[Oneshot] Unbreakable
Title: Unbreakable
Author: hanny2luv
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst
Disclaimer: I could only wish that they’re mine.
Beta by: the lovely allboutp
A/N: Sorry I’m a bit late. There’s internet problem here at home. But, better late than never, right.
“I really hope that this isn’t the end for us, Ryo. I really do. But I can’t do this alone anymore. You’re much more concern with your career; your work for everyone else but you never had time for me anymore. I can understand if you’re busy with your works but what should I do when you put someone else above me? If they are your families, or even your best friends, I don’t mind Ryo. Really, I don’t mind, but she’s not. She’s neither your family nor your best friend. Heck, she’s not even a close friend.” He let out a tired sigh.
“I tried to hold on for as long as I can, Ryo. But I just can’t. I’m just so tired of having you broke my heart again and again. I’m sorry, Ryo. I’m so sorry.” As he finishes those words, he turns around and leaves me standing there dumbfounded. And I just let him go and out of my life just like that.
*****
“Hey Ryo-chan! What’s up? Why the long face?” Yamapi asks, as he sat beside me. I looked up at him, and saw his eyes widen. I know what make him so surprised. It’s probably because of my red eyes, or perhaps the trace of tears trails on my cheek. I don’t know, and at this moment, I don’t care about it anymore.
Yamapi scoots closer to me, his hand drapes over my shoulder. “Hey Ryo-chan, what’s wrong? You know you can tell me anything right?”
I put my face in my palm, trying to collect my thoughts. Taking a deep breath, I turn to look at Yamapi. “Tatsuya left me, Pi.”
“WHAT? WHY?? I thought you guys are happy together.” Yamapi exclaims in shock.
“It’s my fault, Pi. I made him left me. And it’s been a week already.” I told my best friend and try to choke back the sob that threatens to come out.
“Why don’t you tell me what happened, Ryo-chan?” Yamapi asks me and I proceed to tell him what had happened between me and my lover, Ueda Tatsuya. I tell him why Tatsuya left me, all the words that Tatsuya told me and how hurt he sounds when he said that he’s already tired of having his heart broken by me. I also tell Yamapi about that woman, the one that cause a rift between me and my love one.
“I knew it! That bitch, I knew she is up to something when she keeps on asking me about you. Luckily I didn’t tell her anything. But how did she get your number? How did she manage to contact you though?” Yamapi asks me.
“That’s probably my own fault. I gave her my number when I was shooting a drama. I’m sorry I didn’t heed your warning, Pi.” I sigh in regret. Now that Tatsuya has left me, I regretted that I didn’t take my best friend’s warning about that woman more seriously. I thought I was invincible. I thought nothing can break up my relationship with Tatsuya. But I was wrong. I guess she did consume all my free time. And I know she is the reason that made me neglected Tatsuya. I couldn’t count how many times I cancelled our date, just to go to her. And I also realize that I spent so much time away from him, leaving him all alone in our apartment while I was with that woman. How I wish I could turn back time to undo all of this.
“Ryo-chan, don’t be so down. Maybe we can find some ways for you to apologize to Tat-chan. For you two to be together once again. Come on Ryo, you can’t just give up on him. You love him and I know, he loves you too.” Yamapi says to me.
“But what should I do, Pi? When he left me, he sounds so broken hearted, so hurt and tired. I can’t break his heart again, Pi. I can’t.” I tell him.
“I know that Ryo-chan, but are you really willing to let go the love of your life just like that. You seem the happiest when you’re with him. Can you let the source of your happiness out of your life because of some woman?” Yamapi asks me. I just shook my head because I know I can’t live my life without Tatsuya.
“Then, you should apologize to him. Show him what he meant to you, and that you truly love him, that you can’t live without him. And you should also convince him that you’re a new man and you won’t ever do what you did to him ever again. And don’t worry, I will help you.” Yamapi says to me. I just nod in agreement.
*****
I know that Tatsuya had already moved out from our apartment. Although he hasn’t taken out all of his things, but most of the essential one has all gone from the apartment that we shared. Without him, it feels wrong to be in this apartment all by myself. And it never feels this lonely before. After all, we pick this apartment together went we agreed to live together. Even the furniture, we bought them together. This loneliness, this sullenness, makes me more determine to win Tatsuya’s back. And I start planning to win back the heart of the man that I love.
On the first day of my plan, I buy a bouquet of red roses. I know it seems cliché but I’ll do what I have to do to apologize to him. Firstly, I want to apologize to my hime and explain to him that there is no one else in my heart except him. I want to clarify myself to him that I don’t need anyone else in my life. But unfortunately, the wound in his heart is still raw. He didn’t even want to see me. And the flower, if you ask? It is safe to say that it has met it’s fate in the bin.
The second day, I still continue with my plan to apologize with a bouquet of 15 roses since it’s meant I’m truly sorry, forgive me, but this time I use a combination of red and yellow because it show him that I love him and want to create a new beginning with him. But sufficient to say, it doesn’t really bring out the effect that I desire.
The next day, I buy him his favourite chocolate. It’s hard to get, and very expensive too but I know it really worth it. When I present him the gift, he simply takes it and then gives it to his band mates. I feel dishearten with his action and his teammates just look at me with a mix of pity and encouragement. And somehow I feel glad knowing that his band mates want us to get together again.
And it goes on and on as days turns into weeks, and I never give up apologizing to him, seeking him and try to convince him that I’ve change. And even though it has taken weeks, but I’m glad at least I have make some progress with Tatsuya. When we first break up, he doesn’t even want to see me. But now he is willing to hear what I want to say to him. At least, now he has given me a chance to apologize to him and willing to hear the truth from me.
Today is the last day of the plan. Now, I’m standing outside of his sister’s house, with a bouquet of eleven red roses in one hand, because it’s simply mean that Tatsuya is the one that I love the most passionately, my treasured one, and a gachapin plush toy in another.
I swiftly shove the gifts in Tatsuya’s hand, when he opens the door, so he can’t refuse it or giveback the present to me. And before he says anything to me, I beat him to it.
“You probably tired with me giving all this things to you, ne. So this is the last thing I’m going to give you. But that doesn’t mean that I have given up on you. No, it simply means that I’m giving you time to think things through. I just want you to know that I am truly and deeply in love with you, and there is no one else but you. But I know you also need time to process all of this. And I just want you to know that I will be happy with what whatever decision you will make. Be it with me or without me.” And with that, I turn and leave.
*****
Today is my day off which coincidently happen to be the White Day; I wonder what Tatsuya answer is going to be. I hope he take me back into his life. I really don’t know what I’ll do if he refuse.
Just as I settle on my couch, flipping the channel to find something to amuse me, I hear someone knock on my door. My thought quickly went to Tatsuya. Oh, I really hope it’s him at the door. But to my disappointment, it’s only a delivery boy. He gave me a bouquet of white roses and left quickly after I sign the delivery form. I hid my disappointment behind a sigh. As I walk to my couch, I realize, there is a letter amongst the roses. Quickly, I take it and began to read it.
Dearest Ryo,
You know, as much as I tried to convince myself that breaking up with you is a right choice, my heart just can’t stop hurting and suddenly, it feels like everything that I do is not quite right anymore. I tried to forget you Ryo, I really do. But, you keep on coming back to me; into my minds, my dreams and it’s really hard to shove you away because you were never out of my heart in the first place.
The first few days after the break up, I can’t sleep because your face keeps on haunting me. Everywhere I go and everything I do, I keep on imagining your shadow around the apartment. How you would always cook a late night supper for me, how we always cuddle together on the couch after a long and tiring day, how you always pull me into the bathroom so we can have our shower together, and how you would always slip your hands around my waist holding me protectively against you on the bed. It’s so torturous just to be inside the apartment without you there with me. And at that time, I don’t know how I am going to handle life without you at all in my life. That’s why I make a decision to stay with my sister.
Being away from you makes me think a lot about our love. We been together for years already, right? We already have an establish relationship with each other. We love each other and hold on tight on each other, right? I know your weakness and you know about mine. I know all your quirk and fault, and that doesn’t make me love you any less before, right? In fact, I think I love you more because I know that about you, because you won’t show that weak side of yours just to anyone, just me because I’m special for you, right? Then, how could this awful thing happened to us? When do I start to doubt you? Why are we starting to drift far apart from each other? Why didn’t we communicate to each other anymore?
Then, that when I realize, that none of this is our fault. Not yours, and not mine either, but it’s all THAT WOMAN’s fault. It’s true isn’t it? She tried to take you away from me. First, she planted those doubt in my mind. Did you know, she confronted me once, saying that you don’t need me any longer since you have her now? And she can give you the one thing I can’t, a child. Oh how I wish I’d just kill her on the spot, if I know that confrontation will lead us into this. But I didn’t do anything back then, because you both were friends and I don’t want to have a fight with you because of her. Well, we did end up breaking up because of her after all. And that’s why it hurts so much.
But Ryo, these last few weeks, all the effort you throw to apologize to me, to try and woo me back again, has slowly heal the wound in my heart. It might be a very long time for it to be completely heals, but I’m willing to give us another try if you are still up for it. Because one thing that I’m sure in my heart is, right this moment, I can’t live without you. You have been in my heart for a very long time, Ryo, and you still are. I have never, ever stop loving you.
Anyway, if you still want me and you to become us once more, I will be waiting for you at our special spot at the park on White Day at 6 pm. When I’m writing this letter, I’m actually on my way to visit one of my cousin but don’t worry, I’ll be back soon and will be waiting for you there.
Love,
Tatsuya
I can barely contain my joy of laughter as I finish reading the letter. Finally, Tatsuya and I are going to be together again. I look up to the clock on the wall, to determine how much time I have before my meeting with Tatsuya. It’s ten o’clock in the morning and I’m already planning to make Tatsuya’s favourite food to bring with me later. As I plan what else to do before going out shopping for the groceries, I hear my phone ringing. I look at the caller ID and Yamapi’s name come up. I pick it up to tell him my great news.
“Pi, Tatsuya and I are going to be together once again. He forgives me, Pi. We’re going to be lovers once more. Isn’t it great?” I shout at him with gleeful tones.
“That’s great, Ryo-chan. But, I think you should turn on the news channel on your TV right now, Ryo-chan.” There is something wrong that I can’t identify in Yamapi’s tone of voice that makes me curious and kind of nervous at the same time. I quickly do as he tells me.
“UEDA TATSUYA, A MEMBER OF POPULAR BAND, KAT-TUN, IS SAID TO BE ONE OF THE VICTIM OF THE PLANE CRASH THAT HAPPEN EARLIER TODAY………”
The End
Author: hanny2luv
Pairing: Ryoda
Genre: Angst
Disclaimer: I could only wish that they’re mine.
Beta by: the lovely allboutp
A/N: Sorry I’m a bit late. There’s internet problem here at home. But, better late than never, right.
“I really hope that this isn’t the end for us, Ryo. I really do. But I can’t do this alone anymore. You’re much more concern with your career; your work for everyone else but you never had time for me anymore. I can understand if you’re busy with your works but what should I do when you put someone else above me? If they are your families, or even your best friends, I don’t mind Ryo. Really, I don’t mind, but she’s not. She’s neither your family nor your best friend. Heck, she’s not even a close friend.” He let out a tired sigh.
“I tried to hold on for as long as I can, Ryo. But I just can’t. I’m just so tired of having you broke my heart again and again. I’m sorry, Ryo. I’m so sorry.” As he finishes those words, he turns around and leaves me standing there dumbfounded. And I just let him go and out of my life just like that.
*****
“Hey Ryo-chan! What’s up? Why the long face?” Yamapi asks, as he sat beside me. I looked up at him, and saw his eyes widen. I know what make him so surprised. It’s probably because of my red eyes, or perhaps the trace of tears trails on my cheek. I don’t know, and at this moment, I don’t care about it anymore.
Yamapi scoots closer to me, his hand drapes over my shoulder. “Hey Ryo-chan, what’s wrong? You know you can tell me anything right?”
I put my face in my palm, trying to collect my thoughts. Taking a deep breath, I turn to look at Yamapi. “Tatsuya left me, Pi.”
“WHAT? WHY?? I thought you guys are happy together.” Yamapi exclaims in shock.
“It’s my fault, Pi. I made him left me. And it’s been a week already.” I told my best friend and try to choke back the sob that threatens to come out.
“Why don’t you tell me what happened, Ryo-chan?” Yamapi asks me and I proceed to tell him what had happened between me and my lover, Ueda Tatsuya. I tell him why Tatsuya left me, all the words that Tatsuya told me and how hurt he sounds when he said that he’s already tired of having his heart broken by me. I also tell Yamapi about that woman, the one that cause a rift between me and my love one.
“I knew it! That bitch, I knew she is up to something when she keeps on asking me about you. Luckily I didn’t tell her anything. But how did she get your number? How did she manage to contact you though?” Yamapi asks me.
“That’s probably my own fault. I gave her my number when I was shooting a drama. I’m sorry I didn’t heed your warning, Pi.” I sigh in regret. Now that Tatsuya has left me, I regretted that I didn’t take my best friend’s warning about that woman more seriously. I thought I was invincible. I thought nothing can break up my relationship with Tatsuya. But I was wrong. I guess she did consume all my free time. And I know she is the reason that made me neglected Tatsuya. I couldn’t count how many times I cancelled our date, just to go to her. And I also realize that I spent so much time away from him, leaving him all alone in our apartment while I was with that woman. How I wish I could turn back time to undo all of this.
“Ryo-chan, don’t be so down. Maybe we can find some ways for you to apologize to Tat-chan. For you two to be together once again. Come on Ryo, you can’t just give up on him. You love him and I know, he loves you too.” Yamapi says to me.
“But what should I do, Pi? When he left me, he sounds so broken hearted, so hurt and tired. I can’t break his heart again, Pi. I can’t.” I tell him.
“I know that Ryo-chan, but are you really willing to let go the love of your life just like that. You seem the happiest when you’re with him. Can you let the source of your happiness out of your life because of some woman?” Yamapi asks me. I just shook my head because I know I can’t live my life without Tatsuya.
“Then, you should apologize to him. Show him what he meant to you, and that you truly love him, that you can’t live without him. And you should also convince him that you’re a new man and you won’t ever do what you did to him ever again. And don’t worry, I will help you.” Yamapi says to me. I just nod in agreement.
*****
I know that Tatsuya had already moved out from our apartment. Although he hasn’t taken out all of his things, but most of the essential one has all gone from the apartment that we shared. Without him, it feels wrong to be in this apartment all by myself. And it never feels this lonely before. After all, we pick this apartment together went we agreed to live together. Even the furniture, we bought them together. This loneliness, this sullenness, makes me more determine to win Tatsuya’s back. And I start planning to win back the heart of the man that I love.
On the first day of my plan, I buy a bouquet of red roses. I know it seems cliché but I’ll do what I have to do to apologize to him. Firstly, I want to apologize to my hime and explain to him that there is no one else in my heart except him. I want to clarify myself to him that I don’t need anyone else in my life. But unfortunately, the wound in his heart is still raw. He didn’t even want to see me. And the flower, if you ask? It is safe to say that it has met it’s fate in the bin.
The second day, I still continue with my plan to apologize with a bouquet of 15 roses since it’s meant I’m truly sorry, forgive me, but this time I use a combination of red and yellow because it show him that I love him and want to create a new beginning with him. But sufficient to say, it doesn’t really bring out the effect that I desire.
The next day, I buy him his favourite chocolate. It’s hard to get, and very expensive too but I know it really worth it. When I present him the gift, he simply takes it and then gives it to his band mates. I feel dishearten with his action and his teammates just look at me with a mix of pity and encouragement. And somehow I feel glad knowing that his band mates want us to get together again.
And it goes on and on as days turns into weeks, and I never give up apologizing to him, seeking him and try to convince him that I’ve change. And even though it has taken weeks, but I’m glad at least I have make some progress with Tatsuya. When we first break up, he doesn’t even want to see me. But now he is willing to hear what I want to say to him. At least, now he has given me a chance to apologize to him and willing to hear the truth from me.
Today is the last day of the plan. Now, I’m standing outside of his sister’s house, with a bouquet of eleven red roses in one hand, because it’s simply mean that Tatsuya is the one that I love the most passionately, my treasured one, and a gachapin plush toy in another.
I swiftly shove the gifts in Tatsuya’s hand, when he opens the door, so he can’t refuse it or giveback the present to me. And before he says anything to me, I beat him to it.
“You probably tired with me giving all this things to you, ne. So this is the last thing I’m going to give you. But that doesn’t mean that I have given up on you. No, it simply means that I’m giving you time to think things through. I just want you to know that I am truly and deeply in love with you, and there is no one else but you. But I know you also need time to process all of this. And I just want you to know that I will be happy with what whatever decision you will make. Be it with me or without me.” And with that, I turn and leave.
*****
Today is my day off which coincidently happen to be the White Day; I wonder what Tatsuya answer is going to be. I hope he take me back into his life. I really don’t know what I’ll do if he refuse.
Just as I settle on my couch, flipping the channel to find something to amuse me, I hear someone knock on my door. My thought quickly went to Tatsuya. Oh, I really hope it’s him at the door. But to my disappointment, it’s only a delivery boy. He gave me a bouquet of white roses and left quickly after I sign the delivery form. I hid my disappointment behind a sigh. As I walk to my couch, I realize, there is a letter amongst the roses. Quickly, I take it and began to read it.
Dearest Ryo,
You know, as much as I tried to convince myself that breaking up with you is a right choice, my heart just can’t stop hurting and suddenly, it feels like everything that I do is not quite right anymore. I tried to forget you Ryo, I really do. But, you keep on coming back to me; into my minds, my dreams and it’s really hard to shove you away because you were never out of my heart in the first place.
The first few days after the break up, I can’t sleep because your face keeps on haunting me. Everywhere I go and everything I do, I keep on imagining your shadow around the apartment. How you would always cook a late night supper for me, how we always cuddle together on the couch after a long and tiring day, how you always pull me into the bathroom so we can have our shower together, and how you would always slip your hands around my waist holding me protectively against you on the bed. It’s so torturous just to be inside the apartment without you there with me. And at that time, I don’t know how I am going to handle life without you at all in my life. That’s why I make a decision to stay with my sister.
Being away from you makes me think a lot about our love. We been together for years already, right? We already have an establish relationship with each other. We love each other and hold on tight on each other, right? I know your weakness and you know about mine. I know all your quirk and fault, and that doesn’t make me love you any less before, right? In fact, I think I love you more because I know that about you, because you won’t show that weak side of yours just to anyone, just me because I’m special for you, right? Then, how could this awful thing happened to us? When do I start to doubt you? Why are we starting to drift far apart from each other? Why didn’t we communicate to each other anymore?
Then, that when I realize, that none of this is our fault. Not yours, and not mine either, but it’s all THAT WOMAN’s fault. It’s true isn’t it? She tried to take you away from me. First, she planted those doubt in my mind. Did you know, she confronted me once, saying that you don’t need me any longer since you have her now? And she can give you the one thing I can’t, a child. Oh how I wish I’d just kill her on the spot, if I know that confrontation will lead us into this. But I didn’t do anything back then, because you both were friends and I don’t want to have a fight with you because of her. Well, we did end up breaking up because of her after all. And that’s why it hurts so much.
But Ryo, these last few weeks, all the effort you throw to apologize to me, to try and woo me back again, has slowly heal the wound in my heart. It might be a very long time for it to be completely heals, but I’m willing to give us another try if you are still up for it. Because one thing that I’m sure in my heart is, right this moment, I can’t live without you. You have been in my heart for a very long time, Ryo, and you still are. I have never, ever stop loving you.
Anyway, if you still want me and you to become us once more, I will be waiting for you at our special spot at the park on White Day at 6 pm. When I’m writing this letter, I’m actually on my way to visit one of my cousin but don’t worry, I’ll be back soon and will be waiting for you there.
Love,
Tatsuya
I can barely contain my joy of laughter as I finish reading the letter. Finally, Tatsuya and I are going to be together again. I look up to the clock on the wall, to determine how much time I have before my meeting with Tatsuya. It’s ten o’clock in the morning and I’m already planning to make Tatsuya’s favourite food to bring with me later. As I plan what else to do before going out shopping for the groceries, I hear my phone ringing. I look at the caller ID and Yamapi’s name come up. I pick it up to tell him my great news.
“Pi, Tatsuya and I are going to be together once again. He forgives me, Pi. We’re going to be lovers once more. Isn’t it great?” I shout at him with gleeful tones.
“That’s great, Ryo-chan. But, I think you should turn on the news channel on your TV right now, Ryo-chan.” There is something wrong that I can’t identify in Yamapi’s tone of voice that makes me curious and kind of nervous at the same time. I quickly do as he tells me.
“UEDA TATSUYA, A MEMBER OF POPULAR BAND, KAT-TUN, IS SAID TO BE ONE OF THE VICTIM OF THE PLANE CRASH THAT HAPPEN EARLIER TODAY………”
The End