Today is okay.
It's been a weird day. Not too happy with my eating... but at least I didn't go over 1000 again. Still, I'm not back to normal, and I don't know how to get there.... I feel like I'm really lost most of the time... and I get home at night having done so well.... and then I binge... and it all seems like a bad dream. I feel so terrible while I'm eating but i can't stop. It's wrong. I don't know why it's happening. I don't want to swing back to overeating. i don't want to. i want to be thin. Not the fat ugly lard ball I once was. I can't stop crying. I hate my life.
Today:
coffee and creamer 40
Peaches 123
jamba (FREE AT THE GYM!!! WHY DID THEY HAVE TO HAVE CALORIES AT THE GYM?!?!?) 80
Red Bull Sugar Free 374 15
Yam 85 100
cc spread 25
pasta (This was STUPID!!!!) 275
croutons w/salsa 35
Plums 106 49
croutons 75
cereal 45
cereal 45
cereal 45
Total Calories Consumed 952
will finish this later- jack just got here. Dunno if any of this makes sense, it's still got gram measurements thru half of it. Burnt 300 exercising. Jacks coming up stairs. later loves.
Today:
coffee and creamer 40
Peaches 123
jamba (FREE AT THE GYM!!! WHY DID THEY HAVE TO HAVE CALORIES AT THE GYM?!?!?) 80
Red Bull Sugar Free 374 15
Yam 85 100
cc spread 25
pasta (This was STUPID!!!!) 275
croutons w/salsa 35
Plums 106 49
croutons 75
cereal 45
cereal 45
cereal 45
Total Calories Consumed 952
will finish this later- jack just got here. Dunno if any of this makes sense, it's still got gram measurements thru half of it. Burnt 300 exercising. Jacks coming up stairs. later loves.