Is this it?
It's time to leave, I think. I promised myself I would not get sucked into another bad relationship, and that I would have the knowledge to know when it was time to leave. I think it's time, but something is sticking. Do I not want to leave you so close to your birthday? Is that what the hang-up is?
I just got my big raise, so money is not an issue. I would be happy to have work the most important thing in my life. A relationship is more than going out to eat and movies. I am perfectly OK by myself. I feel stifled and held back. I hate it.
Reasons (thinking out loud here):
The big three strikes.
1 - Adopting a dog from a breeder rather than a shelter. (Basically sending a dog to die). without asking me.
2 - Hiring an immigrant to clean the house, something you're completely capable of doing (or me). without asking me.
3 - Not telling me about your finances. How can I go forward without knowing what I'm getting into. I can save way more money by myself and get further ahead.
The others:
-Wearing your pants low and getting defensive when I point it out. Buy a belt for god's sake.
-Not being physical enough. If it's this way now, how will it be in the future? I left Robert because I didn't want to nurse him.
-Acting old, and bringing me down from the vitality of my age.
-Criticizing me for going home to PA too much.
- Criticizing me for not going back on meds. I'm not doing it for you, I'm doing it for myself. To go back on now would make me feel like I'm doing it for you.
-Showing a lazy attitude. What do you do all day?
-Criticizing me for running away from Robert.
I would do better with my freedom right now. Yeah, it's lonely not having someone to go out with, but I'll manage. I can ski, hike,drive, bike, do everything by myself.
This puppy ruined the relationship. It sure did. In the busiest moment of my life, you introduced this new being, which I thought you were going to take care of and train. now you expect me to help. The dog will be in good hands with you, so it's not like I'm abandoning anything.
Just venting. Serious issues. Can't wait for my therapy appt. on Monday.