood swings) and so...i said no. and no one can do anything about it. do i regret it? maybe i used to but now its just a typical nicole activity. im content with being alone. avoiding random boys in random bars with random activities i would rather avoid...and thus do.
i am content with how i am. i am content with my actions. maybe not everyone is and maybe i disappoint many. but ive always been a princess.
this is nothing new.
the second i was aware i could say 'no'...to ANYTHING...i was destined to become who i am. anytime i dont feel like doing something all i have to do is say no. whos gonna stop me. no one. they can object all they want but i always have my freedom of choice and if i choose no...well, they have to deal with it. i have to deal with it.
so here i am. sitting. alone. on a saturday night. because i didnt feel like going out...well i did but then my mind changed (as it does with my drastic mood swings) and so...i said no. and no one can do anything about it. do i regret it? maybe i used to but now its just a typical nicole activity. im content with being alone. avoiding random boys in random bars with random activities i would rather avoid...and thus do.
i am content with how i am. i am content with my actions. maybe not everyone is and maybe i disappoint many. but ive always been a princess.
this is nothing new.